if I close my eyes forever, will everything be better?
amidst the quiet darkness past midnight
I woke up with my chest feeling tight
seven tick-tock have not yet passed
but my pillow was already drizzled so fast
another day has come again
another pain in my book would be written
I heard my mom outside was telling me to get up
I could not tell her a dozen baggage was on my top
the monster depleted my will to move
it's something the world we live in cannot prove
enduring was always the choice out of fear
until my hands had the urge to make it all clear
the bucket of water was full enough to drip
I tried to kick it, but the cliff was not too deep
I did not fall nor remain on track
my feet stayed somewhere in the middle of misery, where I am stuck
the sun continues to rise, but the clock has stopped
everyone has taken a step away from where my life has dropped
if it happened that I close my eyes forever
would everything be peaceful and better?