"Memories supposedly are eternal but unfortunately even they too can erode with the sands of time dying slowly as they are forgotten. But... what if you could stay yourself even without such memories? Are you truly you? Or does fate dictate your life?
Do the fleeting moments of mortality actually mean anything? Well they technically don't but that's fine you have to make your purpose or I guess a better way of saying that would be "find your calling" but tomato potato. Are you positive? Today's the day? I see... I never thought I'd die like this to cancer.
What do you mean? I knew I'd die eventually, maybe not this fast but that is why I wanted to finish that custom Acheron bio rather fast. Why does it matter? What's the point you ask? Honestly I couldn't say as there are so many other things I could have been doing besides doodling god awful art and writing fanfics.
Thought that's what gave me purpose even if nobody actually liked them. Anyway doc how much longer do I got? A singular day? Damn. What's my memory like? Honestly it's quite selective in what I can remember but in a general sense everything is super vague.
The sad part is I don't really remember any personal connections just echoes? No it's more akin to a shattered glass bowl put back together with the Kintsugi technique some of it is simply gone others are simply lost pieces of a bigger incomplete puzzle.
I would kill to remember my own mother and father i bet they've even visited me but I simply didn't know I could even have siblings i don't know of that stopped by and the thought of being incapable of remembering them to the point they are strangers to me kinda hurts. If I saw them again what would I say?
Honestly if they were brought in here and was specifically told this person was this to me. Well I'd honestly apologize for any kind of even slight inconvenience I may have done as it's not fair that I don't acknowledge that stuff even if i don't remember what I've done. Speaking of that I wasn't a bad person was I doc?
Oh thank god! That's a relief... but you didn't just say that to make me feel better did you? No? Alright I'll belive you but can I ask why so,e of the nurses look at me with hate? Or maybe it was pity? Yeah pity! Was I the victim of something tragic? That really happened to me? Damn I can see why I can't remember.
That's not the reason? Could've fooled me. But if that's what happened did my parents actually visit me? They did? Do I have any siblings or did I have a significant other? I had both? Two older sisters a wife and twin daughters? They're ok right? Do my daughters visit me sometimes? Yes?
I guess that's all I can really be happy about it just wish I could've seen them grow or remember what they look like. Hey could you pass on a note to them? They're here? I see... did I refuse them in the past or was I simply unresponsive? I see so I was a vegetable then.
Well you can let any family that wants to see me in they probably won't have another chance. So you two are my daughters? This is for me? I don't remember honestly but that's ok because it seems I loved you both so much that even though I forgot mostly everything I still could tell your my little stars.
Huh don't cry! Everything will be ok. Shhhhh there there. So you are my wife? I see. Must be strange isn't it? I was told I can't remember due to a head injury I received saving you is that true? It is? I wasn't mean to you was I? No? That's a relief but nonetheless I'm sorry. Don't apologize? But... alright fine I won't.
Thanks for bringing my daughters to see me despite the resentment you feel towards me. How'd I know? Gut feeling honestly. So what is it i did I know... oh damn so I deserve this? That's fair if what you said is true. May I ask one last thing? Yes? Am I better like this? What do I mean?
Well if me or my old self were sitting here as two separate people who'd you have rather been in a relationship with? My new self? So the only good thing I did was saving you near the breaking point of our marriage? Damn I must've been hard to deal with me. My current self was my original personality?
What happened to me to change so much? Ah so my dad died and I became bitter in the grief? I'm sorry I treated you like that. I can feel the care I had for you. Odd is an understatement as I feel the associated emotions but the memories themselves elude me.
Alright last thing. Please even if you do find someone else, don't abandon our daughters. In some of the books I've read children are often blamed for circumstances out of their control and it doesn't sit well to just let my daughters go through that same pain.
Alright I'll stop keeping you here and end this. So one final thing, I know I don't have to say sorry... but I am truly sorry I'm leaving you all alone that I can't be there for my daughters I'm really sorry. I wish you the best. Alright bye. Oh hey doc you think I can play Honkai: Star Rail?
Well I still have some stellar jade left and I wanna get Acheron before I die. Thanks doc I appreciate it. Oh doc is it already time to put it up? Why am I so bummed? While I did get Acheron unfortunately she doesn't seem to be meta anymore. I kinda relate to her you know.
If I could become her with that original powerset I made and gain the capability to make new memories I'd do it in a heartbeat. Why? I mean with my limited knowledge i think it'd be awesome to travel dimensions making new friends ect and not being bound to a hospital bed.
Now that you mentioned it I am getting quite tired so goodnight doc. Would i go to HSR? Why ask that now when I'm so tired? Alright fine I'll tell you. Probably not because my version of Acheron is a high human instead of Self-Annihilator plus two different Acheron's would be absolutely confusing.
Also if i became my version i wouldn't want to you know continuously forget everything eventually leading to me becoming like Septimus Signus from Skyrim because at bare minimum i wanna keep any new memories i make. Is that sufficient? Sorry that was a tad rude I'm just hella tired. Alright bye doc see you tomorrow."
Then he closed his eyes not knowing he would die peacefully in his sleep nor did he know he'd wake up the next morning getting exactly what he wished for.