My name is Nikita and I am from Jaipur, Rajasthan in India. Now let me tell you the story of my last 2 years. I had a dream of becoming a teacher but when I had passed class 10 (2024) then my mother sent me to Sikar. There I used to live in a hostel. At first I was very happy that now there is no one to scold me but this happiness did not last long.I was a student of mathematics. It was my JEE Foundation batch, initially everything was fine but later I started feeling homesick. Even the food in my hostel was not good. I am from a normal family. I could not spend much. Then I adjusted my food but I was not able to understand anything in the coaching class. I tried to study a lot but still did not get any good result. I used to go to coaching at 6:45 in the morning and would come back at 1:00 pm. After eating food in 45 minutes, I used to go back to the library at 1:45 pm. Then in the evening, I used to come back from the library at 7:30 pm, after that I used to eat food and go to sleep. All this continued like this for 2 months. Suddenly my health started deteriorating, I became ill, then everything remained like this, I had stomach ache for many days, after that I became completely healthy but now I do not feel like studying. I did not have any smart phone. I had a small keypad phone with which I could communicate with my family every day. It used to be that my attention started getting diverted from studies. Now whenever I sat down to study, I started overthinking. I always started thinking about the future. I have always been on 1st or 2nd rank from class 1st to 10th, but ever since I came away from home, my results started deteriorating gradually. Now my brain was not working at all time , all this was happening because I was not getting good food, the people there, Sikar. It is called Vidya Mandir but there was no cleanliness like a temple there, there was always foul smell in the drains and the biggest thing is that even in such a city you will find small children begging. The food provided in my hostel was of very poor quality. Anyone can easily get sick by eating such food Now I had to come home somehow but it was not possible without mom and dad's permission and in this way my 11th was completed, I became weaker than before, then I realized how good it was to live with everyone at home, now I even started remembering my mother's scolding. Remembering all this, I used to cry hiding from my roommate at night. Class 12 had started. In class 12th, I had both math and biology subjects and along with that, I was also preparing for JEE main exam. There were so many books, I was not able to understand what to do, should I prepare for 12th exam or JEE mains. At the end of the day, I skipped JEE main exam and focused on 12th board exam.Whenever I felt lonely, I would draw. My interest in drawing started increasing. One day I thought of making my own sketch. Then what, I started making my sketch and spent 4 hours. After this, finally my sketch was made and I was very happy with it. Mwere so many books. I was not able to understand what should I do to prepare for 12th exam or JEE mains. At the end of the day, I skipped JEE main exam and focused on 12th board exam. My exam was completed and on the same day I came to my permanent home. I was very happy but my family members They were not happy because I was sent to the hostel so that I could crack JEE main and get admission in IIT college, but I defied their expectations, I was scolded a lot, I became more weak in the mind, everyone stopped working, I kept crying the whole night, now only one thought was coming to me that I should die but I was afraid of thinking what would happen to my parents after my death.I again thought of starting from zero and thus once again I am living in a rented room a little away from home but this time I am not alone. This time my brother and elder father's daughters and son all three had come with me. Now I come to the library at 7:00 in the morning and leave at 6:00 in the evening. And after leaving from here, I and my elder sister cook food together, after that I go to sleep at 10:00 pm and wake up at 4:30 in the morning. Now I am completely healthy and am focusing on my studies. In this way, I have told about my entire last 2 years. How much has happened in these 2 years. We all think that we will be happy after going away from home, but only after going away, we start to understand the importance of our loved ones, but It is also true that to gain something we have to lose something. If we want to reach our destination then we will have to leave home.
