the little me would hate it all
if I wasn't that great when I was small
then I could've avoided the cause of it all
I would've run away from the life I didn't pick
and wouldn't have to live up to the title that made me sick
if I wasn't too quiet when I was a kid
then I wouldn't have to lose myself over the things I hid
I could've loosened up my grip to free my breath
maybe I wouldn't give myself up for death
I trace the past like it was my big mistake
and I escape from the future as it's hard for me to take
I couldn't think that everything will finally matter
because it didn't when I tried my best to be better