05. "IN EVERY SIGHT"
I don't think that I will ever allow myself to love somebody like this, I have never known of a love like this, 'cause how is she still the best I've ever had 3 years later?
I wonder if I'll ever stop caring about her, I wonder if my brain will ever erase every memory of her and I wonder if I'll ever wake up one day not loving her anymore. I just wonder because we've got too much history, so many beautiful moments have taken place in the period of having her and so many things keep pulling me backwards everytime I try looking forward.
I may never ever breathe the same air as her again, I may never ever hear her voice in person again and I may never be in her arms ever again, and that shit just fucks me up. Even though I know that our paths may never ever cross again, I still love that girl, dearly.
6. "I LOVE HER HARD"
I think of her when I'm writing about love, when I write about making love, I see visions of us doing just that and when I paint the girl of my dreams, it's a spitting image of her. As much as she's moved on and outgrown me, I love her.
Hate to admit it but I still think about her when I smell her fragrance from somebody passing by, it still brings back memories of her, like how we'd be in bed, all cuddled up and warm, where the world wouldn't matter.
Man I really used to be in love, everything was perfectly for me, nothing was missing in her words, her kisses, her touches, her hugs, her presence was the closest thing to heaven and after her, nobody has made me feel the way she does, that's why I love her.
Loving her isn't good for me right now because she doesn't love me anymore, I should just kill my love for her and go on with life like I've never set my eyes on her but I just can't change the way I am for nobody, my truth remains, I still love her hard.