Back when he reunited with D, Notch's feelings toward D's actions were still very complicated. But after D said those few sentences, all of Notch's emotions disappeared in an instant, replaced by endless sorrow.
At that moment, there was only one sentence he could use to describe D, pitiful people must have hateful qualities.
Actually, before Notch confronted D, he had always believed that D's obsession with surpassing him had pushed D to this point.
Just like how Grayfist had once been obsessed with surpassing Steve.
Notch always thought D wanted to surpass him and replace him, so one wrong step led to another until he walked onto this road of no return.
It was only after hearing D hysterically shout, "Why is every spotlight focused on you?" that Notch finally understood everything.
The reason D had reached this point was, from beginning to end, because of the inferiority buried deep in his bones.
Thinking of this, Notch looked at J and gave a simple yet accurate summary of D, "Beneath his confident appearance is deep-rooted inferiority that he himself doesn't even realize."
"The reason he desperately craves attention is because he has always treated other people's gazes as the source of the spotlight shining above his head."
"He believes that only by gaining attention from others can he prove his value and meaning of existence. He doesn't even care whether that attention is positive or not."
"But people who are truly strong inside all understand one thing. That spotlight never comes from the outside world. It comes from self-acceptance deep within."
"A person's confidence is always given by themselves. It is never obtained through other people's eyes."
At this point, Notch paused for a moment, then shook his head helplessly and smiled bitterly, "So after hearing those words from him, all I felt was endless sadness."
After hearing Notch's words, J could not calm down for a long time. After remaining silent for quite a while, he let out a long sigh.
"I always thought that among the three of us, only I would feel inferior. I never expected... he was even more insecure than me..."
"And the sadder thing is... he never realized his own inferiority..."
Notch silently stared at D below. A complicated emotion rose in his heart. He sighed deeply before continuing his analysis.
"Extreme inferiority and lack of empathy, these two factors intertwined and shaped who he is now."
"After understanding this, none of his actions surprise me anymore. Everything makes sense."
"Back then, he jumped from being an ordinary smart person to becoming a creator god capable of controlling a world."
"For someone so insecure, after finally obtaining an identity that could make the entire world notice him, how could he possibly tolerate hiding it?"
"He would definitely show it off everywhere like a child who just got a new toy."
"Of course, showing off itself isn't some huge mistake. After all, nobody is a saint. Who doesn't have a little vanity?"
Notch paused slightly before continuing, "If it were an ordinary person, their way of showing off would probably just be displaying their abilities in front of living beings, or acting as a savior and becoming the usual type of creator god."
At this point, Notch suddenly stopped, as if thinking about something. A moment later, he continued, "Maybe he once walked that ordinary path too..."
"But his playful nature and his lack of empathy eventually led him down a completely different road."
"The scripts he called 'giving living beings dramatic lives' not only satisfied his playful nature, but also his inflated vanity, and even made him the center of attention."
At this point, Notch looked at the miserable D below once again and continued, "Now that he realizes he lost, he still hasn't chosen to reflect or change. Instead, he cast himself into the role of the final villain."
"He still wants to draw everyone's eyes onto himself again. Even if those gazes are not kind, he doesn't care at all."
As Notch spoke, he helplessly shook his head, though a faint smile appeared at the corner of his lips.
After hearing Notch's words, J slowly shifted his gaze toward D below. A trace of sorrow appeared deep in his eyes.
J took a deep breath and said, "Those players and living beings never treated him as some great villain. In their eyes, he isn't even qualified to be called a clown."
"They basically act like he doesn't exist."
At this point, J turned toward Notch and asked, "Do you think he realized that?"
Notch fell silent for a while before slowly nodding.
"He realized it. But he can't accept that cruel reality."
Notch continued his deeper analysis, "The reason he caused such chaos with so much effort was simply because he wanted to attract attention through those actions, to prove his own value and meaning."
"He wanted people to remember him. Whether the reputation was good or bad didn't matter to him."
"He would rather carry a notorious reputation than be completely forgotten."
"Because in his eyes, even being hated and condemned at least means people are still paying attention to him."
At this point, sorrow appeared in Notch's eyes once again.
"He probably never imagined that after doing so much, in the end he wouldn't even deserve to have his name remembered. So how could he even talk about becoming notorious?"
After saying this, Notch looked toward J.
"You probably still don't know this, but many people have already started referring to him as 'that creature.'"
At this point, it seemed like Notch suddenly remembered something. A thoughtful smile appeared on his face. He gently shook his head and sighed.
"Looking at it this way, the punishment Xu Yuan suggested for him actually became his salvation instead... I wonder whether that was intentional or just a coincidence..."
Hearing this, J could not help feeling confused.
"Salvation? How can that count as salvation? Wouldn't it only count as salvation if, after experiencing all that suffering, he was able to realize something from it?"
The moment J finished speaking, Notch immediately shook his head, as if correcting J's view.
"What you said does make some sense. But now that everything has already ended perfectly, people usually choose to move forward. No one will keep digging up those unpleasant past events anymore."
"Speaking of it, maybe in the previous world he could be considered a great villain. But in today's world... he barely counts as a bluffing clown..."
"He really did cause several huge incidents. He even created the Witherzilla..."
"But Xu Yuan's people resolved all of it easily. He never caused much of a wave."
At this point, Notch shrugged.
"Not only did he fail to reach the level of a creator god, he couldn't even reach the level of a major villain."
"He thought he had done earth-shaking things, but in the end, in everyone's eyes, he was just a self-important idiot. That's all."
"I believe it won't be long before nobody mentions anything about him ever again."
Notch sighed involuntarily before continuing, "He knows very clearly that he won't die. He possesses eternal life."
"But if nobody remembers him, and nobody is willing to have any contact with him, then what meaning does his existence in this world even have?"
Notch's words caused J to fall into deep thought. He could not help seriously thinking about that question.
After a long while, J finally muttered to himself, "When a person is ignored by everyone like they're just air, maybe they really can't be considered alive anymore..."
"And for someone like him who desperately craves attention, that's simply worse than death..."
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