"It's done" said renjun to winwin in Chinese, after finishing packing the last luggage with the help of his cousin brother, giving a hum in response winwin quickly roam his eyes around the room to check if they forget anything to pack or no and luckily it was all clear.
"We will leave tomorrow evening, so if you have anything left to be done here make sure to finish it" winwin instruct renjun in his usual calm tone and the younger one nodded in response before an awkward silence fell between them as the incident is still fresh in both of their mind from 2 days ago.
Renjun wants to talk about it to winwin but he don't have the courage to ask question to his older brother about his past love Life, he have so many questions for him about if he is truly still in love with Yuta if that so then why did they broke up?
And Knowing how conservative and homophobic winwin's parents are how did winwin fell in love with a male? There are many questions that renjun wants to ask but he just can't.
"You wanna say something?" Winwin asked renjun after noticing that the boy was spacing out while staring him, coming back to reality renjun quickly shook his head in no and turned around carrying his luggage to put it off the bed.
winwin sighed ofcourse he is not stupid to not to realise that the younger Chinese have a lot of things he wants to talk about and winwin knows he can't ignore it forever and it's better to talk things out while they are still in Korea.
"Do you want to talk injunie?" Winwin asked in a soft tone and renjun after placing the luggage with the rest of the luggages turned around with a blank expression on and then shook his head in no.
"I am going out for sometime, will see you at night, once hyuck come back ask him to put the clothes hanging outside at laundry" renjun said grabbing his phone and wallet and moved out of the room leaving winwin to wonder what just happened he was expecting renjun to ask him something but the younger just walked off.
"Ge?" Turning around winwin see renjun standing at the door of the room looking at him for a second then at the ground taking a deep breath before looking up again at winwin
"you just said that before going we should finish our pending work. I believe you also have a work left to be done here, please clear things out with yuta and hoshi hyung for once and for all otherwise it will bother you for long" renjun said and without waiting for any response he left leaving winwin to sit there and think about what renjun said.
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"About last night, if you are ok then we can talk about it tonight" taking a deep breath hoshi gathered himself and stepped out of his car moving towards the empty bench placed at the farthest corner of the park where yuta has asked him to meet through his text earlier in the evening.
Coming here first to ease the building tension and anixety in his heart hoshi decided to stroll around the park for some minutes as it was already past 11 so the area was nearly empty that give hoshi a benefit to roam around freely while engulfed in his own thoughts.
What will yuta say? What will he say in response? Will everything be fine? There were many questions that hoshi was asking himself but couldn't able to find answer to any of it.
While walking in the cold grass barefoot hoshi was remembering everything from the very beginning, the first he met yuta then when he met the Japanese in the residence building to them being hella awkward around each other for a month or two.
And then suddenly becoming friends taking to each other almost everyday via texts or calls, hanging out near the building once in a while at night and then falling head over heels for the Japanese.
Hoshi can't believe how soon everything happened it is if it was just yesterday when they had first met completely unaware of each other and insanely awkward around each other to a point that they couldn't able handle sparing glance at each other and now can't help seeking for each other's presence around them whenever possible.
Hoshi knew that yuta feel the same way for him as he do, but this is not enough even after the last night confession nothing is clear between them regarding their relationship status.
Hoshi needs to know it clearly whether the Japanese want to be in a relationship or not? Whether he is serious about it or not?
Hoshi himself need to find answer about if he sure that he wants to be in a relationship with a male?
If yes, then is he ready to take upon the challenges and critisism he will have to face in the future if he start dating yuta?
Is he ready to declare it to the world that he is a bisexual and is dating someone from the same gender, specially in front of his parents?
The more hoshi think about all of it the more he see the mountain of challenge growing bigger and bigger in front of him.
But he is not someone who will run away from them he has been taught to face everything head on and to never give up on his dreams and happiness ever by his parents.
Rembering this teaching of his parents hoshi took a deep breath gathering his courage, he know he is ready to fight for his happiness but that is only possible if yuta thinks the same way.
Checking his wrist watch that he had received back from yuta a month ago to check the time he realised it's already been an hour since he arrived here but yuta is yet no where to find.
Sighing in dissapointment hoshi took out his phone to dail yuta's number surprised by how come the Japanese is not on time that don't happen often did he got into a trouble?
Pushing the negative thoughts aside hoshi put the phone to his ears and waited for yuta to pick it up but unfortunately his phone was switched off.
Getting surrounded with his negative feeling regarding whether the Japanese is ok or not or does he forget about meeting him or does he changed his plan?
Hoshi wasn't able to push his thoughts away getting embraced by the fear that something terrible might happen hoshi decided to wait for five more minutes if yuta didn't show up then he will leave.
Sitting at the bench looking across him at the empty road tapping his fingers at the phone screen anxiously hoshi was keeping on looking at the road waiting, realising that the time is up hoshi was about to tear up.
But then he heared the engine of an car looking up at it hoshi break into a small tearful smile he was almost on the verge of breakdown thinking that yuta pranked him or something.
Coming out of the car yuta quickly made his way towards the korean and when he went near him he saw hoshi's cheeks were slightly red and he was looking at Japanese with a look of anger but he wasn't looking scary at all to the Japanese.
But was rather looking fragile and hurt and yuta can't help but feel terrible as he had guessed that hoshi might be waiting for him but he didn't expected himself to get this late causing the Korean to cry.
"I thought you forgot that you had to meet me here" hoshi said staring at yuta with an unreadable expression on, shaking his head furiously in a 'no' yuta looked at hoshi with a sincere apologetic look.
"I am sorry, I didn't meant to be late, I am sorry" yuta said and hoshi rubbed his forehead trying to collect himself before looking at yuta again.
"What took you this long?" Asked hoshi to which yuta rubbed the back of his head shyly for the first time catching hoshi off guard.
But before he could make a comment on it the Japanese ran back towards the car with hoshi looking at his direction with utter confusion and the Japanese came back with a small bouquet of white and black roses and give it to hoshi with a mixed look of happiness, shyness and nervousness.
Taking the bouquet from yuta, hoshi smiled widely at such a sweet gesture forgetting about the fact that he was angry at the Japanese a moment ago.
"Most of the flower shop did not had black roses so that's why it took long to find that one shop where I can find black roses and that's the reason why I got late, I am sorry" yuta explained himself looking at hoshi with a apologetic look as he know he really troubled hoshi a lot by not being on time.
If there was a third person present there they might have mistook them as a couple already and these two guys are not that stupid to not to realise where there relationship is going even without have to express it through word they both know what they want as it's evident in their body language from past some time.
"You could've just bought white roses in that case why going through so much trouble?" Hoshi asked genuinely before moving towards the empty bench with yuta following him side by side "White roses have many symbolic meanings, including:
Purity, innocence, and youthfulness
White roses can symbolize a heart that's unacquainted with love, and are often used to represent young love, eternal loyalty, and new beginnings. They also symbolises serenity and peace."
Yuta explained after taking his seat next to hoshi having their shoulder pressed together and hoshi give him a long 'oh' look of understanding he never knew yuta has that deeper understanding about flowers.
"And your personality represent all of it" yuta said staring at hoshi softly as it was already quite late in night the weather had cooled down and the soft wind was breezing everywhere gently hitting the male's faces and hoshi was looking absolutely breath-taking under the dim lighting of the road lamp.
That was hitting his face through the tree shades and yuta could swear his heart indeed missed a beat when hoshi's bangs fall on his forehead due to the wind but the Korean was unaware of all of it.
As he was staring at yuta's face taking in the every detail of the Japanese's facial features as he was looking so damn good right now.
Getting aware that they both are literally completely lost into each other gaze, hoshi was the first one to come out of the spell and cleared his throat before looking back at the bouquet he was holding.
"Everything is ok but I don't think I am peaceful or serene if you ask my friend or family they all will say I am the biggest choas maker in their life specially seungkwan" hoshi said laughing a little as the memories of his and seungkwan fighting and quarrelling popped up in front of his eye.
"You know i----- you are. Because you have bought peace in my chaotic life" hoshi paused himself midway when yuta said that with no hint of joking around it was genuine yet a firm statement that need no reason of debate.
"What about black roses then? Do they represent you?" Hoshi asked after a moment of silence as that one mere statement caused butterflies to erupt in his stomach, stopping himself from doing something stupid he decided to change the topic, hoshi really can't handle yuta's intensity of words.
Yuta smiled softly looking down at his hand before looking up infront of him having hoshi's eyes fixed on him " Black roses represent Endings and new beginnings and after years of wait I believe I am ready to end one chapter of my Life forever and start a new one... With you."
To be continued....