A few weeks later I got a call from her again. She was asking me the same question all of a sudden and I answered normally. I was feeling frustrated and annoyed by her because I had to keep explaining myself to someone even though I didn't even do anything but somewhere inside I could still understand that there must be a reason for her to be desperate enough to reach out to a total stranger and ask them if they're with their ex. Even though it does sound stupid but that's what feelings are supposed to be, stupid. She asked me to meet her again but I refused because I was kinda scared to meet a total stranger just like that. But she ended up involving my best friend from school her name was Prachi and I don't know what she snitched to my best friend that she ended up breaking up with me without any explanation. But I tried to play off cool because I didn't want to sound weird about it and that's why I didn't reach back to my school bestie. It's been a few days now and I got a call from my male friend and he told me that he met his ex-girlfriend in a motel. I wasn't sure why he was even telling me all this it's just dumb to tell everyone about your private matters so I shrugged it off but what he said next made me feel disgusted he told me that after the motel incident his ex got pregnant and she wasn't sure about her pregnancy yet but she told him that her stomach is hurting for some reasons and then he made a weird mysogynist comment about her feeling pain now but enjoying the s*x it made me feel so nauseous and angry that I cut the call without saying anything I was feeling pretty mad at him and myself for even considering someone like him a friend who thinks of women as objects and disrespects them. I felt pretty mad at myself for not understanding and overlooking his behaviour I felt like by overlooking the situation I was a part of the bad stuff he did because I didn't understand anything and let everything happen foolishly. So I decided to block him from everywhere. That matter was closed now. A month passed and I wasn't even going to college. But my college bestie momo and my friend's group kept asking me to come to the college so I decided to go back again. I was avoiding him at any cost but for some reasons he was everywhere which for some reasons seemed a bit scary to me. He would always approach me whenever he saw me in college and it was uncomfortable for me and I felt so dumb for not knowing how to tell him to back off. Was I scared? Maybe. Or I was just a coward. But I couldn't tell him to back off no matter how uncomfortable and awkward it was for me. A few days later it was my birthday and my friends bought a surprise birthday cake for me in the college I was so happy but to ruin the moment he decided to tag along and celebrated my birthday with us but it wasn't even a problem until he decided to hold me in a back hug position and cake up my face. The only thing my body could react with was freezing. My hands were on my chest to protect myself as he rubbed that cake on my face from behind I felt his breath on my ear and finally he let go of me I felt my hands trembling but I tried to play off cool because I didn't want to ruin the celebration. Everyone was very happy and I didn't want to sound like a party pooper. So I just acted normal till the party ended and called him to confront him afterwards I told him that "what he did made me uncomfortable and don't ever do that again." But the only answer I got was "okay" I was feeling like I wasn't being heard and my discomfort wasn't being acknowledged but I didn't say anything further and cut the call. But after that day whenever I ran into him I desperately tried to not interact with him at all but things kept escalating further. He would come up from behind and close my eyes try to play guess but it didn't felt playful as he was trying to pretend. He would hold my hand a second longer in handshakes and once I noticed him sniffing my hair but for some reasons I didn't have the guts to say it out loud. I don't know what I was so scared of? Was it a first time that I was going through such situations? The answer is yes. It was. Because I grew up with a very protective family so I was never left alone but it did turned me into an dependent person who always looks for someone to take their stand. And I didn't know who to tell about what was going on. Because I felt embarrassed to talk about such stuff to other people. He told me that he told a guy that I was into girls because he was intrested in me. I don't even know how to feel about this anymore. But things never stopped just there.
