I snapped myself out of it just in time. The bloodlust receded, a tide of red leaving my vision, replaced by the terrifying reality of what I was about to do.
I dodged Helen's clumsy charge, my body dipping low. I swept my leg out, catching her ankle, and she went down with a surprised yelp. I didn't stop there.
I followed her down, my body weight crashing onto hers, slamming her onto the concrete with as much force as I could muster up. When she hit the ground, I heard a loud crack, a sickening, wet sound that echoed in the sudden silence of the courtyard.
"Woah look at what the loser did!"
"Was that a wrestling move?"
"Helen's back looks like it broke!"
"I can't believe it!"
"Helen deserves it though!"
"That was so satisfying to watch!"
I was about to decapitate her. For a second it really felt like I could do it. I'm not sure what snapped me out the trance but I was lucky I didn't do much damage at all. "Just be miserable like me." I told her, my voice cold and steady, as I took the honeybun that was poking from her pocket. "You don't need another one of these."
I stood up and walked away before I could say anymore against my will. Students moved and cleared a path for me as I passed, their eyes wide with a mixture of fear and awe.
Luckily everything was caught on camera by multiple students so there's no way the story could get twisted.
I won the fight against that monster and humiliated her as well!
A small part of me really hopes she stays broken if she really is and never is able to participate in all those sports again.
"Two of the same punishments and you're stopping here? How boring," I heard a voice say in the wind. I looked all around me seeing no one... but I could feel that Darius was nearby watching as he said.
I suddenly felt nervous. If this wasn't enough then this would mean I'd have to escalate things somehow to a point where Darius was satisfied.
Why couldn't this be enough?
"Do you seriously think that's enough revenge to make an enjoyable meal?" The voice asked.
Oh... well put that way... no. When it comes to Fauna's underlings, I have years of resentment built up. Helen didn't only beat me up that one time, she's knocked me over for no reason, made people throw food at me and pushed me around just because I was too weak to do anything about it.
If anything she had worse coming to her.
Why'd I let myself get swept up in satisfaction? I've barely made a statement yet. This would be considered letting them off easy.
And even if their lives get ruined by me why should I feel bad? They've had no problem making my life hell for some years now.
I'm just going to end up killing them anyway.
That's right! I could've just never returned here and just picked people on the street to torment... but I asked to return here myself specifically to get back at everyone who had ever harmed me and I've already started.
There's no use complaining about it now.
Fuck my life.
***
"... and that concludes today's lesson. It was pretty easy today so you'd better memorize it well," the second to last teacher of the day said before rushing out of the classroom at the bell.
Ugh, finally. I already knew all this so it was a very boring class. The girl next to me had moved her seat after lunch so I was at the double desk alone, which was fine with me.
She stayed a reminder of what I was trying not to be anymore.
Just as I was about to put my textbook away, I felt it. A sudden, shocking chill, the feeling of ice cold water raining down on me. The class erupted in nervous laughter, a sound I knew all too well. This isn't the first time this has happened either. This stupid blonde bitch did this at least twice a week to me.
I spun and stood up in my chair, my movements sharp and precise.
I stared at the blond, Delaney, this time standing smugly with a bucket, without the brunette beside her.
"Delaney maybe you should-" some girl tried speaking up but got wacked upside her head.
"Shut up!" The blond snapped. "You think you're any different than this bitch who just got a few lucky hits in? In all honestly, everyone knows she's nothing-"
I cut her off with a punch to the face. The entire class froze, the air thick with shock. My knuckles connected with her nose, a satisfying crunch that sent her stumbling back.
"You motherfuck-" I punched her again, grabbed her hair, and slammed her face into the desk.
"Oh my god she's bleeding!" The girl behind us gasped and got up in disgust.
I engraved the thought into my head that all of Fauna's circle loved their pretty faces more than anything. So if anything were to happen to it, it'd be a total and complete emergency so she's bound to not attack. The moment I punched her face, I calculated ruining it with the desk.
It's almost scary how many times I've dreamed of doing this.
I kicked her down to the ground hard and punched her some more. I didn't care if I beat her to death here! If she raises her face I'll kick it! if she blocks with her hand I'll break it!
"Get off of her!" To my surprise Helen, who seemed just fine despite wearing a back brace above her uniform, demanded, yanking me off the blond by my hair.
Bitch! This wasn't even her class!
I stood up before I could hit her again and turned to her not bothering to wipe the blood off my hands. "C-come at me."
Shit! I didn't mean to stutter!
"The last teachers coming!" A student by the door alerted the room. I noticed now that some students had gathered by the door to watch.
"Let's get good for them!" Another called out. I ignored that though because the paranoid part of me was a bit too prepared for the retaliation if Helen was alright.
I grabbed the lock from my locker from my pocket quickly and punched Helen with it in her temple, knocking her sideways to everyone's surprise.