Chapter 45: If you are not the one
Zein's Point of View....
Is it enough to reason that I love him, that's why I'm still hugging him until now? Should I fight for a love where everyone around us disagrees? Is love really conquers all?
One question that I still can't answer. Where will this love take us?
We are here now, Supremo and I, in the library because he said he wanted to be alone with me. I can't look at him straight because he's smiling while staring at me. Awkward.
"Come on... darling, look at me."
That darling is killing me. I used to hate endearment and I find it gross and overacting but now-I can't exactly define what I am feeling whenever I am hearing that one word from him. Yeah, that one word.
I remained looking down because I was really shy. What does he want anyway? Staring at each other until later?
"Zein?"
"Supremo, come on."
I heard him chuckled. I couldn't help but blush and even if I wanted to run away, my knees couldn't... and my heart.
"If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?"
My hair stood on end at the same time I lifted my gaze. Very cold... his voice was so cold. OH MY GHAD!
Supremo is singing.
He smirked when he saw that he had caught my attention. "If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?" A strong jolt of electricity immediately ran through me when I felt him hold my hand. He laced our fingers together while looking into my eyes.
OH MY GHAD!
"If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call"
I thought I had fallen already but in these moments, I realized that I was still falling. Deep, very deep. Can I still get out if ever? Why are you making this so hard for me, Ace?
Why?
"If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all"
I didn't know that Supremo could sing, he wasn't just singing. He was also letting every lyric of the song enter my mind, down to my heart.
I gasped when he pulled the monobloc chair I was sitting on and faced me.
"I'll never know what the future brings"
His voice became colder as if he was stopping time... the beat of my heart was slowly disappearing in my ears.
"We'll make it through, And I hope you are the one I share my life with"
He held my cheek and wiped the tear that had been falling for a while now. His cold hand was trembling.
He brought his face closer and put our foreheads together. Now, I can feel his warmth... his breathing. I can clearly see his eyes pleading... fighting.
"I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand"
My hair stood on end again when he sang that line. His cold voice that he seemed to be just whispering to me.
"If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?"
I couldn't stop hugging him. I buried my face in his shoulder and hit his arm. I'm annoyed, I'm annoyed that every minute I love him even more. I don't know why this happened, I should hate you but why now, I love you so much?
He tightened his hug on me. He stroked my hair. "Darling, I want to scream... Please stop me." He whispered in my ear.
I smiled bitterly. "Don't." I whispered.
Even if what he said was unclear, it was very clear to me. I know what he means and I am ready to stop him. I don't want this to end quickly. I'm scared, very much.
"I hope you can stop me because I can't control myself. I might scream your name now... what I feel. Zein, I'm crazy about you and I'm ready to go all out."
Ace, how about us? I'm confused now. Is it right for me to choose you? How about all your hard work?
Even if you don't tell me, I know you've grown fond of them too, of what you have. Supremo, I wish I could fight for you... I wish.
"What a scene."
I quickly broke free from Supremo's hug even though he tightened his grip even more.
Fear consumed me when I saw Roxane with her arms crossed and smiling. I sighed a little with relief when I saw that no one else was in the library except the three of us and the librarian who was smiling while organizing papers on her table, far from us.
I was stunned in my seat and no words wanted to come out of my mouth.
"Just be thankful you're still alive." Supremo said expressionlessly, focusing his attention on our hands that were still clasped.
He's really not afraid. It seems like nothing to him.
"Oh well, Supremo. That was maybe the biggest mistake of your life. You should have finished me off." Roxane answered with a smirk.
Roxane's body went cold and she seemed frozen in place for no apparent reason. My forehead creased. She was also pale while looking at Supremo.
I looked at Supremo and almost cursed when I saw him playing with a knife. It was like a toy spinning on his finger. I couldn't be wrong... it was exactly like the knife he gave me. I also saw the black dragon symbol on the handle of the knife... and the dragon's eye was red.
"T-That's the symbol of"
Roxane was stunned again when Supremo turned his glaring eyes on her. Even I was scared and creeped out.
"I will count..."
Roxane backed away one step, trembling.
"One,"
Roxane backed away one more step and hit a vase on the side which created a deafening noise.
"Two,"
Roxane sat on the floor and hurried to crawl out of the library while I was still in a daze. I just can't believe it.
"Darling, let's eat?"
I looked at Supremo who was now smiling at me and the knife he was holding was gone. How did he manage to bring out that horrifying personality? How did he manage to smile again in such a short time?
Supremo, do I really know you? Or is there something else I need to know about you?
After we ate, I had class so Supremo and I would be separated again. Sigh. "Zein, tomorrow, okay?"
"Zein, tomorrow, okay?"
I pretended to frown and feigned ignorance about what he was referring to.
"What's happening tomorrow?"
"Oh come on. You can't fool me, Zein."
I just laughed, realizing I couldn't fool this guy.
"Alright but, I don't have a gift." I felt a little embarrassed about that fact.
There are no malls here to buy gifts, and I don't have money anymore; I'm just relying on the free stuff at this university. Sad life.
"I want you, only you."
I turned my back on him to hide my blushing face. He's really not aware that his words are deadly. How innocent, my Supremo.
"I-I'm going in,"
"I am dead serious. Everything is worthless without you. Zein, darling? I want to dance with you in front of many people..... one of my dreams. Come on, I hope my dream comes true."
I walked away from there and didn't look back at Supremo again, lest I go back to him and miss my class. This is my problem, it's hard for me when Supremo and I are apart.
Hay
Smiling, I was heading to my next subject when Nicky grabbed me. Fear quickly consumed me again.
What is this again?
"Let me go!" I struggled, so she tightened her grip on my arm.
I couldn't help but get hurt, especially when I felt her nails digging in.
I feel her anger, but why? What is this again?
My forehead furrowed more when I saw who Nicky's companions were.
They took me to a secluded place and shoved me down. I fell to the ground where there were many scattered dry leaves.
I turned my attention back to the three people in front of me.
"What are you going to do to her?" asked the person in the red mask.
Raze? No. The fake Raze.
"She can't attend Supremo's birthday." Nazzer said coldly.
I want to curse and scream in frustration over something I don't understand. FUCK! I don't want this! They can't stop me. I don't want to disappoint Supremo. No. It can't be.
"Why are you doing this?!" I shouted.
Nicky smirked. "Love has no place in this hell. Love is just a poison." She said.
"Poison?" I laughed a little at what Nicky said. "If it's really a poison, when will you two die?" I asked both her and Nazzer.
I felt Nazzer was affected, but Nicky remained smirking.
I know there's something between the two, something that can be compared to Supremo and me.
"Well, sad to say. It is not love, my dear."
I looked at Nazzer who was looking at Nicky. I unintentionally smirked when I saw Nazzer's eyes... hurt.
Is it really not?
"We need to hide her," Nazzer said, looking at me.
"Hide her where Supremo can't see her." He added.
Fear consumed me again.
"No, please." I begged.
I need to fulfill Supremo's dream. I don't want to disappoint him.
"No, you can't do this." Raze said.
Nicky quickly pointed a nail at Raze, who turned pale.
No doubt, he's not the real Raze. The real Raze doesn't get intimidated.
"We are not asking for your opinion." Nicky whispered to him.
Raze had no choice but to bite his tongue.
"Why, why don't you want me to go to Supremo's birthday?"
"It can't be... Supremo has a plan that we will hinder."
My forehead quickly furrowed and a flood of questions exploded. What?
"W-What do you mean?" I asked, confused.
They just smirked and forcefully tied my hands behind my back. Even my feet. I struggled but it wasn't enough. I looked at Raze but he avoided my gaze. Coward.
I couldn't help but mention a name. "Matt, help me." I said.
I followed with my eyes a man who came out from behind a tree. I smirked. I knew it. I had felt his presence for a while now.
He approached us. I thought he would help me, but he just stood there.
"Why are you hindering Supremo anyway? I mean, can you fight him?" Matt asked laughingly.
My eyes widened when Nicky thrust a nail in Matt's direction. Matt just tilted his neck and the nail passed him.
I was left open-mouthed at what he did. So fast, I didn't know Matt was this fast. He doesn't need to be a demon because he can fight easily without even being serious.
"Shut up." Nazzer said sternly, looking like he was hit by what Matt said.
Matt looked at me and raised an eyebrow. He seemed to be signaling me to fight but I can't. They are too strong.
He shook his head, seemingly disappointed with my answer.
"I won't stop you, but make sure you don't hurt him." Matt said with a hint of threat.
I lost hope when Nazzer carried me and put me on his shoulder.
"A-Aren't you going to help me?" I asked Matt.
He smiled at me. "No." He answered flatly.
He turned his back on us. "You won't be able to go to the birthday of someone important to you. You will ruin all his dreams. You will hurt someone who loves you deeply. He will wait for nothing. Are you like that, Zein?"
Nazzer and the others had gone far, but everything Matt said to me wouldn't leave me. My chest tightened. No, I will go, Supremo needs me.
I felt Nicky inject something into me, which made me dizzy, but before I lost consciousness, I smiled.
Thank you, Matt