Thank you for taking time out to read my very firstbook edition. I am truly humbled that and praythat you enjoy every bit of this book. It is a journeythrough a very small part of being a teenage girl andhaving to deal with the very big world of school.Knowing that school has its own world and waysdoing things that is completely different to the worldof home and being with your family. High schoolrequires a new family and adapting to a new world.
This book gives you insight of a young teenage girlexperiencing high school . The high school sheattends is the community high school , her familycomes from small beginnings with a family of fivewhich is her stay at mom due to unemployment ,her three older siblings that have completed schooland now are adults . Shaunz is the only one left tocomplete school and her siblings work while her
mom takes care of their home and takes care of her.She has been raised in a single parent home andappreciates all her family does for her and the hardwork her mom has had to do for them. In
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My name is perfect. I am named uniquely, thepronunciation of my name is a real challengeand amazingly as much as it is annoying.. Well thereis appreciation in it as well. Oh! Yes !! My nameis Shaunz and no, it is not Shaun! Neither is itpronounced as Shaun. I am a young teenage girlattending a community school. I am a last born of 4kids and the last one in school… That is a coloredcommunity high school. The government fundedschool, ugh the "under privileged governmentschool" you know,the one where your classes arefilled up with 39 more students that look like you3but just don't have the same manners or upbringingas you do! Yup, so that's the school i attend. Myhome is km away from the school and i live in asingle parent home and that is a
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bedroom flat withmy handsomely annoying brother and my beautifulsoul mother. My mom is just amazing , she is a stay athome mom, fair lady with some beautiful green eyesi wish i had! I got the beautiful smile and dimples… So i am happy. My mom is unemployed and ourdays are challenging but the fact that i come homefrom school to a cooked meal is just such a bonus forme. There is no that can make my cup of coffee likeshe can or make my sandwiches the way she does!! Life is hard but the love i have around me is justeverything and so much much more.Let's get back to the business , so the school i go toois different. I feel as if i am in a competition from thetime i enter these huge gates. My hair has to be theright color, it has to be a hairstyle that is approvingamong st the girls ! Uniform length has got to beright ,not too long and not too short because you willstand out and have no friend click!! So i am new andhere i am in my white and yellow uniform which isjust above the knee, black school shoes ,socks abovethe ankles and not folded (its a fashion trend ) and ablack blazer with a badge which shows my full name& grade .
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So my day begins with tripping over a banana peel inthe assembly! On my buttocks i land ,hands bruisedand literally the whole school laughing at me !! Iwant to hide and never come back again. How do ifall over a banana peel in front of the whole school?! My first day on the floor and now i am officiallythe first joke of the year and the first news updatein the school local paper .
Wait…! Who is this tall ,hazel eyes browned skinned,breath taking guy helping me up. I could hearnothing over the laughs and all i could do was nodmy head and say thank you
I grabbed my bag from this handsomely breathtaking guy and ran! I took a pass from school ,my skirtwas dirty , my hands were bruised from the stonedconcrete floor and my ego was hurt . I was a laughingstock and i had no idea how i would face tomorrow. I guess my plans for becoming the most beautiful,the coolest girl in the school had just started off inthe worst way . Its just doomed !!
It's 5pm and i am trying to plan my sick days becausethere is no way i can go to school for the rest of thisweek. How do i explain this to mom !
How do i show my face again and who was thehandsome angel that rescued me from the shamei am dealing with ,do i go to school and just walk itout without tripping? Do i hide and play sick untilthey have forgotten about me and moved on to thenext new . I am supposed to be in the school paperfor being the most beautiful girl in the school andnot being called the banana girl, ugghhh! Can i justskip school and get to university . I cannot skipschool because today i met an angel and i have to saythank you , i got to find my handsomely breathtaking,everything and more that i deserve savior !! Letme get ready for the next day because out of thisembarrassing day there is still hope .
I have found hazel brown eyes that have captured mysight. Goals ! Goals ! Goals! Uuhgg i am officiallybanana girl.
A new day and here i go walking down this roadhoping that no one remembers my face from thathorrible banana split episode. All that is playingin my head is not to fall again .My inner self isscreaming "No falling" No falling today ! I cannotwalk with my head down the whole time though,i have goals today . I am like 2 seconds from the
gate and there is so much school taxis on this road ,iswear that these drivers don't know the rules of theroad. There is no place for walking on the pavementand neither is there place to walk on the road . Thesedrivers bang their doors and I'm of sure if that is fora magic trick or for announcing they have arrived?hahaha! It is so silly.
Well ,I am officially in the school and i am so prayingno one laughs at me today . I have my hair tied up in apetal bun and today i have worn black stockings withmy uniform while i am praying inside not be noticedtoday . Which i amazingly slip through and get tomy form class and my teacher is a talk dark lookingguy that seems to be in his mid 40's ,masculine ,talland has a scent of cigars and spices . Its a strangecombination but its quite pleasing and a freshnessto it. He is Mr Joseph that will be taking us formathematics and accounting. We will report to himevery morning @ 7:30am and sign our attendanceregister before moving to the next classes daily. Wewill call him, Mr J.
The bell rings to move to the next class according tothe timetable we have received today from Mr J, wehave biology next which two classes away from MrJ and it is on the first floor which requires us to takethe staircase which in count that i did this morning
is twenty steps with a separation of ten stairs andthen the next set of ten stairs. So after that fall ,thereis no way that i am not checking where i walk ! Westill have got to find my hazel eyes savior.
I get to my next class session and meet our biologyteacher. A beautiful fair lady with hair that justsits above her buttocks ,curly black hair. Hikes thisteacher don't smile at all!!!! She is miss Barn welland she does not wait for students that are late andany chatter during her sessions are not allowed . Sowe sat in silence and we were even afraid to askquestions !! Amazingly she is very good at teaching, we got to learn about chemistry of life. Receivedfive printed pages to take with us and read . Theregoes the bell! We got to find our English teacherand we have no clue where Mrs Oliver's class isso we have officially stopped and a classmate hasstopped a student for details while i am unzippingmy school bag to pack my book inside it because wescrambled from the Maths class . Got it done andas i get up from the ground with my bag, Its him!!!They stopped my guy! Well, they stopped hazel eyes,breathtaking ,savior handsomely guy !!! His smile,oh my its ,oh my . If i could just play his smile inslow motion and capture it.
Righto ! His has directed us to the next class and
she is in the second block on the third floor andthat is all i could recall. I just got to see him and istill did not get to stay thank you. We were late forour next class.and this teacher was not having it !Government school are really not the best schools .The teachers feel so entitled to treat students as theywish ,like it is our first week in school and they haveno common sense here . We are supposed to get lostso that we can find our way around this new school.Teachers need training on how to treat new studentsso that they can actually understand the importanceof having inductions done with the new batch oflearners that come into the school every year . Wellnow that this teacher performed ,we have misseda lesson for the day and we will just name her MrsC(complainer). We just on the stairs waiting for thebell to ring for lunch break and just maybe ,maybe iget to see my handsome ..mm mm.
Lunch break has arrived and i need a spot to chillbecause i need to see Mr handsome and i need tofind the cool girls spots !! So there is a spot at the lastblock next to the tuck shop and there are chairs to siton ,so that's a bonus offhand i can see the assemblyarea from that place. The toilets are visible and ithas views on most of the chill spots . So i have founda spot and i have two girls from my class whichare happy to sit with me which i am so grateful for
! Leah is a chubby girl ,shorty one with straightIndian hair , beautiful and very LOUD and veryenthusiastic. Courtney on the either hand is shy.Very observant ,slim and pretty with very blue eyes .Her hair is shortcut in a fade ,she has short hair andloves shining school shoes . She is a very neat girlto the point of her lunch box,school bag, juice bottleand pencil case colors are matching. Everythingis purple!!! They come from "Well to do" homesis what we call wealthy families in our community. If you can afford to buy school lunch,have goodstationery, both parents are working and your familyowns a car then you become apart of the "well to do"families. This point i am apart of the "less fortunate"family. My family is just making it to survive untilmy siblings can get better jobs so that we can affordcars and a better lifestyle and some good uniformuntil then ,i will just keep focusing on my goals .Lunch break is about forty five minutes of eating.,talking and getting learn about the culture of theschool with the behavior of students and we get towalk around the school and see the groups . Thetoilets have prefects standing in front. The tuckshop has a group of boys that control the lines andseem to make girls just giggle and give money tothem !! In search of my handsome , we found himwalking pass holding hands with a stunning girl withdark brown eyebrows so perfect and tall just the
he was ! Well ,there goes my loss and what perfecttime for the bell to ring !
It is home time and i am starving with hunger ,mentally exhausted and kind of heart broken. I fellin "Like" with a hazel eyed ,handsome and breathtaking guy that has no idea who i really am or noteven my name. One of the good parts of today is thatamongst the craziness in the school,i got two friendsand a famous school chill.spot so i accomplishedsomething today.
Let the walk home begin , thank goodness its nottoo far !! Ooh no,a tap on my shoulder and i turn,praying it's not about the fall.
Uhhm nope ,its him!!!! Mr handsome says 'Hi' cani walk with you ? My tongue is tied ,oh no and ijust nodded .Like ? I nodded and walked with him.I feel so dumbfounded at this moment because iam in shock and at a loss for words . We walked insilence and my inner voice is screaming out and yet iam dead silent!!!! I am walking with my handsomelybreath taking hazel eye hero and i am just dead silent.
We have reached my turn off , i look up into his eyesand stutter good-bye. This guy pulls my hand gentlyand gives off this giggle and i do not know whetheri should focus on that or the fact that he is holdingmy hand while sayings 'My name is Dean MC Cainand it is nice to meet you , what is your name youngflower? Young Flower?? I cant speak , the words arenot coming out, ugghh!! why now . So i manage tosay 'Its young flower! Hahaha(Laughing) now i amquestioning how on earth is my name young flowerwhile walking away and as much as i want to run ,i cannnnnnoooooooottttttt! My legs are like jellyat this point and if i run i will just drop and be acomplete IDIOT. Oh my gosh , he walked with me? Did hazel eyes just tell me his name ? Oh my hatShaunz wwwwwhhhhhhhhhhyyyyy did you just notsay your name. I will go to sleep in heaven with tearsbecause now i just gave myself a new name 'YoungFlower' well if we just think of this positively, likelets just be positive that i will be called 'Young flower'by just him!!!
I walked home into the smell my moms sugar beanscurry that draws you inside from the time you startwalking home from the first floor of the flat, westay on the third floor and yes, hahahaha(laughing) iam good and counting steps . My tummy just sangits hunger from this amazing , amazing glorious
,hazel eyes looking day. Tonight i will surely sleep inheaven, blue skies , beautiful clouds and the soundof Hazel eyes voice, Mr DMAN!!
Wednesday , the third day of the school week and it isjust a glorious day . One of those days without lunchor lunch money however we stay focused . GODhas blessed us with life , a good family , educationand good health. School rounds have started and thefirst subject is with Miss C(complainer) and strangeenough she is ready to do her job today and teachus. Now i have an assignment that is due next weekFriday and a spelling test for next week Tuesday,so our assignment is based on poverty and how itaffects theft well i cannot disagree with Miss C'steaching capabilities as she really is a teacher. Thefirst subject of the day and i already feel motivatedas much i am dying for a cup of tea which i was reallylazy to make this morning which has me fumblingnow because i can feel the hunger demand startingto kick in and water will have to do at this point. Theclosest taps are just behind the toilet even though iam tempted too slide into the office and get some icecold water from the teachers fridge. A tall glass ofice water would not be bad at all with this scorching
sun that has all the scholars burning from this heat.If we had some fans or air cons in our classes thatwould be great ,it is just that government fundedschools are under privileged so we get the back handof things so at this point we have to just pray and ithink fast for better treatment because the breezefrom the wind is the only air con we will ever get .Mr black is sick, so it seems we have a free sessionwhich has a relief teacher that will sit in the classwith the students. Mr black is our life Orientationteacher and from the talks of some of the studentsthey say he is the teacher that hardly works andnow, this is my concern LOL! (laugh out loud) thiswould mean he will just grade us freely. well itslunch break and i have no lunch , my friends arebuying pies and i just love a pepper steak with anice cold coke and afterwards a chocolate! OOOhhhyes please can i have that ,well i believe everythinghappens in perfect time.
I have no money to buy lunch and i font really knowwhat to say , in my response to my friends i let themknow that i font have money , i forgot my lunch andmoney at home. I promise you that being young andfacing teenage life is not for weak! I have to fightmy own battles out here knowing very well i cannotafford lunch or a pie which is not close to having atthis time in my life because of our finances at home
,the best thing to do now is to just tell out a lie. Ihave to fit in or plead hardships and thatch not whati am planning to do . I will keep my front safe andaway from gossip of 'The poor girl' no thanks!
Leah got you a pie & cool drink & she also got mea cool drink as well because i was short on moneyCourtney says . Oh, thank you so much , i got topay you back Leah. Don't sweat it girl! we all sistershere and with all this money i have ,there is no waywe can starve today, says Leah! Let us go sit andhave our amazing meals Courtney responds whilewe walk and laugh together in excitement. We getto share our first bought meal together and i amappreciative with questioning my friendship values.I think i have found friends for keeps and somehowi think they picked up my lack in the plain schoolbag, plain school covers , pencil case and stationarydesigns. My school attire and stationary is basicbecause its what is required , i do not own 'upperclass' stationary . The stationary that comes withpretty designs or characters on or name brandsbetter yet! I am living our affordability life and iam content as much as i am aware of the pressurearound me but when i look in the Mirror, Damn!I am beautifulllllllll. My beauty ,my wholeness iswhat i would like to say is DAMN Beautiful and iam worth everything & much more.
We get to enjoy our meal together and a coke withthat! im so convinced that was a GOD moment, he provided a meal and in particular one of myfavorites even though he left the chocolate out ,iam still so grateful or had i just spoken to soon? Ashadow has just blocked out the sun from us andyes . DMan is standing in front of me just smilingand i want to melt, okay so those eyes and goodlooks got absolutely nothing on his smile. How am isupposed to find my words to use if he always leavesme speechless? Like, what is the resolution to goodlooks , can someone help me find my words ,please?! Kindly ?!
Yes he is holding a chocolate with his hand stretchedto me and i am just staring at him!! Courtney takesthe chocolate and says thank you' oh by the way, hername is Shaunz and Hazel eyes says Nope! Lookingat me with a smirk and says 'her name is YoungFlower' he steps forward and touches the side of mycheek and walks away. I find my voice, wow! thankyou for coming back voice , rolling my eyes because ifont understand why do i keep embarrassing myself.SO i find my voice and shout thank you and he justturns ,smiles and keeps walking. Like,my friend aregiggling at the back and are in amusement until Leahmentions Dean is in a higher grade than us and hisgirlfriend is Kelly that is the 'IT' girl of the school
eeeeewwwwwwwwwwwww day just ruined!!!!!!!!!!!
This week has finally come to an end , this weekendi can study and prepare for the test next week and ihave made it not to be seen by Dean especially afterhearing that he really does have a girlfriend and notjust any girlfriend but the 'IT' girl of the school! IAM the 'IT' girl of the school, well soon to be , verysoon. The last Friday period and i just want to runhome. I am really hoping i don't bump into Deanand his ugly girlfriend and that is how i am going tosee it . This weekend will be a great weekend andby the time i get back to school i would have beenover this week and over the most handsome guy ihave seen, got a chocolate from and a walk! WellMr black gave us our first assignment as well ,so iwill surely be busy this weekend. It is home time,Courtney has a weekend trip to her cousins in a wellknown community that i am soooo afraid of , thegirls in that area do not play with you there . If youeven look at the guys ,you may just loose a fingeror something man. I really don't know how she isso chilled out to spend the weekend there and Leahwants to invite herself over to join Courtney ,Yikes!
All the best to another colored community that isfighting off gangster ism and poverty. We said ourgoodbyes and i am speeding up the road to makesure i am not seen and boom! He is waiting at thelibrary and i am seen, ugh why! why! why! Cansomeone tell this guy to leave me alone and ratherwalk with his UGLY ( amazingly beautiful) girlfriend.So i just keep walking as if i did not see Mr hazel eyesand he follows me all the way to the stop street andinsists that i wait to speak to him while i just keep onwalking until he pulls be backwards by pulling onmy heavy school bag which i now have no controlof , turning around and waiting to hear what it is hehas to say because i have nothing to say and i reallydont enjoy fights. My mother will whip me witha jamboree , i think i will have to re- find GOD allover again she must hear i was in a fight over a boyand that is not even the worst thing!! She must seeany marks on my body , i will become homeless in asecond , Shew , no thanks .
Why are you ignoring me ? are you going to tell meyour name young flower, where do you stay and whywont you talk to me, Deans says. Here i am bodlyresponding and keeping my eyes fixed on a lightpole behind him so that i do not get distracted byhim because then i will just freeze again! In sayingmy name is Shaunz and not like a boy 'SHAUN'
it is SHHAAAAUUUNNNZZZZZZ and i am notignoring you , i just don't want any trouble with yourgirlfriend and you. I cannot afford to be distractedwith anything and i have goals set for this year andthat is my focus. I am grateful that you picked meup off the floor when i slipped and made the firstedition of the school paper and the chocolate as wellbut its going to be better that you stay away fromme.
Walking away feeling like i won the lotto! like a bossand all i feel is stumbling backwards landing intothe arms of someone having almost tripped over myschool bag and my face then being held backwards 'I AM ONE OF THOSE GOALS AND I AM GOINGNOWHERE! he whispered in my ear.
This must be a dream , it had to be a dream. Whywould he say that ? how can he say this to meknowing very well that he already has a girlfriend.I have to stay focused on my goals and having allthese heart melting thoughts is just confusing me . Itis confusing my future plans on becoming the mostcoolest ,most stunning girl in the school and gettingthe highest marks over the grade. Mr DMAN has
become such a beautiful ,unhealthy distraction. Iknow right, it is such a circus and it is only firstweek in this huge school. I need a plan to let thisguy forget that i ever existed . Mom has me springcleaning this room that somehow has become minebecause i am her child and she got us this huge threebedroom place and now ugh! Washing, throwing outsmall clothes and most definitely washing windowsbecause in a colored home there is No, way springcleaning is accomplished if the windows are notwashed unless it is raining and at this point in timehow i really wish it was pouring with rain and i couldjust lay in bed and read a good book! A good cup ofmom's coffee and a peanut butter sandwich wouldjust do the trick. It replaces any meal , i could havethis for breakfast ,lunch and supper .
Mom walks into the room ,inspecting the windowsand turns to look straight at me . "Your windowsare nice and clean my angel, how about i make youa sandwich and call it day ? I need you to go to thegrocery store for me and get us cool drinks , rollsand a roast chicken for supper this evening , i believewe need a break after all this hard work today."no problem mom, i do need to get some fresh airafter all this hard work of cleaning and i still havetwo assignments i need to complete before Monday" I replied to mom.
"I just need a good outfit for this 10 minute walkto get me prepared for anything outside on thesestreets , no way can i be this beautiful and underdressed' There goes my silent thoughts to make suremom does not hear a thing because i cannot affordto slip up and find myself grounded for eternity .All dressed , got me a set of dark blue jeans and awhite tank top with my beautiful pink toed flops onand my toes have a beautiful pedicure with somegold stars on the big toes and yes ,they are justthe cutest pedicure set and my most adorable toesthat do not struggle to live in harmony. It is warmoutside, streets are filled with teenagers , a set ofkids playing skipping with a green skipping rope.There is a group of girls standing and dancing toa tik tok challenge song on the side of our flat. Itis nice to be outside and enjoy the view , i thinki would be outside more often if i was just a bitmore friendlier but friends and having to deal withbecoming comfortable around them would actuallyrequire me to be opened of my life which i am notready for so i think for now i will just keep walkingand enjoying this view outside. The mall is busytoday, there must be a show happening or salesgoing on in the stores today. The plan is to get inquickly and get out the shop just as quick to makesure nobody stops me to have a conversation andyou know the aunties that know mom will stand
forever and ever to talk about church events thati have no clue about and then they want me topass on messages to mom and start their povertyconversation and pity parties i do not have space forin this grocery bag. So i got the cool drinks , rollsand the line for chicken! it looks like the communityhomes will be filled with chicken and rolls for supperthis evening. It looks like Mr Dman is joining infor chicken because he has his hand stuck into missbeauty pageant ! Now i am praying they do not seeme . Why!!!! why must a good Saturday turn outthis way . I cannot even run or hide , this chicken isthe best there is in this little shopping mall of ours.' He turns and our eyes lock while he is so firmlyholding her hand' He walks to me and just standshere staring ?? 'Hello, i say and he just smiles, ' uhyour girlfriend is walking this way .
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Here she comes in all her beauty that is about toshow all the ugly of it too, i mumbled undermy breath as Kelly strides towards us dressed in amini blue dress fitted so perfectly in her perfectlyshaped body and height. I am convinced that shebelongs on a magazine or in a beauty pageant butright now , i just see two horns poking out ontop of her ears ready to devour! 'Babe you didnot introduce me to your little friend' Oh wait aminute.. i know you from somewhere! Oh, you arebanana girl , the one that fell at the assembly arearight infront on all the school students just beforewe could leave for our classrooms. Geez, what anembarrassing moment and if i recall my sweet sweetboyfriend tried to save you from that embarrassingexperience. How did you manage all the laughing ?You are scarred for life now, well it is nice to officiallymeet the banana girl'( Ugly Ugly Girlfriend says) Shewalks away pulling my hazel eyes with her! Ugh
I feel as if this grocery store had just closed up on meand all the attention had just been drawn straighttowards me because of this ugly looking female thatthinks walks on gold dust. Can this day just endalready ? I really don't know why i keep meetingup with this guy and it is so official that he has nocontrol over himself or his ugly girlfriend. He juststood there listening to her speak and just walksaway with her like a controlled robot. How do ibecome the enemy when he is the one that came togreet me and the worst thing is that he just starredat me ? I must just be a painting or some portraitthat is absolutely free to just stare at and then leave.Let me pay for this chicken and run home becausemy afternoon could have not gotten any worse. Justwhen i think it is going to be a cool afternoon ,itjust had to change. I think GOD is trying to tellme something , perhaps i need to just repent forbecoming so mesmerized by Dean.
Home and mom has set the table up for dinner and i
am actually very surprised because i don't remembera mention of any visitors coming to join us . I meana few rolls , chicken and salad with some cool drinkseems pretty basic for visitors . I really am not ina mood for visitors and i do plan on having a latesnack .. Visitors just mean no left over meals and latenights of long boring conversations. 'UHM momi am back, are we having guests over to join us infinishing our delicious chicken and rolls ? I reallydon't want to share my food because that meansi won't have a late snack or a morning sandwichwith the best chicken in the area' 'Yes Dear, i haveset up the table so that we can enjoy a good mealtogether with you. There are no visitors today, ijust thought it would be good too sit at the tableand hear how your week went in school. I do wantto know if you had a chance to find some friendsand learn how to become more approachable. Iknow how shy you can be around big crowds andvery closed off which is something we have to keepworking on. You have plans set out and it requirescommunicating , smiling and adapting to the bigworld. I am your mother and your best interestsand future plans are my concern. I cannot have youstruggle with anything that will affect the shape ofyour future. I need you in top form and this requireschanges ,a lot of changes which we will get rightand with this can we start having some friends over
for dinner so that i do see how your schooling isbringing some change ? Shaunz don't frown at me, ibelieve you are capable of everything and you haveGOD by your side therefore nothing is impossiblemy beauty. This year will be a great year , a year ofsuccess and a lot of joy and love' Mom says.
Yup! It is definitely is a different year mom, can wesit and eat now please because that grocery store hadme standing in that very long line for so long just forthis delicious chicken which will be in my tummy inthe next few minutes . I stood longer for this chickenthat it would take for me to have eaten it! Mom comesit , i will get the plates to start dishing and enjoythis wonderful meal together. 'Thank you my childand don't forget to bring the butter and mayonnaise, i need to add some flavor to this chicken becauseas much they spice the chicken there is still a bit ofdryness to it so we have to make it taste better. Wecannot give everyone our recipe trick now , so wewill just enjoy the mayonnaise.' Now tell me howdid school go this week , how was the experienceof being apart of a much bigger and much moreintimidating crowd.
'It was good mom , i was excited when i entered theschool gates as much as it is just our communityschool but i am grateful that i have a school i canattend and its close to home. I do have two friendsand they are really sweet mom, i will invite themover sometime to have lunch and perhaps we couldjust study together or do some homework. I also gotto meet a few of the teachers and the work load isnot so bad , i did get two assignments that must getsubmitted next week which i need to complete . Soschool is good mom. 'Oh by the way ,i also fell in theassembly area and was the laughing stock until thishandsomely stranger came to my rescue and savedme from such a bad fall that i completely forgotwhere i was when our eyes locked and he lifted me upand i really cannot get him out of my thoughts andhe has completely left me so unbalanced after theamount of times our worlds keep intertwining' Saysmy inner voice that wants to desperately screamout what my life is like at this point and how i justcannot!!!
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'Wake Up angel or else we are going to be latefor church and we cannot afford to be late!It is the baby dedication service, do you rememberthat Pastor mentioned we have two guest speakerscoming to visit today and you know how full thechurch gets with guest speakers and i am too old tobe stuck with no seat dear, come come come .. riseand shine'
Its my beautiful mom again! Only few hours left fora new school week and i just wish i could relocateto a world of hidden treasures or a place called 'nowhere' to stay hidden and just become successful inthe hidden treasures! Hmmmm that would reallywould be interesting come to think about it.Okay,
lets get this morning started with going to the houseof the LORD! if i have to miss a sunday service , iwould have a whole year of discipline and teachingsof how important it is too 'NOT FORSAKE THEGATHERING OF THE SAINTS' Yikkkeeeess nomissing a sunday morning or afternoon better yetevening service unless i want to see the better sideof my mom. Hahahahaha just thinking of it is funnyand traumatizing at the same time. I respect theimportance of church and following the ways ofthe LORD , i honestly just don't want my walk inGOD to ever become strong in religious ways or areligious mindset simply because GOD never hada set structure of gathering with people. He alwaysgathered with his people and did teachings , signsand miracles however it was done so different. GODis truly our turning point in our lives and i will neverstop serving him. He showed up and showed us timeand time again what a great GOD he is in our familyand in everything we have faced so far , our financialhardships and he has been a provider for us. Therewere days where we would not know where ourmeals would come from and our electricity was cutand through all that my mom stayed so peaceful ,always protecting and making sure that we knowit will be alright and it was alright. we never wentto bed hungry , i can never say that i cried for foodor clothes because GOD always came through for
us and even though i never got the best food or themost expensive outfit at that time . I still got whatwas needed not what i felt was needed and it wouldjust be for show and a waste of money.
Lets get this Sunday outfit set! Got me a whitewedged heel which is has two thinned gold strapsover the foot out of my shoe section in my wardrobewhich has stacks of shoes and a knee length dressthat is white with thin straps over my shoulderswhich at this moment is the most convenient towear because it was already in a hanger ironed whichsaves me because i hate ironing and being that i haveover slept and cannot afford to be late for churcheven though we are super early ! My hair is set ina neat bun and yes something i don't mention aremy daily extra pair of eyes - my glasses that are myvision which i cannot live without unless i want tosee my future in a blur. All dressed up and i reallywould love to get back to sleep , it is 8:30 am andchurch is only at 9 am ,i honestly feel robbed for 30minutes of sleep which could have probably takenme into my dreams of becoming a millionaire andowning my 10 bedroom house. Oh, i cannot affordto forget my bible and a water bottle because babydedication services usually have us finishing churchat 12:30 PM , got to tame those hunger worms withsome water.
Lets get to walking! My mom just loves to dress , sheis so beautiful though and i am really truth when isay i have not met someone that has a heart like hers. She never says no to anyone and she always greetsthe world outside! Like, we are walking and not evenin accurate count i feel like she has already seen halfthe community and kept on repeating the words"Bless you my child, Bless you man of GOD andGOD loves you"Mom was so right about the seats inchurch filling up quickly , we arrived and the churchis already at filled up at the front of the church.The first 4 rows are full with people , our churchseats about one hundred and fifty people which istwelve people in a row seated and they separatethe seating into two and make a walking space inbetween the rows. We are seated in the seventh rowfrom the front of the church because usually momprefers sitting the second row but when visitors joina service or if there is baby dedication they wouldusually reserve the front rows for the guests and theevents of the day which we completely submit tooas being a part of the church and mom is a leader inthe church so all protocols observed. Oh we cannotforget the greetings at this time. The church is fillingup and i have to stand up with mom and greet whoshe greets, go to the pastors rows which are thefirst two rows in front and greet all the pastors andtheir families and the leaders of the church and then
finally i get to sit and wait for the praise team toopen. Prayer time and when i open my eyes andthe praise leaders says' greet your neighbor and tellthem GOD is good! So i turn to greet the neighboron my right side and as i greet an elderly lady withshort brown hair , there is Dean MC Cain right nextto her!! Oh no, now its church too, so have schooltomorrow and church today and i have to deal withthe ugly girlfriend but why church ? So now i reallythink GOD is just testing me on this because nowthis is turning out to be a really bad dream.
Only find out that he has stood for welcomingvisitors in our church and the lady i greeted is hismom. They have come to support their familydedicating their child. Shew, i am okay with thisbecause now i can handle just one visit in churchand it will all be over. really hope we leave afterreceiving the blessing from Pastor for the closingof the service . Okay mom is closing in prayer nowand then we can be gone. "The Lord bless you andkeep you. The Lord cause his face to shine upon youand be gracious towards you, GOD loves you untilwe meet again" Pastor releasing the blessing.
We are moving out of our seating area and hopingi do not end up colliding with Dean. I just want toslip out of the church quickly and effortless until
mom says she needs to just finalize the openingfor Thursday meetings with sister Delle and sisterAtarah and i must just wait outside for her , it shouldnot take too long. Great! It looks like i am notthe only one waiting for family because those hazelbrown eyes have just locked with mine and now i amstuck! He is walking straight to me and i cannot evenrun or hide because i am outside this massive churchwith saints all over and if i even move strangely iwill have hundreds of eyes on me questioning whatis 'going on sister with Shaunz' ''Hi, young flower ,it is nice to see that you attend church. A beautifulgirl without GOD is an empty vessel that cannot beyoked with me. So you beautitful, you serve GODand you dress up for it. It is a blessed Sunday indeedfor me and you. I got to see your gorgeous faceagain and i must remind you that i am one yourgoals for this year, you better get used to seeing thisface because you going to see it more often. I amall booked out for you on my calendar, whateveryou have on your calendar i suggest you cancel allyour bookings because it has been replaced by me.Whatever you do, do not pack lunch for tomorrow.I got our menu figured out for lunch breaks atschool, see you tomorrow morning young flower."He smirks and walks away in so much confidence ,leaving me speechless again!!!!!!!!!!!
What am i going to do ?! Did i just hear right , likedid he just mark me and leave me standing therewithout giving me a chance to respond.
OOOH He smells so good, my heart is racing andah between his fragrance that smells so musky andfresh and him dressed in a black formal shoe , aGrey formal pants that sits so perfect on him andhis pants that just lands nicely to sit on his shoe witha black formal shirt , a gold watch on his wrist anda fresh haircut in (of course) his fade. Oh, Shaunzwhat are you going to do here ? He is just so DAMNbreath taking, so DAMN handsome and he believesin the same GOD as you. Shaunz! you are in trouble,good trouble or is this bad trouble ? I think i havecompletely forgot about that Girlfriend.
I am walking home and all i can think about is Dman.he just told me not to bring lunch and my calendaris booked . what does this guy mean ,like how musti interpret this ? I think i am about to play sicktomorrow or get to school late so that i do not seehim or his ugly well beautiful girlfriend.I will just get to school late tomorrow! No Dean .No Kelly. which means a good planned day!
CHAPTER=4
What a beautiful morning, the sun is alreadyshowing off . This is the favorite season ofthe year for me, warm mornings and no rain whichis a bonus because i really do not enjoy anythingwet on me , wet clothes get stuck on your skin and ifreeze. It is 6:45am Monday morning which alreadyhas me late ,so it seems the plan is working and mumhas not come to shake me up and pull my duvets offso that is a bonus for me! A new week and i havetoo survive school.
Lunch packed , hair done , school books packedand i cannot afford to leave my assignments behindunless i want a big zero in my record sheet. Okiedokes time to go and yes i am purposely late today ,
hehehe(laughing) and i am fully aware that schoolstarts at 7:30 am and here i am leaving the houseat 7:30 which will get me there at 7:45 walking ina slow paste just to make sure that it all clear at theschool gate and all the students are in class! well,to be specific i do mean Dean and Kelly. Goodbyemom, i will see you later . I hope you have a goodday i scream out to mom from the front door .
School is very quiet at the gate and the securityhighlights the my lateness and i explain to him howvery sorry i am and can i please get a pass as i amstill so new in this school. So it is all green for meand he still walked me to my class to inform theteacher that i got lost which was a ''lie''. My teacherseems exhausted , i am not sure if he partied orwent to church but he clearly had a full weekendbecause he just said go sit and has been Yawningnon stop! I think he actually has forgotten we are inhis class ready to learn. Hehehehe (Laughing) Thebell rings and my teacher informs us that we have arehaving lunch break now due to the teachers holdinga meeting for the next two periods to sort out thetimetables and get the matriculants set teachersfinalized for the year.
My friends and so sit in our usual spot and Courtneygets us bottled water and cool drinks from the tuck
shop , we chatter and catch up about the weekend.My friends are so advanced about dating and i amjust sitting here looking like a nerd ,because i have noexperience whatsoever about dating guys yet alonekisses and hugs . These girls have boys that writeletters to them! Courtney opens her letter and showsus how this Mike guy from down the road where shestays wrote her this letter and it has red hearts andflowers on the letter stating how much he likes herand would love to talk to her in school during lunchbreak ,so they can become girlfriend and boyfriend!Well, it looks like i am the weird one amongst thepack because nobody has wrote me a letter or evenhugged me! This has me asking myself if i am reallynormal ? or maybe it is my glasses that just givesoff this nerdy look and completely keeps the othergender away from me or perhaps it is actually goodbecause it really can distract a person . I mean, Deanis not mine but having all this experience with himalready has caused me to be distracted. so i guessi am good being the nerdy girl. Ooh my friendsreally bring some good food to school, we have apink blanket from Courtney's home layed out onthe floor and our cool drinks, water bottles and ourlunch boxes ready to devour all this good food. Ibrought chicken sandwiches and Courtney broughtus ham rolls with lettuce and cucumber filled insideand mini steak schwarmas and chocolate cake for
dessert! We get relaxed on the blanket , pray for ourmeals because we all believe in the same GOD whichi am truly grateful for and we start to eat and enjoythis blessed meal together and i so happy for thecake, it is my weakness. Courtney says under herbreath, uhm , i think we have a visitor coming thisside but don't turn right now ladies and of course iturn because at this point my heart is racing, i ampraying that it not who i think it is and boom! DeanMc Cain in the flesh standing firmly on the left sideof me and joins us on the blanket and sits right nextto me. Holding a pink lunch box and a juice on topof the lunch box . He sits and greets my beautifulfriends and places the lunch box and juice in frontof me and says ' Hi young flower, i missed you thismorning at the gate but lucky for me i always do myrounds in the school. Here is your lunch, i cannothave you starving. Which is your lunch box becausei know you did not listen to me ' Courtney smilesand give him my lunch box while telling him it ismade with lots of love . Dean stands up holdingthe lunch box and thanks Courtney . While i amhere but it seems like my friends have no problemhelping with getting me completely owned by thisguy because they see no problem at all knowing hehas a girlfriend.
'Enjoy the lunch ladies 'Young flower, don't be latethis afternoon. I will see you after school at the gate.If you try and hide from me, i will come home andintroduce myself to mom. I told you that i am thegoal this year.
Oh my gosh! Oh my Gosh! Oh my gosh! Shaunz,did he just tell you that you are his girlfriend ? Ohmy gosh!!! He has officially made it known to theschool that you belong to him and that means thathe was not with Kelly!!!! Courtney can you believeShaunz is with the hottest guy in the school. 'Kellyis screaming with excitement'
The bell rings and we got to pack up quick and getto class , we rush and get in last because of packingour stuff. I promise you, my teacher really had ahectic weekend because he is still in sleep modeeverything about him is so sluggish today and herealizes that he supposed to tell us to pack our bagsand we are closing school early today because theyhave to have a second meeting. So we pack up andwhile everyone is excited , i am dreading leavingthe school knowing very well i have Dean Mc Cainwaiting for me. We walk out of the class, down thestairs and he is waiting at the end of the staircase!!There is no running here or finding an excuse toavoid him.
Dean says he will meet at the gate, he left his bookin class and he needs it to study. So my friends and iwalk out together which excitement because its anearly school day. Dean runs behind to catch up withme and i say my goodbye's to Courtney and Kellywhile my mind is racing with so many thoughts .
Dean and I started walking my usual way to gethome and he grabs my hand and locks it in withhis.We have fellow scholars staring at us . I don'tknow what to say either than question him . Deanwhat about your girlfriend ? This is not fair to me .
'Young Flower , You are my girlfriend'
'Kelly is my friend that i use to keep the girls awayfrom me . Well now that i have you, that is all thatmatters' You are all mine now , hands held to his lips& places a kiss on my hands.
Five
Conclusion
I am the only Dean Mc Cain's girlfriend. My calendar is messed up !!!!!
Thank You for reading my first book editions .
Keepa lookout for the next book called ' Oh so much more'