Noah's p.o.v
Alex usually takes forever getting ready for anything, so he used Logan's bathroom to shower and change for bed. He doesnt understand why she needs privercy now when her already saw all on her, regardless he did not argue. His mother called him to her office. His mother patiently sat with a cup of tea waiting for him, she looks up and smiles at him.
"Mom."
He bows before he sits in front of her, he really hopes they not going to discuss his choices. He already had that conversation with his dad besides mom looked like she liked his fated mate.
"How is she?" She asked with kind eyes as if studying his soul, "Son. Don't be defensive, I am not here to destroy your relationship."
"She's fine, uncomfortable, awkward, nervous..." he connects with his mate's emotions. "I can feel her confliction, curiosity and feelings as my own."
He has always been closer to his mother than his father, she knows how to keep secrets and she gives useful advice.
"Because she's unaware that she's projecting and since you her fated you share in that until she learns to keep it in." His mother takes a sip of her tea, "son. I trust your father and I raised you well, be good to her."
She approves of their relationship; she smiles and rests her hand on his. Perhaps Alex told his mom about her past, previous pack and as that thought popped up her face changed to that of pity. This is how she would look at him when he failed to get some answers right after she explained it, geography has never been his strong point.
"She's different. Look son, she made an effort to learn about Blue and its people." She did, she even spoke basic Chinese with his extended family. The only problem is, "I saw something was bothering her, but you can feel it. Listen to her, she actually talks if you if you pay close attention to what she says."
She patted his head and kissed his forehead goodbye, and he walked upstairs. Even his mom felt her deep sadness, he grabbed a small tub of vanilla ice cream. The moment he opened the bedroom door, concern rushes over him when he sees her eyes red... it is as if she has been crying. She plastered a smile and moved to kiss him. Usually, his all for his fated jumping him with passion but right now he can feel something is wrong. He does not know why his brother decide he wants a wedding under the stars, it was phenomenal. The bride cried before the 'I do's' the entire ceremony was beautiful. His fated showed more emotion than he expected but later that night they spoke about it. She huffed and the feeling of rejection overwhelmed him but before he could say a word she started speaking.
"The bride looked so beautiful today.... Does she know what Logan is?"
He pulled her gently to rest her head on his chest. Her bringing this up with a heavy heart he felt made him concerned.
"Yes. Logan kept it a secret at first, but he wanted to build a life with her, so he told her the truth."
She gasped and he shrugged the same time her reaction confused him.
"Did she get upset?"
"Yes. But it was too late because she also caught feeling for him. She was more hurt at Logan keeping his nature a secret than the news. Axx, can I ask you something."
She took a deep breath, sealed her eyes shut and nodded.
[The scent is back. It's her. She's sweet can you smell that?] His wolf pushed, [She's our omega, our luna, she is our mate].
'Yes, she is. But we have to control our urges, your eagerness will scare her away.'
He scolds his wolf with logic, and his wolf took a step back and he asked his question.
"Are you fine?"
Her eyes opened shocked, he handed her the small tub of ice cream and a spoon. She teared up drowning her sorrows in vanilla ice cream.
"The bride looked so beautiful on that stage. I'm pretty sure Ploy threw that bouquet at me on purpose; I'm fine I've just been thinking a lot."
"You want to be married?"
She hit his head with the spoon pouting, and she look so damned cute he laughed.
"No. No. No. I'm not ready for that right now."
"The three 'no's' again? You are starting to hurt my feelings."
It's literally getting hard to not take offence, his face fell when she recalled the last time she declined his offer the same way. This time she kissed his cheeks and lips which tastes so sweet like the rest of her, shaking his head back to sense he faced her.
"I'm sorry that was not my intention. The marriage thing is the problem though. Noah, I just lost my ways."
She started crying but she just made him more confused if that's possible.
"Although the people in my old pack were terrible, I respected and lived by their values. It's a very important part of who I am and should strive to be. Marriage is the most important especially when I'mdoing, what we've been doing." She wants to commit to them? It hard to understand the point of this conversation. "The bride looked so beautiful and happy, and I want nothing but for their happiness.But when I caught the flowers, memories of my dreams and desires growing up came up... The bride was so beautiful, the wedding perfect and I fear that-"
She tried explained but all he knew is that her emotions are so intense and he has no idea what to do about it nor does he understand what she's getting at.
"My nature, my beliefs, my happiness is something I find with you, but this is still all immoral. I'm afraid of commitment but not only with you. I'm afraid to have children but without the commitment I can't. I want to give myself to you but I'm afraid I won't be that bride you and your customs-"
Okay. Let's break this down quickly... She's strict on her beliefs that she hates they sleep together outside of marriage yet is not ready for such a commitment. She wants children but cannot without marriage. She wants him only but does not want to overstep Blues traditions.
"I understand."
That's all she wanted from him because the moment he said that her arms wrapped around him.
"I'm so sorry and understand if this is too much for you. Noah please just give me time; I don't want you to leave me."
With her head buried in the crook of his neck he chuckled. She is committed to him physically, emotionally and his fated mate his asking him not to leave.
"I'm not going anywhere. You are mine."
She sobbed until he heard her deep breaths. He carried her to her side of the bed and took a sample towel to wipe her puffy cheeks and eyes. He changed off his shirt and faced his beautiful mate. She gravitated to his chest, and he hugged her until he drifted off to sleep.