Chaos, that was what came once the presence of two females are at odds, Murder and absolute destruction is what will be left in there wake. Fresh in one's mind I try to drown out the argument that transfold between those two while i was playing the role of mediator, all while listening to a quote on my phone.
"Bitch! Why don't you wipe it up!?"
"Wipe what up!? I am not walking behind you.. Do I look like your maid?"
As the argument replayed and raged in my thoughts my favorite quotes slowly started repelling the chaos of that moment.
[I'm just an ordinary guy.. But I have hit my damn Limits!]
"All you ever do is walk and look for trouble, even though we don't talk to you..."
"A Friend you are looking for, but I am not looking any friendship from you.."
[Your Limits? Who decided what your limits are... Instead of focusing on all your set backs, just focus on moving forward..]
The more I cranked the volumn of my earbuds trying to drown out there voices, is the more there fight rages on in my thoughts..
[The strong should aid the weak...That is the law of life...]
[As long as I am still alive, I have infinite possibilities...]
Stepping out the house and going into the back yard into the woods that live behind. I started to shadow box alone in silence, punching and fighting a invisible being to vent my torment and frustration.
" Bitch, It's because you want him to fuck you again johncrow! But your pussy is salt. That's what is hurting you.."
"Old gal! me want to fuck him!? girl a your pussy salt johncrow.."
Left right, left right, I attacked the air much more fiercely, sweating and beating the air I fought and fought, not knowing my battle was not with them, but... My battle was with myself...
[I twisted myself into knots for so long, all in the name of justifying my life, that is where I truly lost..]
Finally stopping and going back inside the house, I had a seat on my ottoman at my bedside. Changing the audio to a different quote all while lighting up a ganja scliff and puffing in the toxins..
[I see.... Your eyes has more power in them... Good....]
[The only reason I fight... Is because I have to fight... I have to Win...]
[If you want to control that power of yours, take your sword and cut down your enemies..]
[There is no other Path.. So Fight!]
As I heard the last line in that quote everything went silent and still, within this moment I was sure the weed was in effect, however instead of its usual crazy result, instead it gave clarity...
Leaning back and closing my eyes, I changed the audio one last time and listen to the quote as I lay there on my bed.
[Your Majesty, Become a True King, after all... Your magic... Is never giving up. So I know you can do it...]
[I swear to you... I am destined to become the greatest ruler of all times..]
[I refuse to just give up...]
[It is the duty of the ruler to look after his people..]
[It is up to you, no one else can do it. So stop crying, and do what has to get done..]
With those final lines, I opened my eyes gazing at my cieling, silent but with absolute clarity. All I said was this...
" I Know What I Must Do Now.... My story cannot come to a end now, not until I can shape a new future for myself,... my friends,... and my family..."
"A future that brings about change.. Tha"t's my role as King... In this life.."