The way to the library was...the same as usual.
Well actually, that's a lie, it wasn't the same as usual.
Because, to test my new POOOOWER MAGIC I HAVE MAGIC MOM DAD, NOT THE ONES IN THIS LIFE, I HAVE MAGIC! FUCK COLLEGE FUCK EVERYTHING I HAVE MAGIC!
MAAAAAAAGIC!
Okay okay, calm.
BUT MAAAAAGIC! MAAAAAAGIC! FUCK I FEEL GIDDY AS FUCK!
I laugh alone in the street.
This time there's really no one, so nobody spots me.
But it doesn't matter, I finished my experiments. For now.
In any case, as I was saying. The path to the library wasn't the same, not because something stopped me, or some kind of meteorite reshaped the path.
No, it's just that to test my new power, to go in the street with a lot of traffic. The shop with the popular grocery shop, well, I needed to take a detour.
And then, I needed to take another detour to go to the library.
So I didn't took the same path as before.
But it doesn't really matter much, in the end. I find myself in front of the library again.
Behind me, there's the wiiiiiide street that leads to the playground. On this street there's a lot of turns, lefts, rights, leading to small alleys that themselves lead to different streets.
But if you keep going forward. There's the usual street with a dead end on the left, a dead end, that lead to the library.
And again. Just like the last time I was here. There's no one.
I look behind me. No one. I look in front of me. No one.
I'm chilling, I'm having fun, standing in the rain.
Last time I was here I felt like batman, depressive batman.
Now I feel like batman, less depressive batman, but with superpowers.
So...not Batman at all.
But...batman is cool, so I feel like batman.
I'm not walking toward the library. Not yet.
Even if I feel the urge to barge inside and go show my progress then steal some books before subbbbbtly ask about magic. I don't do it.
Not yet.
For now, I'll stand, I'll just stand around.
Again.
In front of the library.
I've been standing for a minute or two.
Just like last time we met, she noticed last time.
But now? Now I'm focusing on the flow inside myself, on the threads inside myself. Keeping the balance of pain and movement perfect to be able to be...invisible?
Again.
I still don't know if I'm invisible, I don't look invisible at all. BUT I DIGRESS! I DIGRESS! I want to see if she'll notice me staring like a creep when I get in.
If she does.
Well...that's cool.
If she doesn't...well that's SUPER COOL!
After a good amount of time I take my nervousness and shove it back down my gut and start walking forward.
Feet sliding on the ground, in the same weird way I usually walk when I focus on the flow.
When I reach the door. With the little safe roof above the raised step that leads to the double doors.
I look up.
At the sign.
When I read it before, I didn't understood SHIT!
Now though? I read this "Lib&# of Minam&#-"
Okay...
I'm pretty sure the first word is library, or something like this. And the second part is or the owner last name, or the town name.
Maybe. Not sure. But it would make sense.
And if it is true.
It means I live in Minam...something.
Well, I guess I'll ask my mom the name of our town, or Okari, maybe, we'll see.
Squinting as the sign an evil idea gets to my mind. What if I jumped, ripped the sign off like it fell last time, and see if she manages to see me?
That sounds like a really funny idea.
And a really funny test.
But...
I want books.
Let's not risk it. Maybe later.
What I can risk though is this.
I close my eyes. Focusing on the flow extra hard, on the way it travels through my body, pushing extra hard inside my feet as I slide forward.
I grab the door.
And push it open. Slowly, extremly slow.
Making barely any sound. Making barely any movement.
It doesn't even look like the door is opening. no, it looks like nothing.
I can hear the sound of a book being scoured, someone is reading a book inside, probably Okari.
But I don't push.
I keep steady. Focusing on the flow, I try to make it travel, in my hand, on the door, on everything, just like I did with my door this morning.
Just like I did when my mom didn't notice.
I push, slowly, it's perfectly silent.
No sounds come out of the hinges.
I push forward, until I can put one foot in the library. And then, I put my other foot.
And I push my head to the side, looking at Okari from behind the door, ready to act as if I was doing a dumb child game if she's staring at me.
But she's not staring at me.
She's grumbling about something while staring at a book. On a chair, behind the counter. Like last time, she's reading, her glasses perched on her nose.
...this is crazy.
I HAVE FUCKING MAGIC!
Sorry sorry, I know I've been saying this a lot, but I genuinely want to jump in excitement right now! DO YOU SEE THIS!?
This is crazy. I love my life. I'm sorry for insulting you so much life.
Keeping the silence. I take another deep breath to center myself, and push on the flow, again, I almost feel something weird.
Like an out of spirit experience.
Like my threads, the pain inside my body, was pushing itself OFF my body. Enveloping the door somewhat.
It's a weird sensation, a really weird fucking sensation.
But I don't put much thought into it. I pull the door back, slowly closing it.
As I do, I see okari shoulders rise up, a second later she brushes her arms together and whisper "Fucking cold in here"
But she doesn't look at the door.
She doesn't hear how the sound of the rain, coming from outside, got louder the second I opened the door. She doesn't notice any of that.
She doesn't even try to look at me, or ask herself if maybe, the door is badly closed.
No.
She just goes back to reading her book.
And me?
Me I try my best to restrain the shit eating grin on my face as I take my sweeeet time to close the door, making sure I don't mess up. I know I can't go too fast, I learned more than once that going fast with the flow, unless in specific situations, is bound to break me out of it.
So I take my time. I take my sweet time. And like the best of all the ninjas, I close the door behind me.
Fuck.
I look around the library, the sound from the rain muffled perfectly.
I don't move yet, just staring at Okari. Just looking at her, focusing on the flow inside my body.
Making sure not to mess up now that I've went that far.
What should I do now?
Taking a step forward, she doesn't react, again, still absorbed in her book.
I take another step.
And another.
And another.
Until I'm standing in front of her, but she's still not looking at me. She's still not looking at me.
Slowly, I put a hand inside my cloak. And following the flow of energy, I take two minutes, doing what FEELS right, even if I want to rush forward.
But when I'm done, I'm holding my image book in my hands.
And she's still not looking at me.
Slowly, I inch to her right, and put my image book on the counter.
And do you know what happens?
Nothing.
She doesn't react, doesn't move, she just read another page of her book, as if I wasn't here.
....
How far can I go with that?