OLIVIA
FIVE YEARS AGO
"Shit.""
I cursed under mv breath. I was officially the clumsiest person alive.
I stared down at the beautiful mess on he floor, frosting, crumbs, and sadness My biology teacher had given me that cupcake for doing well on my test, and now it looked like roadkill.
I sighed, crouched down, and tried ta clean it up as best I could. Thank God the hallway was empty. Being allowed to leave class early had its perks.
My chest ached a little. I didn't even ge to taste it. Figures.My chest ached a little. I didn't even ge to taste it. Figures.
The warning bell rang, echoing dowr he corridor. I clutched my books to my chest and straightened up. One more bell, and I could finally go home. Today was the day we got our midterm grades oack, and I couldn't wait to show my parents.
I'd worked hard this semester. The late nights, study sessions, tutoring extra hours for credit. Social life? Nonexistent. Ever since my only friend, Vera Martinez, moved away high school had felt like a one-persor survivalgame.
I wasn't unpopular. Just... invisible. Too nerdy to be interesting, too polished to be pitied.
Some girls could walk in a room and have everyone's attention without trying. I never figured out how to do that. I just made sure my hair was neat and my grades were better.
"Miss Cole"
Mr. Dudley's voice pulled me out of my thoughts.
A few students turned to look maybe curious, nosy, the way high school kids always were
One of the popular girls, Jessica Fisher rolled her eves. Long brown hair, grey eyes, easily likeable.
I ignored it. I was used to it
Honestly, most of the teachers liked me, and that seemed to be a problem or a lot of people. Not that anyone ver said anything to my face, but high school didn't need words to make vou eel small. A single look usually did thetrick.
"Can I see you in my office?"
"Of course,"'I said, smiling politely as i weaved through the crowd.
Mr. Dudley was our principal... bald head, gray suits, and a serious face that only softened when he saw me. He always said I reminded him of his daughter. Her photo sat on his desk beside his wife and their fluffy white poodle, The looked like one of those perfect families in greeting-card commercials.
Sometimes I wondered if mine looked that way from the outside, too. I had great parents, a nice house, everything I was supposed to be grateful for. So why did it sometimes feel like they loved the idea of me more than me?
My parents were kind, and generous. The kind of people everyone liked.
Still, sometimes I caught myself wondering if we'd be this quiet at dinner, if I looked a little more like them. Especially when my beautiful sister looked exactly like them.
I always managed to keep my grades up, just so they'd keep being proud.
"You'll keep this up, right? "Of course," I'd said, even though my hands were shaking from the caffeine I'd chugged pulling an all-nighter.
I don't think they noticed the little things about me. I tried not to look out of place, even though I already did.
Mr. Dudley's family was nothing ike that. His eyes actually gleamed every time he mentioned his wife and daughter.
His daughter had long black hair, just like mine. Except hers was always down, flowing and soft. Mine was always straightened and pulled up. I didn't like when it got curly; I felt ever more out of place then.
Every time I stepped out of the shower my sister would grin up at me with her bright green eyes and say, "I love your curly hair, Olivia."
She meant it, too. She always did.
Five years apart, and somehow we still felt like the same soul split in two. I think that's why I'm always trying to be perfect... for her. So she can keep being proud of me. Even though, she was either way.
I sat in the same old chair that probably a hundred nervous students had sat in before.
The room smelled like old leather and coffee, his coffee. always in the same mug. He'd told me once his wife brewed it every morning before work. Sweet right?
Sometimes I wondered if I'd ever be someone's wife.
Then I'd roll my eyes because seriously, I didn't even have friends.
Baby steps, Daria.
Still, I pictured it anyway. Smiling in some cozy kitchen, baking cookies, taking my imaginary husband's jacket when he got home. We'd have a cat maybe a dog. And peace. My parent hated dogs, but I didn't.
"I found it. Sorry to keep you waiting."
I snapped back to the present as Mr Dudley shuffled some papers.
"So," he said, ""you' re not tutoring anyone this semester, correct?"
"Correct."
"Excellent." His smile deepened, and already sensed he was about to talk me into something.
Oh goodness.
"There's a student I'd like you to take on...possibly for the whole year. Two credits instead of one"
My resolve wavered instantly. Two credits? Tempting.
He watched me with that overly hopeful look that made me bite back a laugh. ""This one will be a little challenging, but you're the best we'v got, Olivia ."
He slid a paper across the desk.
Dante Rivera - Senior
I scanned his grades. Rough shape. All subjects.
A senior. Great. I'm only a sophomore I'd tutored seniors before, but alway girls. Never guys. Guys, especially older ones, rarely took me seriously. Most thought I was too soft, too pink, too something.
"Dante Rivera," I repeated under my breath. "Senior?"
Mr. Dudley cleared his throat. "Yes. He's.. bright. Capable. Just needs focus."
"Of course", I said anyway, smiling even though my stomach twisted a little.
"Let's just say," he said, sliding his glasses up the bridge of his nose, "if anyone can handle him, it's you."
Well, that didn't exactly make me feel better. I already got nervous ordering food. How will I handle a whole senior boy?...boy?, who am I kidding, that's a grown ass guy.
Mr. Dudley told me if I had any concerns, I should come to him right away. He'd never said that before.
That worried me.
When I left the office, the hallway was full again... people at their lockers, couples holding hands, laughing like high school wasn't a full-time job.
Sometimes I wondered what that felt like, to have someone waiting for you after class. To be somebody's person.
Must be nice.
I'd never even hugged a boy before. Not counting cousins. Books and movie had taught me everything I knew about love. I wanted it one day, a sweet gentle man who'd love me fiercely, the kind who'd take me horseback riding or hold my hand in a crowd just because.
I sighed as the final bell rang rime for class. Daydreams could wait