A lot of things intrigue and annoy me at the same time!
I have mood swing issue, which I'm very sure most of you know nothing of. Not that I like talking about it.
There are so many things and questions that bombard my mind for me to even give another glance at what you're doing to give myself a mood issue.
Look at it this way, I study people that are close to me so as to be mindful of things they don't like so that I don't step on their toe.
But when ur comes to, it's a different case! My best friend, Precious can attest to that. I know pretty much everything there is to know about about her, but she only know a few things about me.
I am different and I've said that before. I don't like things that will trigger a mood swing, so I guess I don't share things as much as I thought I will.
There are some things I will like to tell her among others, but whenever I want to talk, I get scared of exposing myself or laying myself bare to someone else. Not that so I won't be back stab, but because of fret and second thoughts of all the things that can possibly go wrong.
I have so many things that can go wrong and right in my life that I just decided to mind my business ti keep my peace of mind.
A lot of things - small things (to be precise) - annoys me more than the big things. Most times, I just keep my cool and silence and all my thoughts for myself, just in the name of peace.
I can't fight with you, not because I can't or don't want to, but because I prefer not to do it because of reasons best known to me.
I get angry quite easily and quickly. Trust me, it's more hardly said and easily done when it comes to my case.
To be honest, I seriously don't know how Precious handles me for all these years and we're still together in one piece.
She's more forgiving than me, I'll give her that. She's more lenient than me, I'm very strict.
I can be whatever I feel like and I speak in the same way. Sometimes I say things that are quite filthy enough to get all of us - yes, including me - in trouble and still smile at it.
Most times, I cherish my peace of mind more than anyone else's. I know, that's not good! I won't say it's bad because of so many reasons I won't disclose here today in this chapter.
Some things, people needs to learn the hard way. I have myself. A lot of things you can't fence and mood swing is exhausting as it sounds.
It's simple, whenever you see someone's not in the mood to converse, let them be. But no, they want you to talk and talk for a long time without minding how you're responding back to them. They'll say 'as long as you're responding, they're fine with it's like seriously!
Sometimes people snap at others not because they want to, but because others push them to do so.
That's why I back up my motion, when I said 'most times I cherish my peace of mind more than anyone else's!" Some things you don't fence, such as your emotions when you have had just about enough of the pushing and lackadaisical behaviours of people around you. In this accord as well, I back my motion from chapter one 'I have few friends' just because cases like this!
I love my peace of mind as much as you do if not, why willi even give a shit about about you say or do or what you're going through? I don't want to be made angry, you don't want to be made angry, what then should we both do to refrain ourselves from stepping on each other's toes? Mind our business, peace and learn how best to relate with others to be 'save rather than sorry!'
Some people will say 'easy said than done' but is it?
Give peace of mind to others as much as you want them to give you. All relationships are based on a two way traffic. If you don't know before, know it now. Relationships are build on a two way traffic and there's no other way apart from this one!
Sometimes I talk because I want to or to make you not feel bad and to keep things away. But I never forget to take a deep breath to keep myself from being rude.