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Chapter 105 - The Workshop (1)

Interestingly, Rover knows how to respect privacy by sensing social norms. I found Warren to be a fascinating character since he and I both share the characteristics of being blunt and curious. The worldbuilding and the storyline was fascinating. Oh no, something occurred and a void storm has occurred? The target is the institue….? Even the highest authority access has been denied….? 

A blonde lady walks over to a suspicious guy named Liaison. Liaison has really nice voice acting. The Nameless Fugitive has transformed into the Unseen Guardian? Damn, Liaison intends to give Lynae doubt and isolation as a gift? That's rough. 

Rover looks really cool driving that motorcycle. Playing in wuthering waves against a boss was fun. Oh no, Lyane is potentially accused of being directly or indirectly involved with the malfunction of the robot thing. Rover convinced Warren to not expel Lyane. Could I please stop using character trials? Oh I did by quitting the challenge. 

I decided to play whimpering wastes to get some action in. 

I started to date the prophet Chris Page as a regressor. A couple between a regressor and a prophet was really interesting. We talked quite often and he said he would travel to California using a bicycle and camping supplies for me. 

"I'll suck you if you give it to me" is an out of context statement that sounds really wrong. That's what my boyfriend told me when I got his favorite pokemon in the mundane gambling game. I always found my boyfriend to be weird or strange but he never judged me and was always there for me. 

I knew that he was always role-playing in inappropriate times and that no one really understood him. At first it took me a while to understand him but after I did, I started to be somewhat affectionate around him. I still loved Lizmarie though or was it the idealized version of Lizmarie the one who I loved? Either way, my memories of her were starting to fade. 

I started to find things to be funny again which indicates my growth. I would hope that I would eventually grow to love my boyfriend and like him more than Lizmarie. He was a better match for me afterall than that damn ghoster who took me for granted. It's a shame that I still love that ghoster who I allowed to walk all over me. As revenge, I decided to show the world what she did to me. 

I wouldn't recommend getting close or befriending Lizmarie Mateo Roubert. She's the type of person to be affectionate and really friendly towards you at first, making you want to get close to her. Then when you show signs of actually wanting to get close to her, she pushes you away. Some people may defend her like her best friend does I'm sure. 

But…..I'm the story manipulator and I will ensure my story and perspective of her becomes popular. 87% of the World will learn who she is and decide whether or not she deserves my forgiveness. She told me that she doesn't expect forgiveness but I would have forgiven her if she wasn't so pathetically cowardly. 

I fell in love with Lizmarie Mateo for 3 years. She never returned the feelings back. I went above and beyond just to stay by her side and repress my romantic feelings for her. I never felt comfortable enough to flirt with her if she didn't return my feelings back. I guess I ended up harassing her and lost my only chance of getting a reply from her because I was extremely stressed. 

I felt like I loved her too much to write about her death. Just like Han Sooyoung couldn't write the death of Kim Dokja in the ORV Sequel, I couldn't write the death of Lizmarie Mateo. It was codependency and I assumed my romantic feelings that I had mistaken for her were probably just codependency feelings. Did I really have romantic feelings for her or am I finally moving on and don't have romantic feelings for her but still consider her one of my favorite people? 

I considered Lizmarie to be a really close friend, she knew that. She said she felt the same way towards me but stated the words of 'really good friend'. Why did she say it like that? Of course I started to harass Lizmarie and all of my old friends, who wouldn't go insane and snap if they had lost all of their close friends? 

If I said I was a mass murderer and to kill your enemies to Lizmarie then she would freak out and wondered if I was being serious or not. After all Lizmarie was luckier than I was, she was able to make friends easily but was not able to maintain them unfortunately. She probably wanted a low maintenance friendship after all since she was an introvert. 

Now if I said I was a mass murderer and to kill your enemies to my boyfriend then he would agree and happily join me to be a mass murderer. Now readers, you're thinking that if I was a mass murderer, I would be killing hundreds of humans right? But what if I was killing a bunch of ants? Doesn't that make me a mass murderer still? Ants are living organisms after all and ORV taught me that. 

Aren't we all murderers in the end since killing bugs or animals sometimes even was normal? 

I don't know if anyone may need my story but I was writing for myself and for anyone else who may need it. ORV and its sequel saved my life after all. I became a writer thanks to the ORV sequel, scaring me into becoming a regressor. Now I live like the borderline regressor in this worldline. 

I decided to walk a lap or two around the park even though I wanted to be on the swings. I wanted to test myself if I could tolerate walking around the park instead, which was better for me than sitting down on the swings. In the end, I gave into my impulses and walked towards the swings to sit down. 

Devansh was surprised that I would date a man since he thought that I acted so much like Yoo Joonghyuk, he thought I would date women only. I found it to be quite hilarious. 

"@Devansh LMFAOOO you thought I was straight? I gave you hints that I was into men." 

"Actually since you acted a lot like YJH, I never expected it. Well guess you aren't like him." 

"I'm YJH but biromantic. No shit, I act a lot like him but I'm into men too." 

Jacques once said "i want to feel you under my tongue" three tongue emojis are added

Cookie replied with "I wanna kill you so nobody mourns" a rose falling downwards emoji is added

Jacques replies to her with "i need that tough love" a kissy emoji is added to the message

Cookie: "My my" a rose falling downwards emoji is added

Devansh once said "@Mocha dear daughter, as you may know, I am a single father so I might not be able to do too much for you but still I will try to raise you to the best of my ability." 

Mocha replied with "aww do not worry father. I shall co-operate with you and support you the best I can." 

Perhaps Dante told me that I needed help because she thought professionals could help me see her perspective. Truth be told, I was mentally stable as is and was medicated already. That was the most mentally stable that I was. I don't know why or how she saw me as a harasser but sure I will live up to the title of a harasser. I didn't understand Dante's perspective nor could she understand mine. She even unfriended me because I didn't know what the term harassment meant in depth. She was quite stupid truth be told. I expected better of her considering she was a teacher as her job. 

Honestly Lizmarie, you were triggering me constantly that I blew up. Whenever you would ghost me, my anxiety would get intensely triggered and I just wouldn't be able to stop thinking about the conflict. That's how much you mean to me. 

After a couple of tries, I finally lit up my lighter properly and smoked for the first time today at 9:48am. I coughed as I inhaled the smoke, this is why you shouldn't smoke kids unless you have hitted your lowest of the lows like I did and want to harm yourself. I understand why Han Sooyoung of the 1863 round smokes now though. I do it for the effect, I bet she does too. 

Every time I inhaled, I would cough especially when I didn't drink enough water. I wondered if vaping or smoking was the worst though. 

Unfortunately Joe would probably die in 'Scenarios: Ruined world' because he wouldn't know what to do when I presented him with Scenario #1. 

The second group therapy is doing poetry. 

Violence:

Blood splattered on the ground, 

Sword in the hand. 

Head on the ground. 

Body separated from the head. 

The borderline regressor lies there with his sword. 

Blood painted on the sword,

The regressor looks at the body coldly,

As if he doesn't care what he has done just now. 

He looks up at the sky, stares into the sun and lives another day. 

Romance:

Roses bloom all around me,

The color ranges from blue, red, pink, and white.

Sometimes it turns red due to the amount of blood splattered.

The muse kills the regressor so many times.

The muse ends up shedding tears whenever she does so. 

The muse asks "why? Why are you making me do this to me?" 

The regressor answers with "this is destiny's fate after all". 

The roses go from white to blood red from the regressor's blood. 

The roses are pink due to the blood drying up.

The roses are blue with blue paint splashed on it. 

No matter how much time has passed,

The muse will remember the bloodshed she was once forced to commit by destiny and by the regressor. 

Reunion is a pretty relatable manhwa honestly. The brown hair man is extremely relatable. It's interesting to hear the black hair man's perspective honestly. It makes me wonder if this is how Lizmarie feels. In short Chris Page is my boyfriend and I want Lizmarie to be my girlfriend….or wife actually…. You know despite having a boyfriend…i can't move on from her. 

"Don't get addicted to nicotine," says Kai. I only smoke like 2-3 times per day, surely that's not an addiction right….? Don't all addictions start out this way….? I could feel my fingers burning up from the cigarette, still I wanted to finish it because it was my money and people worked to create this cigarette. 

Smoking does give a burning sensation since I just started but maybe I'll get used to it. I was a bit bored so I started smoking I suppose. I was the type of man to finish something all the way through. The same goes for this cigarette and for the food I would eat. I was reading Reunion as I smoked. 

I would smoke until the blue line started to burn and I sure took my time on doing so. The brown-haired rich man was smiling as he saw the black hair poor man. 

Damn it, my mom found out that I was smoking. She ended up scolding me which was specifically why I wanted to hide the fact that I was smoking from her. I will always get criticized for her. I didn't have anything anyways and I wanted to harm myself via smoking. Did she find out by smell? So it really was by smell that she discovered that I would smoke. 

I think I have been feeling happier since I started dating my boyfriend and having a sexual and a romantic relationship with him. He unconditionally loves me which I suppose is finally some good karma for me after I unconditionally loved Lizmarie and lost her. I have never been so comfortable and casually intimate with anyone besides my boyfriend before. It's quite nice to have a partner. 

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