"can you?" My heart tightened at his words.
I really want to say yes but how can I love someone when I don't even know who I'm. How can I give someone a chance, when I don't even know what my chances are!.
"N..o" I I said shaking my head and tears welled in my eyes.
I put both my palm on my face. I heard someone laughing and It was none other than the prince of hell.
Jerk. And he says he want to take me out.
"I wa..s just jokin..g" I lifted my head and gazed at him in surprise. He was laughing so hard that he might fall off from his chair. Why does it hurt even more now?. I cannot believe that I admitted my feelings for him to myself.
"Fool, how can you joke about something like that you idiot .."
I asked with anger fuming and wiped my tears off my face. He was still laughing.
"A joke that will soon become a reality"
He said now with a serious face now. How is he able to make my heart raise at this simple statement?
"Dream on" .
"Always a pleasure to dream about my princess" . he said with a wide smirk plastered on his face. I was really annoyed.
"Look, I really have something important to say to you" I said
"Okay, if you are going to reject me again, it is of no use, I will still pursue you" he stated grinning.
"But you still need to hear the reason!!" I argued pushing him to listen.
"Who is he? I will break his bones" he said. Right now there is only you...but you really need to wait.
"No..there is no one..... can't you just listen to my reason" I said.
"Ok.." he said sighing.
"I have to find myself, I don't remember some of my past memories..I don't know who I'm anymore.. I have to know what my past is..it really feels like something is missing " I explained myself and he remained silent for a while as if trying figure out what to say next. Maybe he wouldn't want me after knowing the truth.
"Why does it matter? Let the bygones be bygones, just treasure being you, you are complete the way you are.... maybe you lost your past because that is not who you were supposed to become." His words actually melted my heart and made sense.
It was comforting. I truly want to believe him. But I can't seem to really convince myself. There is another reality that is somehow being misplaced or vanished. I can't really figure out my life's missing puzzle... He seems to be genuine, but what if this was all fake? I don't find a reason for him to fall for me.What had happened between me and Adithya in the past?!
"N..o, it matters to me" tears streamed down my face.He suddenly moved his seat next to mine and cupped my face with a promising gaze . I tried to pull myself away, but he didn't let go.
"I will wait for you to be ready... until my last breath...but don't go flirting with other guys..it doesn't put me at ease at all..." He said while intensely gazing to my eyes and wiping my tears off with his soft fingers.
"Heyy...I never flirt with anyone nor did I say that I like you?" I said while slightly smacking his hand. Although I did admit it to myself that I like him, I just cannot bluntly admit it to him. Not just yet. Again what if this was all just a part of some kind of revenge against calib?. Then my feelings may become his plaything. Although his words only bring genuinity in tone and emotions, deep down the fear of an unknown past is there.Although, I don't find any other reason to suspect him, I fear the phase of uncertainty.Should I just take the risk?
"What are you doing?" Justin's fierce voice alarmed our current position. This fierce and unusual attribute definitely doesn't suite justin at all.The prince of hell seemed like he was enjoying a show.He didn't budge nor did he pulled himself away from me. He was still resting his hands on my cheeks.The damn jerk was still smiling. What if this was all a set up?.
"Nothing..." I said pushing him away from him with all my might and he chuckled as I almost fell but was saved by Adithya.
"Wh...ere is the guest bedroom?" I asked him trying to change subject.
"Ok.. cupcake, I'll personally escort you there" justin said while placing his hand on my shoulder.His weird attitude is back.
"No need, I've already asked the maid to do that " says the prince of hell.
"That is not for you to decide" retorted justin with anger evident in his voice.
"That is okay.. don't bother to escort me, the maids will anyway do it" I said agreeing with Adithya and pulled myself away from justin.
"Okay, sweetie" said justin hugging me only to be immediately pulled away by the prince of hell himself.
It seems like they were on a glaring competition.
Two maids suddenly appeared and took me to the guest bedroom. I settled myself there. I skipped dinner. I was about to go to the bed when I was alarmed by a sudden knock on the door. I opened the door to find justin.
"Whats up ?" I asked him. He started to come unusually close to me. I stepped back.
"Umm..I think it is late and you should go back to your room" I said pointing to the door.
"Didn't you hear her?" It was the prince of hell himself. But justin still did not retire. He was about to kiss me, when Adithya blocked it with his hand and smacked him with the same hand. He pushed justin outside the door and said "lock the door and sleep" he said in a tone that made me shudder.
"Why did he act like that" I asked Adithya.
"Oh! For f*xs sake, then sleep with the jerk" he glared at me as if I did some great crime and took Justin to his room.I just ignored eye contact with Adithya. Is that how the situation be interpreted??!!!his playful attitude is more fun.
I was all ready for school in the morning and climbed downstairs . I had breakfast and avoided talking to both of them.
"Sorryy shreya... yesterday I really got carried away" Justin broke the silence by apologising.