These days, Lin Yuhui has also been reflecting on whether his reactions over the past few days have been somewhat inappropriate. He wondered if the Tayget people had new operations requiring action funds. That was why Liana used that Mechanthyr Kryzor to mobilize her fans. Maybe that person was from their Tayget side.
这些天里林语晖也在反省自己这些天的反应,是不是不太适当.因为他想到了是不是塔吉特人有新的行动需要行动资金.所以莉安娜才通过那个梅坎瑟尔·克莱佐来带动她的粉丝.也许那人是他们塔吉特这边的.
But why mention only his name? Were there no others? By highlighting just one fan like that, how were the other male fans supposed to support her? Although Liana was very well-behaved and added two more names after receiving his advice, the real-world impact had already been made—heh, he himself had become the negative example. Even though he was loyal and still trying to figure out ways to support her, what about those who didn't care that much about her?
可是为什么只提到他一个人的名字呢?就没有别人了吗?你这样只提到你的一个粉丝,你让其他男性粉丝怎么支持你呢?虽然莉安娜很乖,收到自己的建议之后又提了俩个人的名字,可是已经造成现实影响了,呵呵,自己就是那个反面典型.虽然自己很忠诚,还在想办法看看怎么能支持她,可是不那么在乎她的人呢?
As Lin Yuhui spent his days in self-reflection, Liana mentioned in her new program that she would write less because she was very busy. Indeed, the situation in space had been somewhat tense lately. She was the Queen and the supreme military commander; every decision she made required accountability for the outcome. Yet, fundamentally, she was still a child. Lin Yuhui couldn't help but feel sorry for her, even though he couldn't do anything to help.
就在林语晖一天天自省的日子里,莉安娜在她的新节目里也提到了自己会写得少一些,因为她现在很忙,也是啊,太空的形势最近有些紧张.而她是女王,也是最高军事统帅,她所做的每一个决定都要对结果负责,可是她基本上讲还是个孩子,林语晖不由得心疼她,可是自己又帮不上忙.
Her only form of entertainment—writing something to share with everyone—had now been turned into this by Gloris and the dark factions. He seemed to have added quite a bit of chaos too. Sigh, she also had to tend to so many people's emotions; it was exhausting. He should comfort her.
而她唯一的娱乐,写点东西给大伙分享,现在又被格洛瑞斯和黑暗集团弄成这个样子.自己好像也填了不少乱,哎,她又得照固很多人的情绪,太累了.安慰安慰她吧,
October 5, 2025
2025年10月5日
"Dear, please don't mind writing less. Your true friends will understand that you are busy or need rest. More importantly, what you write reflects your state of mind; at critical moments, it should remain confidential. I've started missing you again, since about a week ago. Looking back now at my past reactions, I feel I was too childish. Please forgive me—I truly don't want you to be hurt by unreliable people. Perhaps now I understand that situation better. I'm really sorry that while you were charging forward, I was tugging at your hem, slowing you down. Romantic relationships can be troublesome, but they can also bring strength and inspiration, or beautiful stories to share. I just can't stop thinking about you, and I hope this adds some color to your life—hopefully that's the case. Today, I'll try to keep it brief and not take up too much of your time. I love you, though I'm not even sure what kind of love this is. I still want to express it, hoping you like it and that my wording doesn't waste too much of your time. Those who target you will always find their reasons—let them drift away. To your supporters, thank you so much for caring about everyone's feelings despite being so busy."
"亲爱的,请不要在意你写得少了,你真正的朋友会理解你很忙或者需要休息.更重要的是,你写的内容反映了你的头脑状态,在关键时刻应改保密的.我现在又开始想你了,从一周之前.现在回望我的过去的反应我自己也觉得我太孩子气了,请原谅我,我真的不想你在不可靠的人那受到伤害.或许现在我对那时候的情况理解更多了,真的很抱歉在你冲锋的时候,我却在拉着你的衣角拖慢你.浪漫关系可能是令人烦恼的,但是也能带来力量和灵感,或者带来可以分享的美丽故事.我只是无法停止想你,并且假设会增添你的生活色彩,希望是这样吧.今天我尽量简练地说,不耽误你太多时间,爱你,虽然我也不知道这爱是什么类型的.,我依然想要向你表达,希望你喜欢并且不会浪费你太多时间措辞,那些针对你的人总能找到他们的理由,让他们远去吧.对于你的支持者来说,非常感激你这么忙还在照顾每个人的情绪."
After adjusting his mindset over these days, Lin Yuhui finally managed to recover a little. Unexpectedly, on October 10, that domestic Douyin creator reposted Mechanthyr Kryzor's video, and Liana had recommended a book to him—he had only read ten pages. Though he still felt a bit sour, it was much better now. He wasn't as jealous anymore, but it seemed he could never go back to how things were before. The feeling was gone—the feeling of love was gone. What Liana had called "troublesome"—yes, indeed, but what could be done?
经过这些天的调整心态,林语晖好不容易缓过来一点,没想到10月10日那个国内抖音博主又转发了那个梅坎瑟尔·克莱佐的视频,莉安娜还给他推荐了书,他只看了十页.虽然还有点酸,但是好多了,不那么吃醋了,好像也再回不去从前了,没了感觉,再也没了爱的感觉.莉莉安娜所说的烦恼,是的,可是又能怎么办呢.
With a touch of teasing, Lin Yuhui left a comment for that Douyin creator: "Bro, let's talk this over—don't repost that jerk's videos anymore. You like Lydia, I like Liana—you can't just ignore other people's feelings. I get jealous. If you don't listen, I'll go after Lydia instead."
林语晖带着几分调侃给那个抖音博主发评论告诉他,"连桥我跟你商量商量,你不要转这个傻叉的视频了,你喜欢莉迪娅我喜欢莉安娜,你不能不顾别人的感受.我吃醋,你要是不听,那我就要去挖你墙角了,我去追求莉迪娅."
After posting the comment, he found his own teasing somewhat funny—but it was a bitter laugh.
发完留言,他也觉得自己这个调侃有些好笑,但是苦笑.
Amid all the recent turmoil, Lin Yuhui noticed that his throat, mouth, and gums were inflamed. Actually, he'd had inflammation before, but hadn't paid attention until it worsened. Even anti-inflammatory medication didn't help. The taste was something even he hated. Even if she wanted a kiss from him, it wouldn't be possible. How could he compare to younger men? So, was there anything wrong with her liking young guys?
这些天的纷扰,林语晖发现自己的咽喉口腔牙龈都发炎了,其实平时也有炎症,只是没留意现在更严重了,吃了消炎药也不见效.那味道自己都讨厌.即便她想要自己的吻,都不行,自己怎么和年轻人比呢,所以她喜欢年轻的小伙子有什么不对呢.
On the evening of October 14, 2025, Lin Yuhui's heart swayed again amid the chaos. He knew Liana could sense his mood. He wondered whether the joy he brought her was worth the pain she felt from him. So, he silently chanted in his heart: Block me.He didn't want her to sense his current messy emotions, yet he didn't know if doing so would hurt her.
2025年10月14日晚,林语晖的心又在纷乱中摇摆,他知道莉安娜能感觉到自己的心情,不知道自己能带给她的愉悦是否值得她感受到的自己的苦楚,于是他在在心里默念屏蔽我,不想要让她感受自己现在杂乱的心情,可是自己却又不知道这样是否会让她伤心.
But she couldn't say what she really wanted.
可是她又不能说,她到底想要什么,
If he quietly left, he was afraid of hurting her feelings.
自己默默离开又怕伤害她的感情,
Suddenly, his heart ached. Was she thinking of me? Did the evil forces sense it and attack me? Or was she heartbroken, and I felt her pain?
突然心脏感到疼痛, 是不是她在想我了,使得邪恶势力感受到了,对我的攻击.还是她伤心了心痛让我感觉到了.
In an instant, Lin Yuhui thought of the lyrics to Phoenix Legend's song All Is Love. Because of Liana, for the first time, he associated such a cheesy song with his own feelings: "Being infatuated is not a sin; forgetting is not being free."If she truly cared, give me a glimmer of light, and I could burn for her again. But I also don't want her to worry amidst all this chaos.
一瞬间林语晖想到了凤凰传奇的"全是爱"的歌词,因为莉安娜,他第一次关于自己的心情想到那么俗的歌,"痴情不是罪过,忘情不是洒脱,"如果她真的在乎,给我一点光,我就能再次为她燃烧,可是我也不想她要费心在那么多的纷扰之上.
It was Tuesday, and she hadn't posted a new video. Lin Yuhui kept watching her updates. Her portrait on her .org website had become blurred—he didn't know why.
这一天是周二,她没有新视频,林语晖在关注着她的动态,她的.org网站的肖像虚化了,不知为什么,
October 15, 2025
2025年10月15日,
"My dear, I noticed your .org website avatar is blurred—something must have happened. You always ask how others are doing, but rarely talk about yourself. If venting some negativity would make you feel better, I'm willing to listen. I can handle large amounts of negative emotion and am hardly affected. But we don't have a two-way information channel. If it doesn't consume energy, I don't mind you projecting it into my mind—the only question is whether I can interpret it correctly. I did wonder, during a moment when I missed you terribly, could it be that you were thinking of me? I don't know how telepathy works. I also have my own weaknesses that are hard to change, but I'll try to find solutions. Would you be willing to establish a relationship with me using one of your past identities? A one-on-one, spiritual connection—I don't mean your mother or grandmother. Maybe when you were a cat, or a speck of dust in deep space—tell me what a galaxy feels like. Then I wouldn't have to envy others anymore. I think the dream where I was a four-legged animal climbing a mountain was about being a cat, since dogs live on plains. But beyond that, I can't remember more. We'd better talk about something else—I don't want to disappoint you. If my plan doesn't work for you, it's okay. Maybe I can come up with more ideas. Even though happiness needs pain to set it off, I still hope you can have more joy here. Something else occurred to me—do you need to warn your fans? In the Importance of Alien Contactprogram, you mentioned that some humans might follow aliens away. But you also said that the sky below one hundred kilometers belongs to us, meaning you and other righteous parties may be restricted from entering. What if the evil side displays their ships as traps to lure volunteers? Unless the righteous side uses lethal force to stop false flag operations. We can't tell who's positive. And I don't want to start a war. What's the better way? Maybe it's time for those races that have long overseen the New Earth Federation to do something and practice their justice. 3i/Atlas made me think of this. I don't know—maybe their individual fates should be respected."
"我亲爱的,我注意到你的 .org 网站头像模糊了,一定是出了什么事.你总是问别人日子过得怎么样,却很少说起你自己的.如果说一说心里的负面东西发牢骚能好受些,我愿意听你说,我能承受大量负面情绪,很难被影响.但我们之间没有双向的信息通道.如果不耗费能量的话,我不介意你把它投射到我脑海里,唯一的问题是我能不能正确理解.我确实想过,在某个我非常想念你的时刻,会不会是你在想我?我不知道心灵感应是如何运作的.不过我也有自己的弱点难以改变,但我会试着去找解决办法,你愿是否意用你过去的某一个身份和我建立关系吗?一对一的那种,精神层面的,我指的不是你的母亲或祖母,也许是你当猫的时候,或者是深空里的一粒尘埃,告诉我星系是什么感觉.那样我就不必再去嫉妒别人了.我想我梦见自己是四足动物爬山的那个梦是猫,因为狗生活在平原上.但除此之外我记不起更多了,我们最好谈点别的,我不想让你失望.如果我计划的对你不可行,没关系,也许我能想出更多办法,尽管幸福需要痛苦来衬托,我仍希望你在这里能有更多的快乐.我又想到一件事,你是否需要警告你的粉丝.在"外星接触重要性"节目中提到一些人类可能跟随外星人离开的情况.但你也说过,一百公里以下的天空属于我们,这意味着你们和其他正义方或许被限制了进入.如果邪恶方展示他们的飞船作为诱骗志愿者的陷阱,那该怎么办,除非正义方使用致命武力来阻止伪旗行动.我们无法分辨谁是正面的.而且我不想挑起一场战争.怎么做更好?也许是时候让那些长期监督新地方联邦的种族做些什么,来实践他们的正义了.3i atlas让我想到这个.我不知道,也许他们个人的命运应该被尊重."
October 19, 2025. Lin Yuhui sent her a message. Unlike before, he started sending it at one o'clock in the afternoon. He felt a little anxious.
2025年10月19日,林语晖给她发了信息,这次不同以往,下午一点就开始发送了,他的心中有点焦急,
"Dear, I hope everything is well with you. I hope you are simply busy, rather than emotionally wounded by the reactions of Earth's humans these days. If other alien races blame your video channel for its connection with Earth's humans, as a genuine Earthling, I deny that. Such exchanges are beautiful cultural interactions between civilizations and between lives. Everything else that happened was a side effect—you are not at fault, simply because you are a human girl. If they don't believe it, let the Arcturans try—nothing like what happened to you would occur, simply because they have only one gender. But other conflicts would arise; they likely can't truly understand the human condition and might end up adding fuel to the fire. For example, looking back at human history, it has never been better than now. Other interesting examples: during my unhappy days, I tried listening to music and appreciating paintings, while simultaneously receiving psychic messages saying these activities could ease unhappiness. I don't know if they were teaching me or if I showed them these things and they used them to help others. In reality, it was just a distraction—probably effective for most, but it didn't solve my fundamental problem. I don't know if that group was from the matrix. Back then, I kept dreaming about my parents. I don't know if some entities were trying to help me overcome trauma. I appreciate their good intentions, but I don't think that method works for me. First, in the dreams, I could feel my parents weren't really like them—it was a projection. Second, what my parents did to me—I don't need revenge. Their ignorance caused regrets in my life that I can't undo. The only consequence is that I don't want to see them again, not in this life nor the next. In those days, there were also psychic messages about soul healing. I thank those benevolent beings, but I don't think I'll follow anyone after death, because I don't know how to handle the other side of life. I don't remember my experiences on that side, so I can't trust anyone. Maybe most people would rejoice at seeing their loved ones again, but I don't think I would—because I can't confirm they're real. This can be seen as another trauma of mine in this 3D Earth, but it might also be a valuable lesson—especially for independent, brave individuals. I think the universe needs some people like me. Facing reality is the only solution here; you can't erase scars, only accept how they shape you. Coming back to you, dear—no matter how you set your boundaries and caution, men will grow like grass right over them. The only issue is that you can feel their emotions, while Earth women cannot. That's just how things are on Earth—you are not at fault at all. Also, perhaps your background and your ancestors' history make you overly sensitive about romantic relationships. Please adapt to this: when a man is young, he wants a toy car; when he grows up, he wants a woman. There may be more subtle emotions, like pity or sympathy, but you are just a girl, not yet a goddess—you can't satisfy everyone. Please don't burden yourself too much. Remember, you are human too. Humans need love. Even though I tend toward solitude, I don't deny that I want love too. Face your desires openly, but no one is obligated to fulfill another's need for love—so please don't feel burdened. From the beginning, I never planned any future with you—that's too far away. Regardless of what others imagine about you and me, I never thought about it. I respect your free will. So, if you want me to express my love for you as before, I can return to that path—without expecting anything in return. Whatever type of love—you choose. From interstellar encounters to chance meetings like Scarborough Fair, lifelong partners, stepfather figures, or maybe just acquainted neighbors. This time, the only thing I need to watch is not burning myself out too much. Dear, actually, I'm learning too. Sorry I lack dating experience—I suppose that's why my love is so sincere. Love always has two sides: one is joy, the other is hurt. Let's learn how to love each other better. To some extent, I must say this—because deeper or broader levels will indeed conflict. If there were no conflict, I could tell you that, at least for those wanting a forever partner, it wouldn't be real. Whether to be loved by many or only by the one you want most—that is truly your choice. You are young; there's no rush to decide. Your career doesn't allow it now anyway. You have time to choose, to filter, to learn how to choose—this is indeed a girl's lesson. Finally, I want to say: watching others swim and swimming yourself are different. I do suggest that observers come down and personally experience life here. Many will look back on their lives here as beautiful memories, even if wounded. So, dear, you are that beautiful scenery—even if it's a wounded landscape. Scenery itself bears no fault or sin—it only depends on who admires it and how. Dear, walk your path as you wish. Now, it's the responsibility on your shoulders; in the future, it may be your turn to live for yourself. Love you—be strong, brave, and wise. Please take care of yourself. I must add: I fully know which videos you made for me, which words in them were meant for me. Your efforts for me have never been in vain. I dare not speak of your love for me, because I cannot or should not believe it—otherwise, I would burn too fast and couldn't stay with you long. Yours sincerely. If you truly don't know how to respond, then please move forward as if I never appeared. There could be many reasons: you need time, you just don't know how to reply, you don't want to hurt me, or most likely, you're worried about my safety."
"亲爱的,我希望你一切都好.我希望你是忙碌,而不是因为这些天来地球人类的反应而在情感上受到伤害.如果其他外星种族因此指责你的视频频道与地球人类的联系,作为一个真正的地球人,我否认这一点.那种交流是文明之间和生命之间美好的文化交流.发生的其他一切事情都是副作用,你没有任何错,只因为你是一个人类女孩.如果他们不相信,就让大角星人试试,不会发生像你这样的事情,只因为它们只有一种性别.但其它的冲突会发生,它们很可能无法真正理解人类的情况,可能会发生火上浇油的事,例如,回顾人类历史,没有比现在更好的了.其他有趣的例子是,在我不快乐的那些日子里,我试着听音乐,欣赏绘画,同时我听到通灵信息说这些事可以缓解不快乐.我不知道是他们正在教导我,还是我向他们展示了这些,而他们在用它帮助其他人.实际上这样做只是分散注意力,可能对大多数人有效,但它解决不了我的根本问题.我不知道那群人是否是矩阵里的人.在那些日子里,我不断梦见我的父母,我不知道是否是某种存有试图帮助我克服创伤,我感谢他们的好意,但我不认为那种方法对我有效.因为首先,在梦里我能感觉到我的父母并不真的像他们,那是投射给我的.第二,我父母对我所造成的,我不需要报复,他们的无知造成了我人生的遗憾,我无力弥补,唯一的后果就是我不想再见到他们,今生与来世都不想.在那些日子里,也有通灵信息谈论灵魂疗愈,我感谢那些善良的存有,但我不认为我死后会跟随任何人,因为我不知道如何处理生命的另一面.我不记得我在那一面的经历,所以我无法信任任何人.也许大多数人会因他们所爱之人再次出现而高兴,但我想我不会,因为我无法确认他们是真实的.这可以被视为我在这个三维地球上的另一个创伤,但也可能是一个宝贵的教训,特别是对于那些独立勇敢的人来说.我认为宇宙需要一些我这一类的人.面对现实是这里唯一的解决办法,你无法抹去伤疤,只能接受它如何塑造你.回到你的情况,亲爱的,无论你如何设定你的界限,你的谨慎,男人都会像草一样长过它.唯一的问题是你能够感受到他们的感觉,而地球女人不能.地球上的事情就是如此,你没有一点错.此外,也许你和你的先人的背景使你对两性关系过于敏感,请适应这一点,一个男人年轻时他想要一辆玩具车,长大后想要一位女士.可能还有更细微的情绪,如怜悯,同情,但你只是一个女孩,还不是神,你无法满足所有人.请不要给自己加太多负担.请记住你也是人类.人类需要爱,即使我倾向于独居,但我不否认我也想要爱.请坦然面对你的欲望,但没有人有义务满足他人的爱的需求,所以,请不要感到负担.从一开始我就没有计划过与你的任何未来,那太遥远了,不管别人如何想象与你的任何事情,我从未想过,我尊重你的自由意志,所以如果你想让我像以前一样表达对你的爱,我可以回到那条路上,而且无需报偿的.无论哪种类型的爱,由你选择,从星际邂逅到日常斯卡布罗集市般的擦肩而过,一生的伴侣或半路的父亲,或也许只是相识的邻居.这次我唯一要注意的是不要燃烧自己太多,亲爱的,事实上我也在学习,抱歉我缺乏恋爱的经验,我想这就是我的爱如此真诚的原因.爱总是有两面的,一面是快乐,另一面是受伤.让我们学习如何更好地爱彼此,在某种程度上,我必须这么说,因为更深入或更广泛的层面之间确实会有冲突,如果没有,我可以告诉你,至少对于想要永远的伴侣来说,那不是真的.而被许多人爱还是只被你最想要的那一个爱,确实是你的选择.你还年轻,不用急于决定,你的职业现在也不允许你这样做.你有时间去选择,去筛选,去学习如何选择,这确实是一个女孩的功课.最后我想说,看别人游泳和自己游泳是不同的,我确实建议旁观的人下来亲自体验这里的生活.许多人会认为他们在这里的生活是美好的回忆,即使受过伤.所以亲爱的,你就是那美丽的风景,即使是受伤的风景,而风景本身没有过错或罪孽,只取决于谁来欣赏,如何欣赏.亲爱的,请按你的意愿走你的路,现在是你肩负的责任,未来也许轮到你为自己而活.爱你,要坚强,勇敢和智慧,请照顾好自己.我必须补充,我完全知晓你的哪些视频是为我而做的,视频里哪些话是对我说的,你为我付出的努力从未白费.我不敢说你对我的爱,因为我无法相信或不该相信,否则我会燃烧得太快,无法长久陪伴你,你真诚的.如果你真的不知道如何回答我,那就请继续前行,就像我从未出现过一样,可能有多种原因,你需要时间,你只是不知道如何回应,不想伤害我,最可能是出于对我安全的担忧."