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Chapter 35 - Chapter 35: I'm running away beyond this fucked up world

There comes a definitive breaking point in every person's life when they are forced to make a massive, permanent decision: will you stand and fight, will you completely give up, or will you simply turn around and run away? For as long as he could remember, Tim had spent his entire life either actively fighting his battles or fleeing into the shadows, but his heart had never once entertained the thought of giving up. He had never allowed his mind to surrender, even during the dark chapters when he felt utterly exhausted by the crushing weight of the world. It had been an unyielding pattern... up until this exact moment.

They spent the entirety of Sunday trapped in the quiet sanctuary of their apartment. To ensure absolute peace, they completely turned off their phones, refusing to let a single outside call or text message disturb their shared world. When Monday morning arrived, Tim felt an intense reluctance to step onto the university campus, but he completely refused to let Willy walk into the world alone after Saturday's chaotic dinner, so he dressed in his usual quiet clothes and accompanied his husband.

The second they crossed the threshold of the main building, Seb, Al, and Logan were already waiting for them by the lockers, their expressions filled with intense curiosity.

Seb stepped forward, keeping his voice low. "Tim, man... the rumors are already flying across campus. I heard you caused an absolute, devastating storm at Willy's parents' mansion on Saturday afternoon."

Tim let out a slow, heavy sigh, shifting his bag over his shoulder. Honestly, his mind was completely exhausted from discussing the corporate drama. He wanted to wipe the entire weekend from his thoughts and never hear a single syllable about it again.

Logan chimed in, looking deeply concerned. "Miles has been frantically trying to ping your line all morning, Willy. He says there is absolute chaos sweeping through both the family home and the corporate headquarters. He is completely lost and has zero idea how to salvage the situation."

Tim gently squeezed Willy's hand, offering a quiet, tight smile. "Dear, I need to head over to the administrative building to handle a matter with the senior professor. Just shoot me a text message the second your morning lecture wraps up, and we can grab lunch together."

Without waiting for a response, he turned and walked down the hallway. Tim's entire history had been plagued by absolute chaos, and all his heart truly craved nowadays was a quiet, peaceful life with his husband. Yet, no matter how hard his hands built a fortress, absolute peace remained entirely out of his reach.

Willy watched his husband's retreating back, his chest tightening with a heavy sigh. "It's an absolute mountain of chaos, guys, and I am trapped right in the freezing center of it. On one side of the fence is the person my heart loves more than life itself, and on the security side is my own flesh and blood. It is entirely impossible to settle on a clean decision right now. I know Miles is caught in an exceptionally dark place with the firm, but my mind has absolutely zero idea what move to execute."

Al placed a reassuring hand flat against Willy's shoulder. "You are overanalyzing every single variable right now, Willy, and that is precisely why your mind is paralyzed. Just push the entire mess out of your head for a little while, and I am entirely confident that the perfect solution will surface. My friend, you are trapped in an exceptionally brutal situation, but I hold absolute faith that you can handle this weight."

Seb offered a warm nod. "Al is completely right. Let's block out the drama for now. We need to hurry to the main lecture hall or we're going to be completely late."

Willy, Seb, and Al moved down the corridor together toward their classroom. Logan's specific lecture wasn't scheduled until later in the afternoon, so he headed toward the student lounge to rest. He had deliberately arrived on campus early just to check on Willy's well-being. He was deeply worried about his brother's safety, especially since the grand divide between Willy and their parents was growing wider and more dangerous with every passing hour.

Meanwhile, across the courtyard, Tim sat in the back row of a crowded lecture hall. The professor's voice was droning on about economic structures, but Tim wasn't processing a single sentence. His mind was drifting through a dark, turbulent ocean.

Maybe it is finally time for me to give up entirely and permanently bury this quest for revenge, he thought bitterly, his jaw clenching as he stared out the window. This entire dark path is becoming far too exhausting. I completely refuse to put Willy's life in danger for the sake of my past. And now, my own family line and Willy's parents are actively conspiring to tear our bond apart. I have spent my entire life fighting every single person who stood in my way, but my heart is genuinely so tired of the endless war. I am entirely sick of the games, the blood, and the lies. I just want to take my husband, turn my back, and run away beyond this entire fucked up world.

The second the lecture concluded, Tim quickly checked in with his senior professor. The administrative meeting wrapped up much earlier than anticipated, leaving him with an empty hour. Since his feet didn't want to wander back to the crowded corridors, he decided to head over to the university shooting club; his hands hadn't held a practice weapon in weeks.

When Tim pushed the heavy double doors open, several club members were already occupying the lanes, systematically practicing their marksman targets. Tim hadn't walked in with the intention of active training; he simply held no idea where else to hide his thoughts, and the quiet rhythm of the firing range was the very first sanctuary his mind recalled. He moved to the wooden spectator benches at the back of the room, quietly sitting down to watch the others practice their alignments.

Why on earth am I continuing to execute all of this? Tim questioned himself, his eyes tracking the targets. This business path isn't even my own personal dream. I am pouring every ounce of my energy and wealth into securing these empires simply to fulfill dead destinies. When will the day finally arrive when my hands can build something that aligns with my own true passion, rather than carrying someone else's ghost? Honestly, my mind doesn't even hold a proper definition of what a personal dream feels like. After ensuring that every single wish of my brother and cousin was brought to life, I never once paused to consider what my own path should look like. I always assumed that once the ledger was clear, I would simply vanish to a remote corner of the earth and live out the rest of my days in total isolation. So what is my dream text now?

"Tim? Man, I had absolutely zero clue you'd be hovering around the range today," a warm voice broke his thoughts.

Tim looked up to see Ethan walking over, adjusting his protective gear. Tim offered a quiet smile. "I'm just waiting for my husband's lectures to conclude. I assume your eyes are scanning the room because you're waiting for Seb?"

Ethan burst into a wide, stunned grin, sitting down on the bench beside him. "Oh wow... so your lips are openly calling him 'husband' now? Man, today is turning out to be a day full of absolute surprises. You know, practically everyone on this campus is placing bets that you two won't ever make it to an actual wedding because Willy's family will deploy every asset they own to block the union."

A cold, amused smirk touched Tim's lips. It was highly entertaining to listen to the campus gossip, considering the reality that he and Willy had been legally married for over a month now. And even if they hadn't signed the deeds, Tim knew with absolute certainty that not a single force on this earth possessed the leverage to stop his wedding.

Tim shrugged casually. "I can't block ordinary people from thinking whatever foolish thoughts please their minds, Ethan. The only variable that holds any actual weight to my heart is what Willy desires. It is entirely up to his own judgment to decide the future of our bond, and I will completely refuse to let a single outside voice influence his choice. If his heart ever decides he wants to walk away from me, that choice must be born entirely from his own independent mind, not from the demands of his family."

Ethan and Tim continued to converse quietly, the atmosphere relaxed, until the range doors clicked open again. Willy and Seb walked into the facility, holding clipboard folders to check on the active club members. It was their presidential duty to monitor the logs. Since Willy had skipped campus activities the week prior, his hands had to systematically review all the scoring results.

Seb noticed Tim instantly, waving his clipboard. "Hey, Tim! Are you just going to hover back there on the benches, or do your hands actually want to practice a few rounds today?"

Tim stood up, stretching his tall frame. "I don't particularly feel like active training today, Seb, but don't worry I promise to completely match and exceed the top scores during the upcoming competition dates, regardless of how many practices I skip."

It wasn't an empty boast; whenever Tim stepped up to a firing lane, his results were terrifyingly perfect. His physical consistency was absolute, requiring zero daily practice to retain his precision.

Suddenly, a sharp, mocking voice echoed from the entrance of the range. "You honestly call that pathetic posture shooting? A literal toddler could target a weapon better than you, Grant."

The entire room froze, the club members turning around in shock at the sudden disrespect. But Tim simply lowered his weapon tracking, a massive, genuine smile breaking across his handsome face as his eyes locked onto the newcomer standing by the doorway.

Tim chuckled, stepping out of the lane. "Any ordinary toddler, perhaps, but certainly not you. I believe your memory is failing you, because every single time we competed back in the day, your scores landed flat in the dirt. Your presence shouldn't even be allowed on this range."

The young woman rolled her bright eyes, walking forward with a confident stride. "Trust me, I am absolutely not here by my own free choice. My father has been frantically trying to ping your secure line all morning, and since your phone is completely dark, he literally dropped me out here on this campus because he holds an exceptionally critical piece of information to deliver to your hands."

Tim immediately set his training gear aside, his posture turning serious as he approached her. He looked down at her with pure affection. "What, aren't you even going to offer me a proper hug? Or is your mind still burning with anger over our last conversation?"

The girl crossed her arms stubbornly, though a smile twitched at the corner of her lips. "I am absolutely still furious with you, Tim. My mind hasn't forgotten a single syllable of the harsh words you spoke over the phone last month. You literally vanished and left me alone to manage the children."

Tim let out a warm laugh, opening his arms wide. "Come on, Nora... don't tell me you didn't receive the package I transmitted to your coordinates last week?"

Willy and Ethan watched the interaction with wide eyes. Willy knew exceptionally well that whenever Nora's temper flared up, Tim's immediate strategy was to purchase a ridiculous new toy, because he knew that physical distraction was the only method that guaranteed her immediate forgiveness.

Nora pouted, though she finally stepped forward and wrapped her arms around Tim's waist. "Fine, but I am still technically angry. I won't let your history off the hook so easily this time, even if the plush bunny rabbit you bought for my collection was exceptionally cute and fluffy. Besides, your mouth still hasn't formally introduced me to your mysterious boyfriend."

Tim smirked, shifting his gaze over to the group. "Well, now the real objective of your campus visit becomes crystal clear. Go ahead, Nora scan the room and guess which one of these guys is my husband."

Nora turned her sharp eyes toward the group, systematically evaluating Ethan, Seb, and Willy with intense focus, trying to isolate the correct match.

After a few quiet seconds, her eyes locked onto Willy, a triumphant grin spreading across her face. "Found him. It's definitely Willy. He's the only one holding the documentation files with that specific, protective expression."

Tim laughed, shaking his head. "Your deduction is entirely correct, but your brain cheated, Nora. You've already done a deep dive into his public social media feeds, haven't you?"

Nora shrugged defensively. "Guilty as charged. It was exceptionally easy to isolate his digital profile, even though your private account doesn't follow a single one of his tracks. Which begs the question, Tim why on earth aren't you following your own boyfriend online? Are you terrified of losing your massive global fan base?"

Ethan blinked, completely baffled as he stepped into the conversation circle. "Wait... what fan base are you even talking about? What kind of hidden social network profiles does Tim possess that he's shielding from our ears? Forgive me for interrupting your family reunion like this, but my mind is spinning with absolute surprise. Oh, by the way, I'm Ethan, Tim's childhood friend from the neighborhood."

Nora offered a polite wave. "Nice to meet you, Ethan. I'm Nora, and I'm also his childhood friend from his overseas years. It appears our boy Tim here is keeping a massive labyrinth of secrets from your circle. I mean, I assume your minds don't even hold the basic reality that he used to work as a professional fashion model..."

The exact microsecond the word left her lips, Tim's hand shot forward like lightning, firmly clamping flat over Nora's mouth, cutting off the remainder of her sentence.

Tim's eyes turned entirely sharp, a warning tone entering his voice. "Hey... did your father send you here to gossip about my history, or did your memory forget that you held an exceptionally critical piece of information to deliver to my hands?!"

Without allowing her to utter another syllable, Tim grabbed her arm and systematically steered her out of the shooting range, pulling her into the private corridor outside before anyone could press for details.

Seb turned to look at Willy, his jaw practically touching the floor. "Did your mind hold a single clue about this, Willy?"

Willy let out a dry, amused chuckle, shaking his head. "Not a single detail, Seb. But honestly, my mind has moved past the point of surprise. If Tim walked up to me tomorrow and announced that his birth certificate was issued on another planet, I would probably just nod and accept the fact."

Ethan's eyes were practically bulging with excitement as he whipped out his phone. "Are you guys seriously not burning with curiosity right now?! I absolutely need to unearth these high-fashion modeling pictures immediately."

Willy smiled softly, knowing their digital efforts would result in absolute failure. Tim had already unrolled the reality that he shifted his identities across borders like a ghost; he held zero clue what pseudonym his husband had utilized during his modeling years.

Willy leaned against the counter. "Save your energy, Ethan, you won't find a single file. Tim utilized an entirely different legal identity during his years abroad, and my mind holds zero clue what name was stamped on those modeling contracts."

Ethan scoffed, his fingers flying across his screen. "If we execute a reverse image search utilizing his current facial features instead of text coordinates, the global engines should pull up identical matches across the fashion databases."

For the next ten minutes, Ethan and Seb tried every single digital tracking method available on their phones, but the search results remained completely blank. It was as if the model had been entirely erased from the digital universe.

Seb groaned, rubbing his eyes in frustration. "Man, our brains are acting entirely stupid right now. Wouldn't it be a hundred times easier to isolate his tracking files if we simply review the following list on Nora's public account?"

Isolating Nora's digital profile was exceptionally easy due to her high-standing connections, but tracking down a trace of Tim inside her circle proved to be an absolute nightmare. They systematically reviewed her entire digital network, but the list was entirely populated by high-profile global celebrities, foreign university classmates, and elite associates. There wasn't a single profile that resembled Tim's current life.

Ethan sighed heavily, tossing his phone onto the table. "This is completely impossible. Not a single one of these accounts belongs to Tim. I'm going to run through the entire directory a secondary time."

Willy placed a hand over the screen, offering a gentle smile. "I don't think our eyes will ever unearth the files, Ethan. We've scanned every single digital footprint, and none of them hold a visual match to Tim's frame. It's highly probable that he is shielding his digital identity from Nora's public account too."

Seb frowned. "If Nora is his childhood friend, how on earth is he managing to hide a digital profile from her sight?"

Ethan let out a tired breath, thoroughly defeated by the mystery. They were simply wasting precious time because their methods were entirely powerless against Tim's security blocks. "Fine, I give up. The second his boots step back through those double doors, I am going to directly demand answers from his mouth."

It was the absolute best solution on the table, but Willy knew exceptionally well that Tim wouldn't have violently silenced Nora's mouth if his heart desired to share that modeling chapter with the world.

A moment later, the heavy doors clicked open, and Tim walked back into the range alone. Nora was nowhere to be seen. The playful, warm expression he had held minutes ago had completely vanished; his handsome features looked entirely strained, his jaw clenched tight with an intense, burning anger. Something horrific had clearly transpired during that private hallway conversation.

Tim walked directly over to Willy, ignoring the curious stares of the group. His voice was a low, urgent murmur. "Willy, you need to pack your things and make the drive back to the apartment without my presence. An urgent crisis has surfaced, and my hands must deploy immediately. I might not be able to return to our home for the next few days."

Willy's chest tightened with a sudden, suffocating wave of anxiety. He reached out, his fingers hooking securely into the fabric of Tim's jacket. "This emergency is directly linked to your brother's murder case, isn't it? Tim... Do your feet truly have to step into this danger? I am so incredibly terrified for your safety right now."

Tim reached up, his warm palms cupping Willy's cheeks, looking down at him with a gaze full of fierce, unyielding devotion. "Your physical frame will never be secure if you stay pinned to my side through this storm, Willy. Right now, my mind gives zero damns about global wealth, empires, or revenge the only variable that matters to my universe is ensuring that your life remains entirely safe. I hold absolutely zero alternative options left; I must run away into the shadows to draw the threat away from your coordinates. Please, do not let your heart worry about my safety. I promise I will return to your side much sooner than your mind thinks, because my entire being is completely incapable of surviving away from your embrace."

Tears spilled over Willy's lashes as he leaned up, pressing his lips against Tim's in a deep, desperate kiss, before wrapping his arms around his broad shoulders in a bruising hug.

Willy whispered against his ear, "Please... be exceptionally careful out there, and come back to my arms soon."

Tim squeezed him back one final time before breaking the embrace and vanishing through the exit doors, stepping directly into the gathering storm.

Tim's Final Thoughts

In the past chapters of my life, whenever the variables forced my hands to either stand and fight or flee across international borders, my chest never once harbored a single shred of fear or nervousness. I navigated the danger with total calm, precisely because my existence held absolutely nothing left to lose. But tonight, as I step into the dark, my entire mind is paralyzed with a terrifying, suffocating fear... because now, the only thing I am terrified of losing is you.

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