Lucifer woke up from his nap, still snuggling in her breasts but with purity, without any perverted thought, like a baby, a child clinging to his mother.
Lucifer's past life as Michael was quite tragic: no parents, no love, no freedom, no money, no girlfriend, no attention, always betrayal and deceit, and lastly an unfair death. No one wants this kind of life even in their worst dreams, but Lucifer had lived through it and knew the difficulty of it.
While he was waking up, Mia had already woken up but still pretended to sleep and kept her eyes closed. Lucifer, oblivious to this, woke up from the bed, caressed her hair affectionately and kissed her forehead. There was no resemblance of any motive, any sex appeal or any kind of lust. Just pure love and affection. Mia's heart clenched when she remembered what Lucifer had murmured before sleeping and lost in thought: 'When did I ever leave him? Why is he so clingy now? Why is he showing such affection? I'm always with him, always showed him my love, never left him, so why is he murmuring like that… I left him forever.' Unaware of Lucifer's past, she kept thinking like he was her son Lucifer that he always knew, but only Michael knew that the old Lucifer had died in a gang war and he was the new Lucifer, and he cherished every moment of it.
It was only the 4th day of his transmigration but he felt like this was his real family and he had a possessive feeling that no one should harm them — no one, not even himself, would harm them. In this new family of his, he loved Mia the most, like the apple of his eyes. "If even a single hair on her head is harmed, he would unleash a massacre."
But Mia was oblivious to his thoughts as he continued to stroke her hair carefully and lovingly, saying, "Mom, I love you so much."
"So much that I think even for a second you leave my sight I'll go really really mad."
"I don't know why I feel like this but it almost hurts me, breaks my heart when someone hurts you, uses you like some commodity, not like a human."
"Mom, I know you like to have sex, and my this fucker of a dad has a cuckold fetish but it really hurts my heart that someone else is riding you. It's like someone is poking my heart time by time with a sharp nail.
I don't have a problem with sex and you can ride anyone you want or anyone can ride you but if they ever try to force you I'll just kill them or… to say, just eradicate even an ounce of their existence from this land."
"Mom, that day when Derek rode you I could see you were really happy but in pain. I thought that makes you happy even with slight pain, that's why he is still alive. And mom, believe me, if you want I can give you better thrill, orgasm and sex than him, but you never asked me."
"Though I know my sisters see me as if I don't exist. Sarah is clingy to Dad and I'm no one. Amelia just wants a baby in her belly and she has other men to satisfy her and really I don't see a problem with it, but it still aches my heart. But I can still endure it. I'm brave."
"Mom———> tell me, do I exist for you?
Or am I just an unwanted byproduct of you and your husband or any other man you have ever had sex with?"
"Do you ever see me as a son, as your own boy, or as your partner? ...… Or am I just a means to solidify your pregnancy?"
By now two big drops of tears dropped on Mia's hand and her heart clenched. She wanted to say something but still kept her eyes closed, because she knew now for the first time in her life Lucifer was even sharing his thoughts and if she missed this chance she might not hear it in the near future.
"Well whatever, Mom. Even if I'm just a commodity, just a tool to get you all three pregnant, I'm still happy with it and will try to be the best tool that you won't replace me in the future."
"I really love you all… Really, you the most. But even if my feelings aren't reciprocated it's ok, I won't complain."
By now Lucifer wasn't a boy with a chiseled body, broad shoulders or anything. He was just like a child begging for affection from his close ones but it seemed like they had closed their doors.
But even so, loyal as ever, he still said, "Mom, you know… I got to know what the Ashers have done to you and Amel… a… ai… I don't know how to express my thoughts or calm down myself. You see, I got to know about how they raped you time after time then raped her for 2 days… How can… th… they be… human… Mom… Mom… Mom… They aren't humans and with beasts we have to behave like one. That's why I have decided from now on I'M no human, Mom… Mom… I'm a beast, a… vile one…"
Lucifer kept murmuring in a slightly high pitch that anyone near him could hear, but oblivious to this he kept his face straight while babbling. Mia's face was full of pain as she was trying to open her eyes and hug him and say all his worries were for nothing.
His cracked voice was filled with so much pain… so much that it was very difficult to express in words for her.
Lucifer kept saying, "Mom I'll, I'll be that vile beast and I started my transformation… I saw today how that vile beast rode you. You know I feel like someone is dicing my heart slowly and feeling happy to see my pain… And after that he abused you. How dare he… he… he has to bear the consequences… I'll make sure of it."
By this time Wisteria was also present at the door and listening to his pain, making her heart clench and her hate for Travis beyond limit like 'How, how dare that vile person cause so much pain to my precious baby master.'
But as always Lucifer, lost in thought without minding his surroundings, kept saying, "So this time Mom… I… Yo… Your vile… useless… useless… good-for-nothing… son/commodity/pet… decided that I'll take revenge…"
Mia, unable to express her turmoil with her clenched heart, just kept thinking why… why does he say he is a commodity/pet? Does our neglect or giving him less time lead to this… Is it me who is the reason for his this state that he thinks he isn't my son but a tool for my selfishness?
But Lucifer's next words nailed the coffin of her horror and terror. She woke up and sat beside him while still staring at him, thinking how she could bring him back to be normal…
"Revenge so brutal that even God above gets goosebumps.
Mom… Mom you know… Travis said he would bring a horse and that horse will knock you up… for creation of a new species… So I asked him to stay here for a month… You know… Hhahahhahahhahaahhhaha… He, utter fool, complied… Then told his knights… Hehhehehhe… to go back… And just after that when the knights left Everwood territory I just neutralized him… I… I… TUGGED HIM WITH ROPE, THEN BOUND HIM WITH A LOG HEHEHHEHEHE… AFTER THAT I STRIPPED HIM NAKED… THEN ASKED ALLEN TO BRING A CLEAVER AND PLIERS THEN PLUCKED EVERY EVERY BIT OF HIS FINGERNAILS… THEN I HELD HIS DICK WITH PLIERS AND CLEAVED IT IN THIN SLICES… VERY THIN… NOW I HAVE COLLECTED IT ALL AND I'LL NOW GO AND FEED IT TO DOGS OUTSIDE… HEHEHE."
He laughed like he wasn't some human but rather a maniac in clothing… And this sent shivers down the spine of both Mia who was inside and just beside him and Wisteria who was at the door eavesdropping.
Lucifer kept laughing maniacally and said, "AFTER THAT I TOOK A ROD AND THRUST IT IN HIS ASSHOLE… THAT PLUCKED ASSHOLE… I ASKED HIM THAT HE LIKED WHEN HE RODE YOU IN THE ASSHOLE SO I THOUGHT WHY NOT GIVE HIM THE SAME FEELING… ISN'T MY IDEA GOOD… AND… MOM… MOM… HE LIKED IT VERY MUCH, BUT SAID AFTER SOME TIME THAT IT WAS BORING WITHOUT SENSATION SO I CALLED ALLEN TO BRING SAND… SAND PAPER, ROLLED IT OVER THE ROD AND THRUSTED IT INSIDE… HE FELT SO GOOD THAT HE PASSED OUT FROM EXHAUSTION… ISN'T I'M A GOOD MOTHER… A GOOD TOOL… A GOOD PET…
Just love me a little, I don't want to be alone here."
Then again a stream of tears dropped from his eyes and he said,
"Mom that same horse he bought is riding him.
Isn't karma great?"
"And now I'm going to… give… every member of the Asher duchy the same reward… for treating you and Amel so well… They are gonna love it. You just wait and see…!"
And without even looking behind him or left or right, he walked towards the door, opened it without seeing Wisteria, and dashed straight towards the underground room which was now his personal torture chamber.
Mia, seeing this ferocity in Lucifer, shuddered and started thinking: Why didn't Christopher, being my husband, ever think about it? Why didn't Christopher, also coming from a duchy, ever try to fight for justice for my sake? Why is this child so head over heels for me? Why does he love me so much? Why is he burning his soul for me when I never indulged him much? Why does he care for Amelia and Sarah even if he knows their love is sham towards him? I don't mind getting raped over and over, I know it's exhausting sometimes, abusive, but why is he so angry on my or Amelia's behalf? What right do we have? Why, why does he see himself as some kind of tool which we use to get pregnant? Why doesn't he call himself my son? Why commodity, why tool, why pet but not my son??? What sin did I commit that my son doesn't see himself as human but a vile beast??? Who will answer me? Why is his heart in such turmoil? Why do his tears burn my heart? How, how can I be a good mother, how to love? I never knew how to give maternal love. But it hurts, hurts so much to see him like that. He doesn't want sex, he doesn't lust over me. He doesn't want pleasure, he just wants pure love and affection but still I'm unable to give him just that. But even after our this kind of behaviour, he is burning himself!!!! What right do I have to say he is my son, my blood when I can't even give him the kind of love he wanted…!