I know I shouldn't have run away yesterday but I didn't know how to face her...shit.
I have kept my gender a secret from everyone except my family of course, the thing is I don't even know my gender. I have a dick like any boy would and then I have titties like any girl would. My parents had to choose at the hospital when I was born on which gender I should be assigned but they decided it was best if they left it to me when I grew up.
Hmm...
I wasn't particularly bothered about it cause my boobs were not a handful so it was literally invisible, so I decided to pass as a boy temporarily as I too am not sure of what gender I prefer.
I was scared Aivah would find out and now that she has I am sure she hates me, I am sure she sees me as a freak... Ugh... I am so stressed out thinking about this, I looked up at the clock and my heavens it was past midnight... I slept off after some minutes.
Preparing for school this morning I wished I could skip school but I knew I couldn't so I got ready and left.
I saw Aivah heading to my class, I made a sharp U-turn to the bathroom;
Breathe in... Out, breathe in... Out; I tried to steady my breathing before slapping cold water ony face.
Aivah should be gone by now I guess.
I went back to class.
Each time I hear the door open my eyes dart up as my heart pounds vigorously and every of those times it wasn't Aivah.
I was very distracted and could not focus, my very grumpy classmate had to throw a pen at me before I snapped back.
"What?" I croaked out,
"We about to take math test and you have been staring at the back of Gerald's hair for minutes" he said as he rolled his eyes;
"Oh, I am sorry" I whispered as I got ready for the test.
One of the few things that I took interest in even though my life is as boring as fuc was tests and exams. They helped me detach my thoughts from a whole lot of other things and focus on the moment. So I sighed in relief as I started solving away.
The side of my head has been feeling uncomfortable for a while now, I occasionally ran my hand at the back of my ear lobes as I massaged the quizziness away, but it returned and this time it felt like it was burning through my skin so I instinctively glanced at the window... gulp...
Aivah was staring right at me, it was as if we were holding a staring battle before she pointed down at my paper reminding me I had a test.
I abruptly turned to face my test occasionally sparing a peek at the window, she was still there whenever I peeked but this time she was either talking with my teacher or looking at the football field.
I finished first like I always do and waited for others. Mr. David wrote the answers on the board after we exchanged our papers and asked us to score each other before he left.
I placed my head on my desk to rest completely forgetting that someone was waiting for me.
Thud... a soft thud, I raised my head to find her sitting on my desk... gulp.
I wanted to lay back down and pretend I hadn't seen her but that was impossible because she turned around to face me.
I wish I could sink into the floor...
"Well bunny you are one hell of a nut job" she said, but she was calm almost as if she was trying to understand me.
"I..I..I'm sorry..."
"It would help us more if you refrained from saying sorry everytime, try explaining for a change" she said but this time there was a little drowsiness in her voice;
" I know I should have told you about me beforehand but it is hard to explain especially when it is something that has been so for a long time" I stopped to breath before continuing;
"I was born intersex" I paused to see her reaction, it's either she was unfazed or she hides her emotions well.
"My parents decided I should be the one to choose what gender to be; so there was no gender assignment surgery when I was born; pause to breathe... hmmm, hummm; I have been through some tests while growing up and...
She cut me off...
"Let's go outside shall we, before your classmates stare us to death" she said.
She led the way as we walked to music room.
She dusted the chair and gestured for me to sit down.
"So?"
"The tests confirm that I can't get a woman pregnant but I also do have a womb, so I am just some wierd mix of the two" I waited for her to say something but she just looked at me.
"Please say something, I understand that I am revolting cause of my gender which is something you don't have to deal with" I managed to spew tears running down my cheeks.
"Do not cry, your hazel eyes are cloudy cause of the tears and please do tell why you think you are revolting" she said in a voice that was so calm and reassuring;
"You don't have to console me, I know I am a freak to you now I saw the way you stiffened last weekend" I said as I pushed her hand away from my cheeks even though I wanted to hug her;
"Oh bunny... You are not half as freaky as I am, I do not find you revolting; you are very sexy I will have you know and yes I was surprised last week because I had no prior knowledge so it is normal for me to process it for some Minutes" pause... "I literally slumped on my bathroom floor after cumming while thinking about you" she said with a nonchalant look full of desire.
I blushed really hard as I turned away while trying to calm myself down because apparently my meat was throbbing and my nipples were hard... Yikes...