I started walking in the empty, moving to home and finally taking a break from the day after all the drama happened. But I think it was just normal for me, I have been bullied many times, by my own teachers to my own classmates, as they had a network with other classes as well, I have been a victim of them as well. Looking at life, it's not even worth living where you can only achieve sorrow and pain in your life.
But there are a few to whom I care a lot, and they are the reason I am alive till now. I don't have any mean to live, but because of them I don't take the steps which will hurt them. But I do rather choose to die by an accident, where I wasn't the reason for my death...but it will look better for me, nor they will blame me to whom I love and I will be free from the pain I am suffering from years.
Anyways, I am Miyo, a normal student of a school...yeah, I think I am normal, with having no social life. I am of 16, and I live in an apartment room with my big brother. When I entered in the school, I realised that everyone just wants to be dominated, to look cool, and having a real friend is way too hard, so I have only a few precious gems, and rest of the time I spent with games and music.
But keeping it aside...I am really afraid to big brother, I am worried if he gets to know about the situation. I just wished that big brother just takes it as normal bully, I really don't want him to worry or stress about me.
I walked to the apartment and stopped in front of my room door. I looked at the door and took a deep breath, and opened the door.
"I am back from school."
I came to the entrance of the room, and suddenly my big brother came from side and with a bright smile greeted, "Welcome back Miyo!!!--"
I sat on the floor to take off the shoes and big brother was a little bit surprised. He realised it and with a faded smile he asked.
"Miyo...were you bullied again?"
This was normal that he would recognise it, it's normal anyways. But my worry was about the serious injuries, which I guess... he didn't noticed, thankfully.
I didn't reply him, and I also knew what next he would say now.
Big brother came walking with a first aid and said, "How many times I have said you, just inform me whoever bullies you. And you won't tell me till now either who did it, how can I help you then, Miyo?"
I smiled, looking down and said, "It's not your matter big bro, I don't want you to be troubled by the case--"
Suddenly my big brother caught my cheeks which hurt at worse and he turned my face and I looked at him. He just gave a sigh at the end and opened the first aid box abd started giving me the treatment.
"So, if you don't want me to interfere, then why don't you fight back on your own?"
This was the second line my big brother will always say...but...
"It's easy to say, and you have always said me that...but I am not strong to fight with them, I stand no chance."
But my big brother just smiled on my reply.
"No, you are as strong as others are. You just already assume that you stand no chance, but it's a 50-50 of winning or losing. It doesn't matters, you just need courage to fight, strength to still stand, and believe that you can win. Just make a fist, take your arm back and blow with complete strength. That's all you need to win."
I smiled with a sweat, "Again, for you, it's easy to say but not on action."
Big brother completed the treatment and he picked up the box and looking at me and said, "Then you just need to surpass your fear, you are not mislead or on the wrong track, you are just stopped by the fear. Surpass your fear, make your own way, and now the left thing you need...is to have the will to survive."
I smiled with sweat, big brother is definitely a motivational speaker somewhere or he would have heard something similar before.
"And don't think I am just saying in air, anything. But you will understand it when you will have the will to live and you will be on the rop of life where you would be just one centimetre far from death...I know it, so I am telling you."
I was a little bit surprised...was big brother ever in the situation? But I just smiled looking down, and said in my mind, "But I have no will to live anyways."
Big brother started walking away and said, "You go to your room, get ready and do whatever you want then."
I stood from the floor, kept the shoes aside and started walking to my room with my bag.
I reached to my room, opened the door, kept the bag and changed my uniform and jumped on my bed immediately.
I looked at the clock, it was 2 p.m., and my eyes started closing. My vision started becoming blurry and my eyes closed...and I slept.
Big brother came to my room with a plate with meals for the lunch and he opened the door, and he saw me sleeping peacefully. He gave a sigh, closed the door and started walking away saying, "He sleeps so much. He should be active."
But who will tell him how much exhausted and tired I was after all the blows and punches by the teacher.
But yes, my big brother is one of my friends, one of the gems I wish to keep near to me forever.