The scene appears on the screen—the most horror scene of this movie—but it arrives at the start of the movie; it's just my bad luck. And when the scene appears on the screen, the ghost in the movie starts walking on the floor with its hands like a creature, and it really looks horrible—horrible enough to make me scared of it. I flinch a little at that scene.
"Yuan, what kind of surprise is this? Tell me, which boyfriend makes his girlfriend watch the most horror movie in the whole China till now?" I asked.
He smiled, and he knows it very well why he smiled, and said, "Every boyfriend."
"What? What did you just say?" I asked.
"Nothing, just watch the film. See, such an amazing scene it is. I must say, the director organized the scene very well," he said.
Then again the horrifying scene came on the screen, and this time it made me more scared than anything ever, and I suddenly, unknowingly, hid my face in his shirt and held his sleeves very tightly, like if I loosen my grip just a little then my whole world would collapse. I closed my eyes tightly and just hid myself more and more in him.
He started massaging my back with his warm hands, and the moment he touched me, he said, "Why are you so cold, silly girl? Did you get scared that much?" he asked.
I didn't reply anything. I just stayed there. My body started shivering—he sensed it immediately.
"Calm down, relax, I am here, I am here," he said, while pausing the movie on the screen and starting to massage my back to make me warm.
"Why didn't you tell me that you get this much scared?" he asked.
My whole body became colder than my normal temperature.
"Wait, your skin is just as cold as ice. Let me bring a blanket for you," he said, and he tried to stand up from the couch, but I didn't let him. I didn't even loosen my grip on him—not even a little.
"I know, I got you, my silly girl. Stay with me," he said, while still massaging my back to make me warm and calm.
Then, as he knew that I wouldn't let him go from here to get a blanket for me, he put both my hands around his neck and pulled me closer to him—a little more closer—and adjusted both my legs around his back and held me like I am a little lost rabbit here.
And then he finally stood up from the couch, holding me so carefully, like a parent holds their child, and then he slowly, taking small steps, walked inside the bedroom and took the blanket from the bed and sat on the bed while holding me, and then he put the blanket around me, and above that blanket his warm hands were still massaging my back to keep me warm.
"I didn't know that you would get this much scared. I just did it for fun, but I haven't thought that this fun would lead you to suffer like this. If I had ever known it, then I would have never done such a thing with you—ever. But look at me… just your day started with saying that your Yuan Yuan is a goal, is a standard, and is as perfect as anything could ever be, and I just made your these words a delusional image of me. I am really not like what you think me as. I don't know what and why you see me like this, but trust me, I am not that someone that you are thinking. I am just a normal human being. But I think my character's image in dramas is way more stronger than my own—that's why it has this much impact on you, that even after seeing me in reality, you still think of me as your C-drama main lead, who is just perfect as anything. But you, silly girl, you just got fooled yourself with that image of me. I am a human being, and human beings do make mistakes, as you always said that human beings are bound to make mistakes—and same I did today. Boyfriends make their girlfriends feel safe and secure, and look at me—just look at me, what I did to you. I just made you shiver like this and made you feel so much scared. It's all because of me—all my fault. I am just not good enough to hold you, to be with you—I just don't," he said, while crying hard, which seemed like Shanghai's weather pouring rain from the clouds suddenly in this hot summer season.
He hid his face on my shoulder while crying, but still holding me, and then I looked up a little at his face and tilted my head slightly. He also looked at me with teary eyes.
I wiped his tears with one of my hands and said, "Don't you dare to curse my Yuan Yuan and use such words like this about him. Your opinion—and not only yours, even not even anyone's opinion—matters to me ever. I always see you with my own opinions and my own point of views, and no one else's opinions will ever change it—anything, not even an opinion from the great, great, great Xu Yuan. Understand—you better understand."
He smiled faintly through his tears and said, "You can't see any fault in me?"
I shook my head and said, "No, I have never, because my Yuan Yuan is as pure as ocean's water, as charming as a shining star, as perfect as my Yuan."
He pressed his forehead to mine and said, "You really are mad in me. It's not a good thing—it's really not. Loving me like this, while forgetting yourself, is really not good, I am telling you."
"My love is just like this only. I love my Yuan Yuan wholeheartedly, and I can't stop loving him till my last breath, because it's not only my love for you—it's my worship, and my worship isn't that weak that a horror movie can break it," I said.
He smiled and said, "While calling you silly girl all the time, we have reversed our roles, and I became the silly boy."
"Indeed, you are," I said, smiling.
He tapped my forehead a little with his finger and said, "Now you are laughing like this, and just a few minutes before you were scaring me to half death. Don't do this again, otherwise your Yuan Yuan will lose himself."
"I won't, I promise," I said.
And like this, we found peace in each other—yes, we do make mistakes, just like normal human beings, but getting up from those mistakes and moving forward from them is what makes love look like, and this is the love as raw as an unripe fruit but still as strong as the branch of a tree, and today we learnt that no matter what mistakes we make to each other, we are really not leaving each other at any cost, and then the Shanghai night became quieter as we found peace in each other, holding each other like this, which may last forever till the end of this universe—that is the only wholehearted wish of us…