Chapter 45: Yu Xiaogang's Impotent Rage, Yu Jingcheng: Love-Brained Serves Him Right!
Bibi Dong suddenly grabbed a pillow and hurled it at the maid standing silently to the side, her face expressionless.
But the soft pillow had no force; the maid easily caught it, put it back, her eyes like those of a surveillance puppet, devoid of any emotion.
Bibi Dong gasped for breath, trying to mobilize her soul power.
But her body was empty; the once surging, powerful force was completely locked away, leaving her like a bird with broken wings, even suicide a distant dream.
She tried starving herself, but there were always ways to keep her alive.
She tried ramming herself, but the constant surveillance denied her even the chance to die.
She was like a collectible forcibly branded with someone else's mark, stripped of even the power to destroy herself.
Day after day, in boundless despair and hatred, her belly gradually swelled.
She could clearly feel the growth of that little life, but this process brought her not the warmth of motherhood, only bone-chilling humiliation and overwhelming hatred.
Countless times she cursed in her heart, hoping this "bastard child" that should not exist would disappear.
However, under absolute military restraint and strict guard, she could not even do that.
The scenes shifted, time flew by.
Finally, after a "birth" witnessed by no one, only cold instruments and indifferent gazes, a baby's cry rang out in the secret room.
The scene gave a brief shot of the newborn girl.
She had sparse golden hair, her tiny fists waving, completely unaware of the original sin of her birth, and the pain she brought to her mother.
Bibi Dong on the bed simply closed her eyes wearily and numbly, no tears in the corners of her eyes, only dried blood and a deep, bone-deep hatred.
She didn't even glance at the child, as if it had nothing to do with her, merely a dirty appendage to be stripped away.
[This woman was the future Qian Renxue.
Her birth was not the fruit of love, but proof of power, possession, and sin.]
The commentary in the heavens, like a final judgment, branded this dark past.
Heaven Dou Empire, Heaven Dou City, Crown Prince's Eastern Palace.
"Clang!"
Qian Renxue (Xue Qinghe) could no longer maintain her princely composure, collapsing backward as if all her strength had left her, overturning the sandalwood chair behind her.
Her face was deathly pale, her golden pupils trembling violently, almost glazed over.
"Bastard... I am... a bastard..."
Qian Renxue repeated these two words in a daze, each word like a poisoned dagger, piercing her heart, which already yearned for maternal love, leaving it riddled with holes.
All along, she had thought her mother was simply cold-hearted, or too busy with the affairs of the Spirit Hall to care for her.
She thought it was because she wasn't good enough that she couldn't gain her mother's approval.
So she worked desperately, disguising herself and lying in wait, wanting to accomplish something earth-shattering to prove herself and earn that unattainable sliver of warmth.
But now, the heavens mercilessly tore away all pretense.
It turned out that from the moment she was born, her very existence was the source of her mother's deepest shame and pain!
That indifference wasn't neglect, it was bone-deep hatred!
That disgust wasn't because she wasn't good enough, but because she carried the blood of the man who had ruined her mother's life!
"Hahaha..."
Qian Renxue laughed softly, a laugh shrill and desperate, tears streaming uncontrollably down her face, washing away the disguise that belonged to Xue Qinghe.
"So that's it... all my efforts were a joke... I shouldn't have been born at all... I..."
All her beliefs, all her perseverance, collapsed completely at this moment.
Her reverence for her father, her longing for her mother, the meaning of her mission... all turned to nothingness and absurdity.
She felt like a clown fooled by fate, living in a colossal lie.
Shrek Academy.
Yu Xiaogang was struck dumb, frozen in place, as if turned to stone.
He stared at Bibi Dong's despairing, numb eyes in the sky.
Hearing her self-loathing cries of "bastard child," his heart felt like it was being gripped by an invisible hand, the pain almost suffocating him.
"Dong'er... Dong'er..."
Yu Xiaogang murmured, his voice trembling uncontrollably.
Only now did he truly understand why Bibi Dong had left him so resolutely, uttering those seemingly heartless words.
It wasn't because she had changed her mind, not because of pressure from the sect, but because she had suffered the cruelest trampling and humiliation in the world!
She didn't want to implicate him, she wanted to protect him, and so she bore this hellish pain alone!
And him?
Where was he then?
He was blaming fate, he was giving up on himself, he resented her "betrayal" in his heart!
He had never even imagined that she might be in hell!
"I'm such a waste! Utterly useless!!"
Yu Xiaogang slammed his fist against the wall beside him, his fist instantly tearing open and bleeding profusely.
But he felt no pain, only boundless regret and heart-wrenching guilt.
He had always thought of himself as the victim, the one who had been wronged.
But now he realized how terribly wrong he had been!
Bibi Dong had endured a thousand times more suffering than he could imagine!
And he, because of his pitiful pride, had wallowed in despair for decades!
"Qian Xunji! Spirit Hall!!"
Yu Xiaogang's eyes were bloodshot as he let out a beast-like growl, his hatred for the Spirit Hall reaching an unprecedented peak.
This hatred was also mixed with a deep resentment at his own incompetence.
Sun Moon Continent, Bright Empire, Imperial Palace Observatory.
Yu Jingcheng and Xu Jinlan embraced, also watching the suffocating tragedy unfolding in the sky.
Seeing Bibi Dong's desperate state of being imprisoned and forced to bear children, even with their current status and mindset, they couldn't help but feel a sense of oppression.
After a long while, Yu Jingcheng sighed softly, his tone carrying a condescending scrutiny and incomprehensible感慨:
"This Bibi Dong... her plight is certainly pitiful, and Qian Xunji's actions were indeed beastly.
But upon closer examination, her own 'love-struck' nature is also the key to this disaster."
Xu Jinlan nestled in his arms, nodding slightly upon hearing this, a hint of agreement and a slightly...amused expression appearing on her beautiful face.
Although she was also a woman and could better understand the humiliation and pain suffered by Bibi Dong, from the perspective of a ruler and a strongman, she also found it difficult to agree with Bibi Dong's early choices.
"Your Majesty is right,"
Xu Jinlan's clear voice rang out, carrying a rational analysis bordering on coldness.
"The Spirit Hall has poured all its resources into nurturing her.
Twin spirit souls, the position of Holy Maiden, a personal disciple of the Pope, unlimited resources...
These are opportunities that countless spirit masters dream of but cannot obtain.
She could have used all of this to secure her position as the Pope's successor, and in the future, rule the Spirit Hall and wield absolute power over the continent."
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