Sitting in his room Mikhail gazed out his window silently as he absorbed the peace of the night..
Speaking, he started to pray aloud to the night and whom ears wishes to listen..
"Father God a me again eno.. I'm just here thinking about a lot of things... Feeling a lot of things.. and honestly it's mostly overwhelming I have to say..."
" I can't really share these feelings with anyone cause I doubt they can truly understand... However I just wish to speak them to you... Cause I know ... You understand.."
" God you know that.. today I went to the hospital, seem like I'm not all too well as I thought... I got a lot test to get done.. X rays, blood test and a few other stuff... Which honestly... It kinda worries me.. but you know I can't afford to show that worried look to the world..."
" In all of this I really wish to share all these pains and worries with Lorelei... However things are not so good between us..."
" Think I'm loosing her eno father God... As usual no matter how I try seem I'm making things worst.... So yeah.... I can feel her drifting away... And honestly if I haven't lost her already.... I know for sure... It's just a matter of time until I do..."
" Either way god... As much as I love her.... Cherish her.... If I am losing her... Then I won't hold her back... Maybe it wasn't meant to be... Maybe I'm holding her back.... Or more importantly... Maybe I wasn't the one meant to stay by her side and give her happiness... Even though I really wish to be the one..."
" And if what I'm feeling is really happening is true... All I ask of you Lord... Please... Don't let it hurt too much for her.... Let me feel all the pain... After all I deserve it..."
" And as long as she breaths and live, please guide her, keep her.... Give her strength in the time of need.. give her wisdom and understanding when she needs it the most... Give her growth and prosperity.. because she deserves it... Lord God... She is a wonderful woman.. so please guide down the path where she will find happiness and love... Even if it's not with me... That's all I ask..."
" She working hard.. I see it everyday... She loves and worship you.... So please take good care of your child.."
" As for me, I'll return to the shadows... The darkness... That place where it seem I truly belong and was always fated to be.... Not in the light where Flora or Lorelei lives... But in the shadows... The place where I can watch over them and be there protectors... There shield and if need be there swords..."
" I know the path I have chosen is a lonely one... One driven down the path of solitude... And profound loneliness... But if it's the path I must thread forth... To make those around me happy... To make Lorelei happy and have a good life.... I'll walk that path alone willingly..."
" So God with that being said.. I won't keep your time much longer... I just wanted to breath my thoughts to you..."
" So even if I'm losing Lorelei... Even if I'm losing myself.... All I pray and ask of you.. please take good care of Lorelei... Take good care of those I love the most... There happiness... Is what matters to me the most..."
" And with that.... I say amen... In your name... In your son names. And in all the gods names.... Ahemn...."
Having finished his prayer to the night.. Mikhail breath slowly and leaned back as he took in the silence of the night.. bathing in its melancholy aura.