Li Qingya POV
Due to my stupid mentality that men loved virgin girls, I have stayed pure for my damn nineteen years,
I even got embarrassed for it.
I'm not going to let it go, I'm going to show Qin Mochen that I'm not that innocent.
And when Xia finds out that it was Qin Mochen who took my innonce I'm sure she'll be super mad.
I kept the tranquilizer pill away, and made a mental note that tomorrow, I'll start my preparations.
I need preparations to learn how to get Qin Mochen hooked, I only have five days before his birthday.
I thought about everything that had happened at the party, the more I thought about it the more I want Qin Mochen, to have him, let him kiss and touch me.
I have never been able to enjoy sex.
Tomorrow I must go out to research about it
The following day, I left earlier, I didn't go to class despite having lessons I went to a bookshop.
The Butterfly.
Cowgirl.
Missionary.
Doggie.
I have flipped page after page after page in the sex position manual and grew more and more depressed with every picture that greeted me.
All of them.
I haven't than any of them, apart from watching them online .
Tears of frustration burned my eyes.
I blinked rapidly to dispel them, but one picture escaped and landed in the center of a Lotus position sex diagram.
"Dammit." I hastily wiped off the tear but it had already left a watermark on the book. Now I had to buy the stupid thing.
"I've seen women crying over movies but not into books before, but usually it's over in the movie rooms," came a voice Infront of me.
Lifting my head, I came face to chest with a man over six feet tall. Craning my neck, I found his face rather closer to the ceiling than my own and discovered that it was a handsome face and the man was smiling kindly at me.
"The movie is depressing enough for me to watch alone."
The man cocked his head to the side and gave me a searching look.
I should have been embarrassed getting caught by a man as I wept into a sex position manual.
But after spending yesterday night being body shamed and insulted by her best friend whole the man of her dreams watched, the tattered remains of my dignity had packed its bags and headed west.
He coughed softly and I noticed he'd extended his hand.
Quickly pulling myself together, I tucked the book under my arm and shook his hand.
"Li."
"Qingya. I'm a mess." I found his grip oddly comforting and didn't pull my fingers back from him.
"Hi Qingya. Are you going to tell me what's wrong or do I have to spend the rest of my life wondering why a beautiful woman was weeping over dirty Perfect Nights? I mean, it's no Kama Sutra, but it has a happy ending. Lots of them."
He meant the words as a joke but I couldn't laugh.
"No happy ending for me." I leaned tiredly against the bookcase.
Li squeezed my hand a little tighter.
I should have been scared of a man so big, built like a football player, dressed like loaded CEO, and hanging out in the sex section of a bookstore. But something in his eyes made me stay, his eyes were pretty same like Qin Mochen 's. Maybe it's because I'm head over heals with Qin,
Maybe that's the reason I see every man as Qin.
But something in his eyes made me trust him a little, and I needed to talk, had to talk. A stranger seemed better suited than a friend.
"No happy ending?" Li crossed his arms over his broad chest.
He had salt and pepper hair but looked no more than Thirty fove. "Every story should have a happy ending. Well, any story that has you in a bed in it."
"You're hitting on me." I smiled for the first time today.
"I'm flirting with you. I have the floggers back home when you want me to hit on you."
I raised an eyebrow at him.
God, it would be nice to just spend a day in bed with a man like this--sexy, confident, and kinky too. And importantly he should be Qin Mochen.
But I knew it would end the way Xia said it will. " No man wants a plain virgin girl like you."
i bit my inner cheeks as I tried to smile at Mr Li, I'm going to learn everything I wanna know from him, even if it means I loose my innonce.
"I appreciate it. My ego needs all the help it can get. But I promise, I would be a waste of effort."
"I refuse to believe that, Qingya. Tell me what's wrong. If you're not going to flirt back, the least you can do for my ego is to tell me why."
I wrinkled up my face in embarrassment.
"It's gross."
"Is it that time of the month? Not gross. Easy to work around."
"If only. I..." I began and paused, deciding if I really wanted to be one of those people who told my life story to a stranger.
Yes was the answer.
Today. Yes. "I have never had sex before. I am nineteen years old and have never tried to do it, but my best friend embarrassed me in front of the man I love yesterday that I'm plain.
And today i decided to love a few things before I seduce him, this is he only way to rectify things. My image.
Why have my innonce until marriage when my future husband will find me boring, I need to have a good sex now to know if it's worth it, before marriage years to come!"
Li brought my hand to his lips for a quick kiss.
"That is a sad story. So what's the book for?"
"This? I told myself yesterday that I should try to learn some different positions.
I don't think i won't be able to hook him with all these styles."
"Anal?"
I nodded. "i want to learn everything, I've heard from my friend in college that it hurts."
" You don't mind even if it hurts?" Li asked me surprised
"i don't care even if I fail."
"I don't know if this will convince you to stop crying into sex books and come back to my place with me but..."
"But what?"I let him pull me closer, close enough I could smell the cedar scent of his soap and see the smile that lurked at the corner of his lips.
"But...I know what I'm doing." He said his words with confidence.
The thought of Qin inside me without feeling nauseous but his body seizing with pleasure?
"I've never gone to bed with a man before, much less the one I just met."
"No wonder you're crying in the bookstore."
"You won't think less of me?" I smiled at him.
"The only women I judge for their sexual choices are the women who turn me down. But none of them has ever done that."
"I'd hate to break your streak of obedient women." I said to him
"Then don't."
"It probably won't work, you know? I might chicken out, I'm warning you right now. Or will you force me"
I wanted to know anyway.
"No way, I'll never force à woman, I'll probably have you screaming from pleasure in under an hour. I'm warning you right now. Say 'yes.'"
I laughed. Might as well. It was the least I could do for her poor innocence and my eagerness to learn everything in just five days.
"Yes." I answered him
"Good. Let's go."
"I have to buy this book first. I got it wet."
"Trust me. Female tears are the least of the body fluids on this book." He took it and shoved it onto the shelf while I made a mental note to wash my hands thoroughly after going home.
We grabbed a taxi and spent the twenty minute ride whispering our life stories to each other.
I, well, still a student living at a a rich friend's home, plain virgin.
Li Mo--he swore it was his real name--ex-wife, no kids, just a club he treated like his baby.
"What kind of club?" I wanted to know
"The best kind," he said and gave me a wolfish smile.
The club turned out to be exactly what I 'd imagined. Black walls, winding staircases, many rooms with closed doors.
"Sex club?" I asked as he escorted me inside.
"Kink club. We cater to all the fetishes here."
"Is 'a plain virgin eagerness to learn' a fetish?"
"It's a damn shame, is what that is." Li led me up the central staircase to a room at the end of a third floor hallway.
He opened the door to a bedroom that appeared to have been lifted from a traditional house.
"Let's get you over that, shall we?"
"If you can teach me everything, you're a miracle worker."
"I can do it if you'll let me. You've gotta trust me though." He opened an ebony cabinet inlaid with ivory and pulled out a flogger.
"Okay, you weren't kidding about the flogging thing?" I asked surprised
"I never kid about floggings. You say you're afraid he'd look down at you during sex. Fine. Let's get the fear out of the way first so you can focus on the sex."
"Are you-"
Li strode to me and looked down at me.
The move emphasized the height difference between us.
I wasn't short. Not at all.
But he was so big I felt tiny in comparison to him and rather hated to admit how much I liked that. He was y'all like Qin Mochen
"Qingya...I know...what...I...am doing..." He said each word slowly and punctuated the sentence with a kiss.
A long kiss, a slow kiss, a deep kiss that said even more than his words that he knew what he was doing.
"I believe you." I said smiling shyly
"Good. Take your clothes off."