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Chapter 36 - Chapter 36: My entire heart burns, I'm afraid that only black ashes will remain

The individual who consistently lets you know his exact coordinates and checks on your well-being suddenly drops offline and vanishes into thin air. This is completely and utterly uncharacteristic of his protective behavior.

When the person your heart loves more than life itself stops answering your text messages and urgent calls, your mind initially attempts to rationalize the silence. You tell yourself that he is simply caught up in an intense corporate project, and that his hands will hit the screen the second he finds a spare microsecond. But as the empty hours tick by, a dark shadow creeps into your thoughts; you begin to suspect that an emergency has transpired, rendering him physically unable to respond. That is precisely the hour when frantic worry takes root in your chest. Your heart begins to beat at a terrifying pace, yet you desperately attempt to convince your brain that it is merely a product of your overactive imagination.

When a full day slips away without a single line of contact, anxiety briefly morphs into defensive anger your hands drop the phone, and your pride vows to stop dialing his number entirely. However, the entire emotional landscape shifts completely after multiple days pass in absolute, dead silence. The anger completely dissolves, replaced by a suffocating certainty that something catastrophic has happened to him. Your chest tightens, you feel like you are desperately gasping for air, and your feet begin to pace back and forth across the floor in a restless, frantic rhythm. It is at this exact breaking point that you realize you can no longer sit in silence and overanalyze the variables. You must execute a rescue plan, yet your brain is so thoroughly consumed by his image that you are completely incapable of thinking clearly. Desperate for a lifeline, you reach out to the only circle capable of stepping up and offering actual assistance in a crisis.

Willy stared at his dark phone screen, his hands trembling slightly as he opened his group chat and transmitted an urgent message to his closest friends.

Willy:"Guys, I am entirely convinced that something terrible has happened. Tim isn't answering a single call or text message. I hold absolutely zero clue what move to execute next. He looked me in the eyes and promised he would return to my arms swiftly, but he hasn't initiated a single line of contact since vanishing into the storm."

The response from Seb was instantaneous.

Seb:"I just got off the phone with Ethan, and his tracks are completely empty too he holds zero knowledge regarding Tim's location. Are you currently at the apartment, Willy? Hang tight, our circle is heading to your coordinates right this second."

Willy:"Yes, I am staying right by the door. I haven't stepped foot outside the apartment all day. I've just been sitting here waiting for his boots to hit the porch. It's been multiple days now."

Al:"Have your hands reached out to his old childhood associates to ask where his path might have led? Try to ping their lines, and we will step through your front door in a matter of minutes."

Willy stared blankly at the chat. The painful reality was that he barely knew any of Tim's overseas connections, let alone how to track their private communications. He held absolutely zero access to their phone numbers. Shifting his strategy, he realized there was only one person from Tim's past whose line he could actually reach, so he quickly opened a direct thread to Nora.

Willy:"Hello, Nora. I am deeply sorry to disturb you, but does your mind hold a single shred of knowledge regarding Tim's current whereabouts? He has been completely missing from the campus grid for days, and I am entirely unable to establish contact with his phone."

While his eyes watched the screen, anxiously waiting for Nora's tracking text, the apartment door clicked open, and his friends rushed into the living room to shield him from his isolation.

Seb immediately stepped into the space, scanning Willy's exhausted face. "Did your phone manage to unearth a single solid detail yet, man?"

Willy shook his head miserably, gripping his phone tight. "I transmitted an urgent query to Nora's line, but her screen hasn't responded to my message yet."

A split second later, a loud notification chime echoed through the quiet room. Willy's fingers flew across the glass; it was Nora.

Nora:"Hi, Willy. Honestly, my own screen has been completely dark regarding Tim's tracks too, which prompted me to call my father's office directly. He informed me that his own teams haven't seen a glimpse of Tim in days. Remember how we all exited the university campus together? Tim was technically scheduled to meet my father immediately after that corridor conversation, but my dad confirms Tim never actually arrived at the meeting coordinates. My father's security channels are actively deploying right now to map his location. The second my hands receive a single tracking update, I promise to transmit it straight to your screen."

Willy:"Thank you so much for executing that search, Nora. If my hands unearth a single lead on this side of the city, I will notify your line instantly."

Reading her text allowed a tiny fracture of the suffocating weight in Willy's chest to lift. He felt marginally calmer knowing that an elite corporate network was actively hunting for his husband's location.

Willy looked up at his friends, his voice steadying slightly. "Nora passed the emergency update to her father, and their family security teams are actively executing a search grid to locate Tim right now."

Al stepped forward, offering a warm, reassuring smile. "See? Can your chest breathe a little easier now, Willy? Everything is going to turn out completely fine. Our circle is going to unearth his location very soon."

Ethan nodded firmly, sitting on the arm of the couch. "Al is entirely right, man. Hold onto your confidence. Tim is incredibly resourceful; he will surface before you know it."

While the group remained gathered around the coffee table, anxiously waiting for a secondary ping from Nora's line, the screech of tires suddenly echoed from the pavement directly outside the apartment complex. The entire circle moved toward the grand bay windows, peering down at the driveway. Willy's heart leapt into his throat, a desperate prayer flashing through his mind that Tim's car had finally returned to the garage. Instead, his eyes tracked Miles and Logan stepping out of a sleek sedan, their expressions grim as they hurried up the front steps.

Logan pushed the apartment door open, his eyes immediately searching out his brother. "How are you holding up, Willy? Have your channels managed to discover a single solid lead regarding his location?"

Willy rubbed his tired temples. "I established a connection with Tim's childhood friend, and their family's security grid is actively tracking his coordinates as we speak."

Miles crossed his arms, letting out a cynical, dry scoff. "Honestly, it requires absolutely zero genius to deduce exactly where a guy like that has drifted off to."

Willy turned his face away, completely lacking the emotional energy required to engage in a bitter argument with Miles tonight. His mind was far too exhausted, and the only currency his heart valued right now was a single, true update regarding his husband's safety.

Ethan narrowed his eyes at Miles, his defensive instincts flaring. "Oh, really, Miles? If your mind holds such an easy answer, then why don't you enlighten the room and tell us exactly where he is hiding?!"

Miles pulled a sleek phone from his designer jacket, tapping the screen aggressively before turning the glass around to thrust it directly in front of Willy's face. "Do your eyes recognize this individual? According to our firm's street logs, this kid is consistently pinned right to your boyfriend's side."

The exact microsecond Willy's eyes locked onto the digital image, the entire universe seemed to grind to a violent, freezing halt. He could feel his own heartbeat completely stop inside his chest. The screen displayed a handsome, striking young guy standing exceptionally close to Tim in a private courtyard. Willy had never once seen this individual in his life, and his mind held absolutely zero clue regarding his identity.

Willy swallowed the lump in his throat, keeping his voice flat. "I don't know who that is... but it is highly probable that he is simply one of Tim's overseas friends."

Miles let out a sharp, mocking chuckle. "An overseas friend? The surveillance logs show this kid is consistently shadowing his every single step, Willy. And your naive mind honestly believes he is just a casual associate?"

Ethan slammed his clipboard down on the table, stepping directly into Miles's personal space. "What on earth are you trying to imply by that malicious comment, Miles?! Back during our neighborhood years, Tim and I were practically glued at the hip every single day, yet we were absolutely never romantic lovers. Why does your mind constantly execute these petty strategies to spark a fight between Willy and Tim?!"

Miles threw his hands up in frustration. "Oh, so I am the villain of this chapter once again? Let's look at the facts Tim is consistently guarding a dark labyrinth of secrets and completely refuses to offer this family a single shred of unvarnished truth! That is precisely why this chaotic mess keeps transpirating. If his mouth had simply chosen to share his operational steps just one time, my brother wouldn't be sitting here tearing his hair out, and our feet wouldn't be forced to waste an evening hover-watching this apartment!"

Willy's hands clenched into tight fists, his emotional dam finally breaking. He was utterly sick and tired of the constant hostility. Every single time his family and friends converged into the same room, the atmosphere dissolved into a toxic war zone. Instead of pooling their collective intellect to help him unearth his missing husband, they were actively choosing to tear each other apart over petty theories.

Willy stood up, his voice cracking with pure exhaustion. "If your intentions are simply to stand in my living room and fight, you can all take your boots and leave this apartment right now."

The sharp command cut through the room like a blade. Not a single person dared to utter another syllable; the group quietly drifted into their respective seats, a suffocating, heavy silence settling over the space. The agonizing quiet endured for several long minutes, until the sharp, high-pitched chime of a text notification shattered the tension. Willy scrambled for his device; it was a direct line from Nora.

Nora:"Willy, are you currently alone inside the apartment?"

Willy:"No, my close friends and my brothers are currently occupying the living room. Nora, please tell me what is going on. Did your father unearth something catastrophic? Has something bad happened to Tim?"

Willy stared at the typing bubbles, his knuckles turning white.

Nora:"Willy, please breathe and do not let your mind spiral into panic, because our security teams haven't verified a permanent conclusion yet. The tracking logs show that yesterday afternoon, Tim was physically located inside the central police headquarters. According to the gate logs, he exited the facility shortly afterward accompanied by a specific individual. Our channels have lost his physical trail since yesterday's departure, but my father is executing every single asset to determine exactly where that vehicle traveled."

The second his eyes processed the text, a chaotic avalanche of terrifying queries began to rip through Willy's mind.

He was inside the police headquarters? For what possible reason? If his boots legally exited that facility yesterday afternoon, why on earth didn't his hands dial my number? Who is this specific individual he vanished with? Tim knows exceptionally well how desperately my heart worries about his safety... so why didn't he transmit a single microsecond of text? Why didn't his mouth simply assure me that he was alive, safe, and completely out of the line of fire?

Another ping disrupted his spiral.

Nora:"Willy? Are you doing okay over there? Why did your screen stop responding to my line?"

Forcing his mind out of the dark maze, Willy frantically tapped a response, desperate to project a calm facade to the room.

Willy:"I am completely fine, Nora. My brain was simply processing the variables of what could have transpired. Please do not worry about my well-being. I am truly, perfectly fine."

He typed the words assuring her he was fine, but it was an absolute, glaring lie. At this exact second, his entire heart was burning with a fierce, agonizing fire. He trusted Tim with every fiber of his being; his logical mind knew there was absolutely zero rational basis for petty jealousy, yet he was completely powerless to shake the suffocating thoughts clawing at his chest. Tim was completely ignoring his frantic calls and text messages, yet he was actively spending his hours wrapped up with a mysterious individual. Tim consistently refused to share the heavy chapters regarding his brother's murder, yet there was a shadowy figure standing right by his side who apparently held total access to every single detail of Tim's life. That unknown person knew Tim was entering the police grid, while Willy was forced to receive the scraps of information second-hand from an associate.

Ethan leaned forward, his sharp eyes scanning Willy's pale features. "What is the update, Willy? You look exceptionally unwell, man."

Willy swallowed hard, his mind racing. He completely refused to reveal to the room that his husband had been detained inside a police facility, nor could his pride confess the agonizing reality that Tim was currently traveling with an unidentified male companion. First and foremost, his priority was securing absolute verification that Tim was alive and unharmed; nothing else in the universe mattered compared to that fact. Nor did it matter that his own chest was currently an absolute war zone of burning jealousy and blinding anger directed at his husband. If his mouth allowed those raw emotions to spill into the living room text right now, it would ignite a family fire that would be entirely impossible to extinguish later. Resolving to guard the secret, he chose to unroll only a microscopic fraction of the truth.

Willy cleared his throat, keeping his voice detached. "Nora's security teams haven't established a physical visual since yesterday afternoon, but her father explicitly commanded me to remain calm. They are deploying every single available asset to map his location."

Logan offered a warm, encouraging nod from the armchair. "They will unearth his trail very soon, Willy. Just look at how much ground their data has already cleared in a few hours. Just hold onto your patience for a little while longer, and your eyes will see exactly where he is hiding."

Ethan reached over, squeezing his shoulder. "Trust my words, man. Tim is going to sprint back to this apartment the absolute second his hands clear the operational danger, precisely because he looked you in the eyes and promised your heart he would return."

For the remainder of the evening, Ethan and Logan remained anchored by Willy's side, systematically offering comforting words to keep his mind from fracturing.

This marked the absolute first chapter since their wedding day that the married couple had spent multiple suns completely separated from each other's touch. Cocooned in the agonizing distance, Willy realized with terrifying clarity the absolute, consuming depth of his love for Tim. Please, whatever entities are watching over the dark, bring him back to my arms completely unharmed, he prayed silently, his eyes staring blankly at the ceiling. I miss his presence so intensely it hurts. I swear to the heavens I will never allow his boots to wander into the dark alone ever again. His entire heart was burning with a savage heat, and his mind realized that if this agonizing isolation endured for another day, the fire would leave absolutely nothing behind but a pile of black ashes. No... I am completely incapable of remaining locked inside this quiet apartment for another second, he resolved, a sudden wave of frantic energy slamming into his limbs. I have to step outside these walls. Sitting here makes me feel like an absolute coward who is executing zero actual moves to rescue his husband, simply lounging on a couch waiting for a ghost to wander home.

Without a word of warning, Willy suddenly stood up from the couch, his expression turning fierce as he sprinted toward the front door, intent on launching his own reckless search. However, the exact second his hand gripped the brass handle, Seb and Al lunged forward, physically blocking his exit frame.

Al gripped his arms firmly. "Willy, stop! Where on earth do you think your feet are going right now?!"

Seb stood flat against the door, his eyes wide. "Man, think logically for one second! Your brain doesn't even hold a single set of coordinates to begin looking for his trail!"

Willy's chest heaved, hot tears finally spilling over his lashes as a raw, hysterical sob tore from his throat. "If my physical body stays trapped inside these walls for another microsecond, I am going to completely and utterly lose my mind! I am completely incapable of enduring this agony for another day! It has been far too many suns, guys! Tim and I have absolutely never been separated for a stretch this long since the day we met! I miss his existence so brutally it is tearing my chest apart! I miss the simple taste of the morning food his hands would expertly construct for our table... I miss the basic reality of his tall frame consistently anchoring my left side. He always possessed this beautiful, instinctive knack for understanding exactly what my mind needed before I could even formulate the words. His protective hugs, the intoxicating scent of his cologne, the brilliant flash of his genuine smile... I miss every single microscopic detail of his being! Before he left, I could drift into a deep, peaceful sleep the second my head hit the mattress, but ever since his presence left my side, my entire body is completely restless. I am forced to lay awake staring into the dark until the morning light breaks! I hold absolutely zero clue what move to execute... I feel like an absolute madman! Ever since his boots stepped out that door, my entire life has felt completely hollow, stripped of all color. I don't even find a shred of joy in opening my eyes to face the morning sun anymore. It is only during this agonizing silence that my mind has truly calculated just how profoundly precious Tim is to my existence. My life holds absolutely zero value or meaning without his heartbeat anchoring mine. I am completely, utterly obsessed with him! I've even caught my thoughts plotting that the exact second his frame steps back through that door, I am going to lock the exits and completely refuse to let his feet wander into the outside world ever again! I know exceptionally well that these dark, possessive thoughts are absolutely not normal! He has driven my mind into total madness! My heart is completely incapable of holding the weight of this fire anymore... I am telling you, it is right on the verge of burning entirely to the ground! That is precisely why my boots must exit this apartment right now! Every single square inch of this furniture, every single scent in the kitchen reminds my brain of his touch! I am completely powerless to sit here and overanalyze his ghost for another second... I have to leave! I hold zero coordinates regarding where my path will lead, but my mind knows with absolute certainty that I must escape this room right this second!"

The raw, devastating confession left the entire living room completely paralyzed. The sheer magnitude of Willy's suffering was so profound that not a single friend or brother possessed the words to counter his pain. They realized with absolute clarity that no matter what logical arguments their mouths offered, they were completely powerless to stop his flight.

Willy wiped his tears aggressively, his hand gripping the brass lock. He turned the handle, violently swinging the apartment door open, intent on sprinting down the corridor only to freeze entirely in his tracks.

Standing right there on the welcome mat, his hand raised as if he had been right on the verge of knocking, was Tim.

Willy's voice died in his throat, a breathless gasp escaping his lips. "Tim...."

But the frantic joy that flared in Willy's eyes survived for a mere fraction of a second. Shifting his gaze slightly to the right, his eyes locked onto the tall, striking young guy standing exceptionally close behind his husband's shoulder. It was the exact same individual from the surveillance photograph Miles had displayed on his screen minutes ago.

Looking at the stranger anchoring his husband's side, the remaining walls of Willy's world finally gave way, and his entire heart burned completely to the ground, leaving nothing behind but cold, black ashes.

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