"Hmm…" Cao Mei put down the wine bottle and seemed to let out a refreshing moan. She wiped the wine from the corner of her mouth, a hint of drunkenness in her eyes. She stared intently at Bai Ru and said in an extremely deep tone, "Actually, I consider myself quite lucky. Have you ever tried to die and couldn't?"
"Just like A Xue!" Cao Mei sighed heavily and said helplessly, "She didn't even know who took her first time. That time, she was held down by a dozen old men who hadn't bathed in a long time, right in the dirty mud. Old Hu was among them. A Xue was still a virgin then, being toyed with by those men one after another, screaming in agony. Didn't she want to die? But could she die? They even held her mouth shut and stuffed her with their thing. If she struggled too much, they would just slap her…"
"…At that time, she didn't even know how many times she passed out. I still remember it clearly; it was as if she was nailed to the ground with a nail, unable to move. Her legs were pressed against her shoulders, almost breaking in half. Even when she passed out, those men didn't let her go, each one excited like a beast, while A Xue couldn't even scream, her mouth filled with blood!"
As Cao Mei spoke, she tilted her head, looking expressionlessly at Bai Ru, and said, "A Xue was toyed with by them for more than half a month, from the beginning of wanting to die to becoming completely numb. And when those men got tired of her, no one would bring her food. If it weren't for her classmates who exchanged their bodies for some food to feed her, she would have starved to death long ago. But in the end, didn't A Xue still choose to sell her body? Because without selling her body, she simply couldn't survive. Bai Ru, let me ask you, if A Xue were you, what would you do? Being tossed aside in a corner, no one cares, your chastity, your pride, everything is gone, and you're so hungry you're about to go crazy. Could you still maintain your dignity?"
"I…" Bai Ru looked at Cao Mei with an exceptionally ugly expression, but after hesitating for a long time, her final answer was that she didn't know. She truly didn't know. Just as Cao Mei said, without personal experience, it was indeed impossible to understand!
"We are all normal women; we are not worthless. No one would willingly degrade themselves. We can only blame this fucking doomsday; it forces us to become a group of whores!"
Cao Mei gripped the wine bottle and shouted, clearly angry when talking about this matter. But after she vented her emotions a bit, she shook her head helplessly. Looking at Bai Ru's bewildered expression, she smiled and said, "Alright, Bai Ru, go home and get a good night's sleep. Remember my words, it's not the past anymore; you need to look at things from a different perspective!"
White Ru carefully examined Cao Mei's flower-like pretty face, nodded slightly, stood up, and silently walked towards the car. Jack, who had been silent, also wanted to follow and go back to sleep, but was suddenly hugged around the waist by Cao Mei, looking at him with a pitiful expression, and said, "Master Lin, you can accompany White Ru for a whole night, but can't you spend even an hour with me? Even if you don't fancy me, can't we at least be friends and chat?"
Jack glanced at Cao Mei, said nothing, but relaxed his body. Cao Mei smiled happily, quickly took out a pack of cigarettes from her jacket pocket, pulled one out, lit it, took a light puff, and then eagerly placed it in Jack's mouth. Jack didn't refuse, took a few puffs, and looked at Cao Mei, saying, "Aren't you going to smoke?"
Cao Mei shook her head while holding Jack's arm, smiling as she said, "I know you definitely wouldn't like to talk so closely to a woman who just smoked!"
Jack noncommittally shifted his gaze back to the dark night sky and said lightly, "What you said to Bai Ru was actually meant for me, right?"
"Not entirely!" Cao Mei slowly leaned on Jack's shoulder and whispered, "I know that telling you these things won't really resonate with you. You've seen things much more brutal than this on your journey. Our issues are nothing compared to that, but even if it's futile, I still want to share it with you, hoping you can understand me. Just like you once told me, being a bit selfish in this world isn't a bad thing. I'm really just trying to protect myself. I just want you to try to understand me, to see that beneath my selfish exterior, I don't have a heart of stone! And what I said to Bai Ru was just to prevent her from viewing us through colored glasses. Before doomsday arrives, my pride is really no less than hers!"
"I understand why you told Bai Ru, but I think it's completely unnecessary for you to say so much to me. As friends, mutual respect is enough. Understanding each other is something that only couples need to do. Do you really think we could... fall in love?" Jack slightly turned his head, looking seriously at Cao Mei.
"Hehe~ I never dared to think about it, I almost didn't even have the luxury of hope!" Cao Mei smiled bitterly, shaking her head, lowering her head, and said in a somewhat subdued voice, "No matter how much I say I had no choice, it doesn't change the fact that I'm an unclean woman. If I were still a pure woman, even if I had been with just one man, I would boldly tell you that I want you to love me. But... I have bowed my head in front of several men. Although it was humiliating, I still complied. I don't want a righteous man like you to fall in love with a woman like me who has already been tainted..."
"...Whether you believe it or not, even though the world has become like this, the days I've spent by your side have been the most comfortable moments of my life. I haven't dreamed of the nightmares that have troubled me for many years. Knowing that you are around, I really sleep soundly! Don't think I'm being hypocritical; I really like you. Although I haven't liked you to the point of love yet, I don't think it will take long. I don't expect to gain feelings from you; I just want to follow you, to let you create a warm sky for me, even if it means being a lover who comes and goes without needing to care about my feelings!"
"You know I can't do that. You're a person, not an object. Once you're with me, I can't help but care about your feelings, so being a lover... is simply impossible!" Jack frowned and lowered his voice.
"Caring is good; it means I will serve you even more wholeheartedly. But caring doesn't equate to love. Without love, being lovers can still be wonderful, and..."
At this point, Cao Mei smiled slightly, as if she suddenly transformed into a soft-bodied beauty snake. Her left hand gently hooked around Jack's neck, and as she leaned into Jack's embrace, she pressed her face close, gazing intently at Jack, exhaling the faint, pleasant scent of wine from her mouth, saying, "You men all need to release your desires. Just like yesterday, when I helped you, you didn't refuse. Although I'm not a clean woman anymore, you have to admit that my body is still very beautiful. Just like after you held Thomas all day, don't you think it's time to relax on me? Just like a lover who steals away for physical pleasure, pure sex has nothing to do with love!"
As she spoke, Cao Mei smiled charmingly, her allure seeming almost natural, appearing completely unpretentious, exuding a captivating charm that came from deep within. Jack felt a moment of daze; he had never thought a woman could be so enchanting, so breathtakingly alluring.
Cao Mei wrapped her arms around Jack's neck, her sensual lips tracing a graceful arc. From her open neckline, Jack could clearly see everything inside; Cao Mei wasn't wearing a bra, yet her breasts were still flawless, resembling a pair of classic artworks—firm and full, with a few lingering drops of light red wine, making one unable to resist the urge to stick out their tongue and lick away that distracting red.
Cao Mei smiled seductively, her already captivating big eyes now veiled with a layer of dreamy mist. Tilting her head, she gradually closed the distance between them. When her fiery red lips pressed against Jack's, her remaining hand grasped Jack's right hand, gently guiding him to slowly place his somewhat rough hand on her full chest.
"Hmm…"
Cao Mei let out an incredibly tempting moan from her nose, and a soft, agile tongue instantly slipped into Jack's mouth, actively entangling with his. Cao Mei's body seemed to grow softer, feeling the large hand that was freely kneading her chest, a deep sense of satisfaction flickered in her intoxicated eyes.
It must be admitted that Cao Mei is an exceptional woman. Not only is she mature and beautiful, but she is also incredibly sexy and fiery. Most importantly, she understands men very well, deeply aware of what they want, quickly grasping their preferences. The term "stunning beauty" is hardly sufficient to describe her; if one must describe her, she can only be called a "seductress"!