I have no idea how much time has passed. Seeing my mother like that, realizing my death destroyed my family was painful, but at some point, I had to let it go.
It's cruel to myself, it's painful and it's sad, but do I really have the right to mourn? I don't think I do, so all that's left is to leave the past in the past.
At some point, my spiritual "body" disintegrated, completely leaving that life behind, that family, that home, and those bad memories, and now I'm slowly waking to my reality.
To the reality of being "Evelyn" again, without any real connection to the past, I wonder what other evil things "Evelyn" has done for me. I'm sure making me see how my family was destroyed isn't the only "gift" she's left me.
