Chapter 28
EVANORA
My eyelids felt heavy as I forced them to open. The piercing flawless white ceiling and light
forced me to close my eyes quickly. I tried to open my eyes again this time slowly. Studying
my surroundings I could tell I was at the hospital. Why, though? My question was answered
by the sharp pain I felt when I tried to force myself to get up.
Great! How great. Isn't it ironic, fuck. That Barrista and his daughter played me well but why?
Even as Bubbles, they mistreated me and I was a nobody. Did they feel threatened by me, by
my presence.
"you just don't accept defeat do you."
I looked at the direction where Nicholas's voice came from. He was sitting on a couch a few
meters away from my bed. He looked furious and handsome. Shit! What the hell is wrong with
me?
"get me out of here."
"ohohoho. So this is how it is."
He sounded rather sarcastic, how brave of him. My eyes shifted to his hands which were
holding on to something sharp which caused him to bleed.
"stop hurting yourself."
"no amount of hurt could amount to the one caused by you."
"Thanks for the compliment."
"You're pregnant."
Those words paralyzed me for, I'm not even sure how long. It's like all at once everything
decided to stop working without my permission. Pregnant. Me. With Nicholas's child.
"I don't care if the kid belongs to Amilio, I'll raise him, it's fine. Give me a chance please
Evanora."
"a chance for what?"
"Don't you get it Eva. I'm obsessed with you, in love with you, you're the only woman I see."
"no, no no Nico. What the fuck?"
"I'm in fuckin love with you Eva. God, you drive me crazy. Your fuckin everything drives me
crazy. Your fuckin body, your lips, your dark dark evil heart. Every fuckin inch of you. I'd worship
the ground you fuckin walk….."
"Shut up!"
No he can't be in love with me. This isn't possible. The child belongs to….
"I'm going to start a family with Amilio. You're released Nico. You don't have to work for me
anymore. Go."
When I looked into his eyes I saw an emotion I couldn't quite decipher. I wasn't even good
with emotions and here I was trying to figure out what the hell he's feeling.
" after everything I've done for you fuckin bitch. "
He took just 3 large steps and he was beside me. His hand landed around my neck and he
squeezed hard. At this point I was defenseless. Defenseless because the bullets and stabs
left deep paralyzing wounds, because I was letting him take control, letting him take power.
I was giving it to him, because he's the one person who's dominance turned me on. The only
fuckin man who I permitted to strangle me till I nearly lost consciousness only to kiss me and
call me his little whore.
There was fire in his eyes. Anger, pain. I'm not sure what exactly the emotion…mixed emotions,
perhaps that's what they call it.
Nicholas, "on and off. You use me to your disposal Eva fuckin Nora. Nico do this do that go
here fetch this, bleed, kill yourself and I fuckin follow every order like a brainless pig…"
I couldn't breathe, he was cutting off my air supply. This was a life and death situation. If he
didn't let go I'd die In a fuckin hospital bed like I'm some weak man. My thighs were slippery,
common. Even in death my body has to be aroused.
Nicholas, "you owe me your fuckin life. I saved your life. You know what. Fuck you Evanora.
You want me to leave, fine. All of this is over. I was the only one who would have stood by
your side, loyal to a fault but now die fuckin alone. And when I'm gone I hope you miss me,
crave my fuckin presence, I hope you suffer in my absence, I hope you fail to replace me and if
you die, I hope you die alone and I pray no one comes to your fuckin funeral. You're no better
than the devil himself. "
I was about to give out, to give in to death. To let it envelope me and take me in it's loving
embrace but Nicholas let go of my neck and left the room.
It felt empty without him. Like a huge piece of me was missing. A tear slipped out of my eye and
I slowly brought my hand to my face.
Tears? Memories of the times when I cried flashed, Nico was always there to wipe my tears,
to tell me I was strong, to hold me close, to piece together each and every shard of broken
pieces were there to be fixed and now he's gone.
No Nico, only Evanora and the thing growing in my womb. I lo… I need you Nico. I love you
too. Fuck! This is madness. Love is for the weak. I'll keep this thing in my womb. It's the only
thing I have left. It's the only gift from Nicholas that'll never leave me alone.
You're wrong Nicholas. I won't be alone. I'll have a part of you with me. Your child. My vision
turned blank and the whole room faded away.