Back to her room sillias layed herself on the ground.
She wished she could hop onto her bed and slip freely under her sheets,but she was drenched in sweat and was too tired to go and prepare a bath immediately after getting back..
So that's why she layed herself onto the ground and stared at the empty ceiling of her room.Everything around her seemed to have fall into sleep
No sound was being heard.it was a total silence. She was not unfamiliar with this silence..
She known it all too well.
There are times when this silence feels warm and comforting but...somehow sometimes..it feels..so cold and suffocating.
Like being engulfed into a sea that is physically non existent.
Who can land you a hand in this kind of situation?
And put you right back on the ship that will navigate you straight to your right final destination..
Sillias felt as if the world was falling on her..she should feel happy she succeeded her practical assessment but..there was a feeling that something...not very pleasant..would be taking occurrence way to earlier than it should.
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Sillias shook her head,putting the gloomy feeling arousing inside of her off like you off and blow away the flames coming from the wick of a candle.
She then rushed to the bathroom to take a bath.
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After bathing and showering herself with lavender scented soap...she hoped onto her comfy bed, rolling in it like it was the most cozies bed that she's ever been in.
She closed her eyes.
Her shirt was a bit loose.The bandages she's been using around her chest to pass on as a boy could be seen untied a bit through it..
Her whole body felt like breathing entirely for the first time in her life.
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"Huh?what..am I dreaming..the sky..is red so probably.."
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"Is this what we call a lucid dream?"
.."There's sound coming from-..
Somewhere.."
Infront of her a scene strangely horrific and pecular appeared to her sight.
There were people who Affirmed and exclaimed out loud weird things..
The were shouting out loud that..
their throat felt like burning and that their lips felt like they were being sewed to eachother from their insides..
And that their flesh ached and felt like being stretched through their skin like knives being pulled out of gum.
It was pure torture.
What was the most heartbreaking for sillias was the screams of pain and helplessness from the people whose faces she could barely discern from each others.
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She closed her eyes trying to desperately to avoid the gazes of those people..who she was well aware were just part of a dream...or in this cases more like a nightmare.
"Lucid dreams are the worst.."she thought while folding her eyelids again and again to woke her up.
But it was pointless,she was not waking up.
"Damn it!This all feels roo real!"she Shouted to herself before running..
Running far away to nowhere,eyes closed following only her instinct.
"Please help me..get out of here.!"she started praying...praying so she'll could get out of this terrible place full of nightmare.
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She opened her eyes widely in shock..she was on her bed,trembling like a newborn baby.
She tried to catch her breath back by inhaling and exhaling frantically and repeatedly.
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It was only after Some dozen of seconds passing that she finally succeeded in calming herself down.
"Huh..I can't believe a nightmare was able to destabilize me so easily.."
Sillias shook her head again.
Trying to focus her mind back on something else.
Or should we say someone else who she thought she should be more worried about than stupid nightmare.
"That Frank Balzair..I-"
-"I don't like that guy."said a voice who she now knew all to well.
The sound of the voice interrupted her from her deep thoughts like a struck of storm..
She avert her gaze to the door,here standing in the middle of the front door before her was...
Kayven.
He was standing here not moving.
By reflex,Sillias bought the sheet closer to her face.
"D-id he...how long was he..has he seen..No there's no way-"
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"Yep..I'm doom."she thought while fixing her clothes with an upmost concerning agility under her sheets covering her body.
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"There's no way He has not seen..Screw everything.. should I lock him up somewhere and stop him from dooming me by running his mouth out."she thought while biting on her thumb,scorching it a bit.
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Then at some point she freezed,stopping like she was struck by something.
"Wait a minute..what did he last said?"
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"Can you repeat what you just said?"she asked in a low and monotonous tone,eyes still fixated on the floor.
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"I don't like him too,that guy..frank Balzair."
To those word..Sillias stood up and ran toward kayven.
She grab him by his arm and stared at his torso hesitantly.
she sight before raising her head to meet his eyes level.
"Thank God..it's was not only me!"she blurted out in a sponeous tone sounding almost exhausted and relieved at the same time.
She let go of him after Some minutes.
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"I..wrote down all the information that was told to us by the senior students and teachers after you left..here take it."
He then handed out a red notebook orned by a golden ruban to her..
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Kayven expected that sillias would be gladly and volunteerly taking the notebook as soon as his eyes will be laying on it,thus leading him to feel indepted to him till probably the end of their scholarship.
He was never the type to be so petty but...somehow sillias was able for no apparent reason of bridging that side of him out in the broad daylight.
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But the reaction he gained from sillias in real life was..unexpected.
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Instead of snatching away the notebook sillias sat herself on the ground and started mumbling.
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"I..I left before they got to utter a word to us."
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A displeasing feeling started to echoed in her like a bitter symphony being played.
She recalled some flashback of things that happened ever since she came to arcahdale.
First..her and kayven first encounter which could have almost broke out into a fight.
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Then her encounter with frank Balzair..interrupting he's introduction..actually literally stopped him from giving an adequate proper introduction at all.
Adding to this all those time she acted without thinking and little phrases she had with people around the school.
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Then leaving way before the class was actually done.
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"Doesn't.. all of this ...make me or atleast make the peoples around me believe that I'm the epitome of trouble making arrogance in person..?"
That's what she started repeating again and again to the point that even someone like kayven ended up feeling discomfort listening to her..
It would not be a lie to say that he also felt a bit terrified by it.
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After reasoning himself Kayven hen took step forward and sat down on his bed and muttered word that will forever stayed on sillias mind.
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"Listen I don't like you too..no even worse-"
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"What-..?"those words snapped her back and got her to stop rumbling about stuff like being badly seen and having a bad reputation among the students of other classes.
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"But I must admit that..The way I dislike you and the way I dislike that guy are two different things..he has an odd vibe to him that disgust me to the core...and.."
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"And?"Sillias asked.
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"And..our classmates doesn't seems to be really be a really big fan of him either..but they're not taking this as seriously as us...as seriously as they should..but strangely enough every other person in this school seems to adore him and and idolize him."
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To his words sillias furrow a brow.she stood up and sat herself on her bed too to face him.
She crossed her arm and looked at him with interest and a bit of amusement.
"And how did you known all of this in such a short amount of time..My lord?"
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"Hm-..could you stop calling me that..Noone here calls me that..it's..even more embarrassing in your mouth."He said that in a nonchalant tone but he's ears were betraying him..they turned red..and hot..Like smashed tomatoes.
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"This reaction..."to the fast change in behavior sillias couldn't help herself. Her grin widened as she took some steps forward.
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She placed a kneel on the ground and lowered her head down while placing a hand on her chest.
She was imitating a butler to the perfection.
"Why..not my lord?"
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That was the drop of water of much in the jar of patience of Kayven.
He grabbed the pillow next to him and thrown it violently toward sillias who received it like a whip in the face.
"Ouch-..my lord that hurts!"yelled sillias in a mocking tone.
"This tongue of yours should be sliced."he replied in an unseserious tone.
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Somehow the moment felt strangely pleasant between the two.
Like a warm cozy world were they could actually be totally themselves with no fears of being rejected by the other.
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After time passing with them chatting it was finally time to go to bed.
The dorms master would be taking attendance in a few minutes and they have to be in their bed by that time.
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And so they were sitting on their respective bed chatting with another in the truly most strangest way possible.
But there was three things they were sure of..
First..Sillias took too much of a liking in calling kayven by "my lord"..so she continued to call him by that.
Two..they shares the odd feeling that they should stay way from Frank Balzair..that teacher who they both couldn't at all stand.
Three..something definitely changed between them..but they would never dare for now to admit it out loud.
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"Ah my lord..may I share with you some of my concerns which you might find weird?"asked Sillias in a serious tone.
"What with that polite speech?everyone knows that even though you're distantly related to the Freinz..you were still raised as comon merchant child..You're practically a commoner brought and thrown into nobility like a potato bag being thrown into a high quality coffee field."
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The way kayven described her situation kinda annoyed sillias but she still bottle up her words and decided to let it go and stay focused on what truly mattered first.
She might give him a response back later.. for comparing her to a potato bag.
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"Listen what I have to tell you.."She said in an icing tone which almost sounded like a pledging.
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kayven layed himself on his bed his pillow in his arm.
"Talk it out then."
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"Alright..well....
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And so she told her about the event of earlier..some minutes before that teacher shows up.
Kayven listened to her attentively.
When sillias was finally done talking,Kayven was probably on the verge of having a headache.
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"Your story is crazy...but I believe there must be some sense in it."He muttered in a comforting tone of voice.
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"I think so too."
Sillias then layed herself on her bed,head engulfed in her pillows.
At the same time the person of taking dorm attendance knocked on the door.
"Wolfrayz and Brighten?"
"Here"replied both simultaneously.
He opened the room and after being totally certain they were here..he closed the door and left.
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"You know..I don't like you."
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"I know..and I do too.."
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"I won't talk about your secret though."he then added.
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A long silence took place between them.
"My what?"Asked sillias nervously.
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"You know...there was story about a prince..who to inherits the throne did something said unforgivable by the world."
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"He did what?"Sillias knew all too well what would come next but she till had some little hopes up.
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"Turn out the prince was a princess and she lied about her gender from the start following her mother advice,what a plot twist right?"
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Time seemed to have freeze.
Sillias felt suffocate.
What could she say to him?
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"This..won't change anything."
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He says turning he's face to look at her.
Her eyes widened and she turned her face to look at him too.
"Really..that's out of character for you."
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"What kind of guy am I in your eyes?"
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"What kind of guy he is..huh?"though Sillias..truly speaking she wanted to answer him directly with all her honesty..but she felt it would not really be a good timing to say so right now.
"I don'tknow...a spoiled brat maybe?"
To her word kayven felt flabbergasted.
His face was also showing this time intentionally well how he felt by his expression.
"Well thanks...you're truly fooler than you look my grace."
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"Well-..wait how did you call me ?"
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"You took a liking to calling me my lord..and so I think I'll be taking a liking in calling you my grace."
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"But-"
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"No but."
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Kayven turned and rolled himself in his bed allowing Sillias to only be able to stare at the back of his head.
"I know one of your deepest secrets so heres one mine in exchange as a way of keeping my word."
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He then told her a secret that no one in the school should be aware of about his family and him.
A dark secret that might destroy his futur more and reputation more than it already is if it ever happen to get out.
after hearing Kayven secret..she smiled at him in an appeasing way and thanked him for trusting her this much.
They then both tried to get to sleep as their mind were full of questions that would probably be staying unanswered..for a good time.
Something also started sparkling in their heart along side the mist of their painful messed past bringing regrets into their mind for no pecular reasons.
"My grace..the meaning of this name.."
Sillias cheek flushed to a light pink as her lips curled themselves.
"What is this feeling..my heart feels like it's about to explode..
I dont want him to be hurt by anyone again...wait again?"
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"She called me my lord..I never liked others calling me that..it always feels like a mockery but..from her..its..sounds so dignify..maybe because it's raw honesty and sincererity coming deeply from her heart..I don't want others to found out that she's a girl..I want her secret to be keep hidden..her beauty is already unparalleled when she's pretending to be a boy..if people find out she's a girl..adding to this her ability."
Kayven sighted as a chill ran through his bones.
"This world we were born in.. is cruel..
I won't let her be harmed by anyone..again..wait again?"
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That night..was more beautiful than the others as the enchanting rays of the white light gleaming from the moon shone brighter than ever..
It's rays fell onto Sillias and Kayven like a gentle kiss.
Putting their mind at ease and strangely making their minds feels lighter..almost as light as a feathers.
They fell asleep and by tomorrow when they be awake the last question that stayed on their mind the day before.."..why again" seemed to have passed through their attention as they swiftly and intentionally seemed to have put it away and not question it anymore for the time being.
One thing for sure they have not forgotten about their will to protect eachothers,while also keeping the change in the relation between them the same as it has always been.. atleast in the eyes of those around them.
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But they still couldn't linger off the feeling that there was something all to familiar that night..that night that will stay engraved in their memory forever and ever.
Like a story they're already been through..
Maybe..this is a part that they have yet to found and that is yet to be told..
Probably in a far away futur or...