Chapter 22: Give Me a Chance
"You clearly like me so much, yet you're rejecting me."
"What are you thinking?"
"Xie Yang?"
Qi Xu leaned down and kissed Xie Yang's cheek lightly, whispering softly in his ear, with a hint of CX330's distinctive playful tone.
Even though CX330 and Qi Xu were the same person, at this moment, he felt like the person in front of him was CX330.
Because CX330 had always been gentle with him.
It was a warmth he had never felt from Qi Xu.
The one who loved him had always been CX330.
Not Qi Xu.
He distinguished that very clearly.
Qi Xu held Xie Yang's chin, the distance between them almost nonexistent.
He could even see his reflection in Qi Xu's pupils.
At that moment, his mind went completely blank, his heart pounding wildly.
He liked CX330, he liked Qi Xu.
He didn't want to break up.
He wanted to be with Qi Xu.
Whether Qi Xu's claim of liking him was to retaliate for the breakup or just to tease him.
At this moment, he had changed his mind.
He just wanted to be with him, no matter what.
Even if it was just for a brief moment of sweetness.
It would be worth more than countless days and nights of longing.
Two and a half years of secret love, and from the moment he knew Qi Xu was CX330, he was plunged into a storm of conflicting emotions.
He didn't want CX330 to be Qi Xu, but he was immensely grateful that CX330 was Qi Xu.
He wished CX330 was an ordinary person, hoping their relationship would be simple and warm like an online romance, facing many challenges but holding each other's hands tightly along the way, walking together to the end.
But when he found out CX330 was Qi Xu, it felt like the sky was falling.
Whether it was Qi Xu's personal abilities or his family background, it was an unattainable moon for Xie Yang.
He could never stand by his side.
Xie Yang was well aware of the gap between them, and he knew that Qi Xu didn't like him.
So his first thought was to end the relationship.
He had long accepted that his secret love would never see the light of day, and that he would never confess to Qi Xu. Qi Xu didn't need to know about his feelings.
In his eyes, this secret love could only be stored deep in his heart.
Even in an online romance, when he had the chance to get closer to Qi Xu, he thought it was better to let it go.
If Qi Xu ever found out his identity, it would only make things awkward for both of them.
He had underestimated CX330's feelings for Caramel Pudding.
He could feel that Qi Xu took this online romance seriously, and he was sincere even towards him under the guise of Caramel Pudding.
But only as long as he was Caramel Pudding.
He didn't think Qi Xu would still like him after knowing that Caramel Pudding was him.
Although Qi Xu had emphasized many times that his feelings were not just because of his identity as Caramel Pudding, deep down he still felt that perhaps Qi Xu viewed him through the filter of Caramel Pudding, which was why he had impulsive thoughts and interest in him at the moment.
Yet he also felt fortunate that he had always liked the same person.
Xie Yang didn't know whether to laugh or cry.
Turns out, no matter how many layers of disguises Qi Xu wore, no matter how they met, he would still feel moved.
He thought he had let go of his feelings over the past two and a half years, but it turned out he had never let go.
Just like now, he still felt moved by Qi Xu.
So he felt fortunate that he wasn't vacillating.
Turns out, he had always liked Qi Xu.
Xie Yang was trapped in this small corner by Qi Xu, immersed in his own thoughts since just now, staring blankly.
Qi Xu raised an eyebrow.
He hadn't expected Xie Yang to daydream for so long in front of him.
Dazed and obedient.
He looked at Xie Yang's small face, slightly pale from illness.
He gently lifted Xie Yang's chin, and before Xie Yang could react or struggle, lowered his head to kiss his lips, his soft tong*e prying open his teeth, turning a tender kiss into a passionate entanglement.
Xie Yang's pupils widened, his whole body stiff and unable to move.
The sudden kiss caught Xie Yang off guard.
He was kissing Qi Xu, and unlike the gentle peck on the lips just now, they were now deeply entwined in a passionate kiss.
The unfamiliar surge of emotions left Xie Yang's mind blank, Qi Xu's kiss dominating and fierce, leaving Xie Yang powerless to resist.
His hands pressed against Qi Xu's chest, unable to push him away, so he could only obediently close his eyes, tilt his head back, and kiss him back.
The hand around his waist tightened, and the kiss became more dominant.
Xie Yang didn't understand what was happening; this was his first kiss, and he could only be forced into Qi Xu's rhythm until Qi Xu slowly released him when he was almost out of breath.
Xie Yang took a deep breath, his lips slightly swollen, shimmering with a watery sheen.
Qi Xu held his face, fingertips gently rubbing the water marks on his lips, his eyes growing deeper.
Xie Yang's entire face rapidly blushed visibly.
He had just kissed Qi Xu.
Forced to tilt his head back and gaze at Qi Xu, his heart was in turmoil.
In Qi Xu's eyes were emotions he couldn't decipher, his scorching gaze making him unable to help but dodge.
When Qi Xu leaned in again to kiss him, Xie Yang raised his hand to block the kiss about to land.
"I'm still sick; I might infect you."
His voice was soft and delicate, as if he was coaxing.
Qi Xu's Adam's apple moved as he swallowed, the sound echoing clearly in the quiet space.
He pinned Xie Yang's wrist against the wall, lips curling into a slight smile. "So, does that mean baby agrees to continue dating?"
Was it because he had recovered from illness that he could now unabashedly demand kisses from him?
Xie Yang shook his head vigorously, speaking softly, "I-I didn't mean that, I just… I just…"
He stuttered and couldn't complete a full sentence.
A flicker of amusement flashed in Qi Xu's eyes. He squeezed Xie Yang's chin slightly, eyebrows raised playfully, and said not very seriously, "Then let's continue kissing until you say we won't break up."
Xie Yang's heart trembled, cheeks feeling like they were on fire, the blush spreading to the roots of his ears.
How could he say such things so casually!
He wanted to kiss him, didn't mind getting intimate with him. Could he dare to believe that Qi Xu might really like him?
Xie Yang's mind was in turmoil.
He really liked Qi Xu. Every time something related to Qi Xu happened, he became irrational.
Just like now, reason told him that he and Qi Xu wouldn't end up together, but his heart's scales had long tilted.
Like a child who had been suffering for too long, give him a bit of sugar and he would throw caution to the wind.
Looking at Qi Xu's face, he even needed to gather the courage to refuse, "I think I need some time to think about this."
Xie Yang tried to push away from his embrace, but when his hand touched Qi Xu's arm, he withdrew it.
Seeing this, Qi Xu furrowed his brow slightly and decided to lay it all out clearly.
"You want to break up, I disagree. If it's because I made you feel insecure, I'm willing to openly declare our relationship in any situation. If there's something about me that doesn't satisfy you, just let me know, and I'll change."
"But pronouncing my death sentence without even understanding the truth isn't fair to me."
"I know you have many concerns, but a few words won't prove anything."
"Can you give me a chance?"
"Please don't break up with me?"
"Baby."
Xie Yang opened his mouth, wanting to tell him it wasn't like that.
He hadn't even thought about feeling insecure. Qi Xu liking him was already a pleasant surprise; what more could he ask for?
He didn't want to make their relationship public.
Qi Xu hadn't done anything wrong and didn't need to change.
He was fine, everything about him was fine; it was him who wasn't.
Even when Qi Xu was with him, he wondered, why did he get Qi Xu's love like this?
Even if he was Caramel Pudding.
Xie Yang remained silent for a long time, with Qi Xu waiting for his answer.
Xie Yang frowned, cautiously glanced at him, and proposed a compromise, "Can we continue with dating online like before for a while? We can pretend we don't know each other…"
Qi Xu: "…"
Qi Xu didn't even want to directly refuse, "No."
Xie Yang: "Why?"
Qi Xu pinched his soft face, that was the reason.
He hadn't intended to have a dating online; it was because he was worried Xie Yang wouldn't accept him that he reluctantly chose an online relationship.
Originally, he had just wanted to appease Xie Yang, and naturally, their relationship would progress offline.
Now that they had met, and Xie Yang still wanted to continue dating online?
Absolutely not.
Not even thinking about it.
Xie Yang didn't understand, "Why? I don't think there's anything wrong with dating online. Can't we still voice chat every day, chat every day, and have the same good things as before?"
Qi Xu looked at him, his tone serious and earnest, "I don't just want to voice chat with you online or chat on WeChat. I want to be able to hold your hand anytime and kiss you anytime."
Maybe there was something else inappropriate to tell him right now.
He couldn't scare him away.
Xie Yang: "…"
Thinking about the kiss just now, Xie Yang suddenly felt extremely shy.
He was completely speechless by Qi Xu's words just now.
Qi Xu took his hand and felt the cold temperature in his palm, frowning.
So many layers on, yet his hands are still so cold.
Xie Yang wanted to pull his hand back, but Qi Xu held it tightly. He could only explain softly, "I don't want people to know we're dating."
Suddenly, the air became quiet.
Xie Yang looked dryly at him, nervously holding his breath, wondering if he had said the wrong thing.
Qi Xu stared at him for a long while, his eyes deep, as if expressing his dissatisfaction, "Am I that disgraceful to you?"
Xie Yang quickly said, "No, no, it's not like that, that's not what I meant."
He was just afraid.
How many pairs of eyes in the school were watching Qi Xu? So many people liked him, paying attention to his every move every day.
Even if Qi Xu did nothing, just with that superior face, he stood out.
If they found out that Qi Xu and he were dating, maybe his profile would be posted on the school forum at the first opportunity, spreading the news in various campus groups.
Their relationship would be talked about by many people, and even the smallest things might be blown out of proportion.
He didn't want to see that happen.
When he liked Qi Xu before, he knew that many people were thinking about how a celestial being could pull Qi Xu off the altar.
If they discovered that he was just an ordinary person, how much criticism would he face?
He was naturally timid.
Thinking about the pressure of public opinion…
Xie Yang: "Should we just break up then?"
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