It's been 5 months since the last chapter, and I owe all of you an apology and explanation for my conduct this past year. As those who read my notes in the previous chapter knows that I suffer from OCD Pure-O, a mental illness and it has had a great affect on my mind and life.
Depression, suicidal thoughts, aggression, mood swings, tiredness and a lot of mental and emotional fatigue was made due to it and I have suffered a lot, and am still suffering from it. I don't know why I have to suffer through something like this but I can't do anything about that and can only endure and continue living to the best of my ability, and hope that in the future, I don't let it drown me in despair and I won't take my own life to be free of it.
I have been keeping myself away from NTR and any media that might be he same as it and would trigger my illness and cause me problems. And yes while I do read hentai, it's always wholesome, vanilla types and I have completely stopped reading or searching NTR and anything related to it or cheating. Essentially disconnecting with the genre with only those I read before being a danger to me.
And also, I'm terrified of NTR now and I am always in fear of if another NTR would ruin my mental health or something.
I now focus on games, anime, movies, online books, fanfictions and generally more light type stories and hope filled ones. And I think it has helped me, and so I avoid NTR and the like. I think the reason that it's triggered is because I hate betrayals and the like and the mental toll the OCD puts on me is great.
Not to mention my real life isn't exactly good either. Family and the like aren't what you would call ideal, my parents aren't understanding and our relationship isn't good, and a bit strained.
Nevertheless, due to that I have ignored this fic and focused on my novel instead, which is going smoothly to be honest. It's not that great but it is a steady one, whenever I update it at least.
Anyways, I want to apologise to all of my readers for not updating this and my other book, but I want you all to understand that due to my mental problems I am unable to truly write this without remembering the doujin and I'm literally terrified of NTR now.
So while I won't say that I'm abandoning this cause I might update it when I recover more and time passes. I can't say that I would definitely write more for this, so I wanted to give you all a message to make you understand my state and reluctance to write more chapters.
Perhaps I will write more in the future, or maybe I will not. At the moment I can't promise anything about it and I'm sorry to disappoint all of you.
On another matter, I do however give permission to YOU, my readers, to use this story, the entire 13 chapters to create books of your own. You can copy the script and make a book and then create your own chapters from then on, with your own hentai being added in the future. I would ask that you keep the three girls in the harem, since they were victims first and foremost, and to show them some mercy and allow them the chance to redeem themselves, and you can also use the love system and make them love Yoji truly with all of their heart.
Just make sure to credit me as the one who made these 13 chapters so that any of your readers can know. So that others won't say I copied anything in case some of you actually wrote anything.
I'm not saying you have to, but if you want to use my story to create your own, then you can use it. I think this fic and my other hentai fic are pretty decent and it's honestly a bit sad that they are just left in the dust due to my own problems. So if you guys who hate NTR want to write your own with my past 13 included, then you have my permission to do so.
Just make sure people know it's from me.
And lastly, thank you for all the support you have given me, and to see some like minded people. I sincerely apologise for my inability to update my hentai fics due to my mental problems, and I hope that all of you dear readers would be understanding of my plight.
I hope that all of you have great health and be able to live happy lives