(Vaelor's POV)
[Some Months Later]
"Vaelor." I heard Aemon call out for me as I was lying on my bed, "You have to leave the bed."
I glanced at him, seeing that he was walking towards my bed. I didn't know what hour it was but I can assume it was past midday already since the light shinning through the window was quite bright.
"I do not wish to do so." I said seriously, "Leave me be, brother."
He stood on the edge of my bed, "No." He said seriously, "It has been months, brother. You cannot keep this up."
"Shut up." I said as I rolled to my side, facing away from him, "Leave me be. Unless the King or The Queen calls for me, I do not wish to be bothered."
"Well, I'm not the King and I'm obviously not the Queen." Aemon told me
"Exactly." I said
"But I'm your brother." He said firmly, "And as your brother, I am telling you to get up from bed. You barely eat, you don't go out, you don't ride your dragon any more. Vaelor, this has to stop."
I didn't respond, simply kept quiet.
For the past few months, all I did was dwell in the consequences of my failures. Ever since Lady Ellyn was murdered, there was a huge pit in my stomach, an empty void. I didn't know why I had these feelings of regret and sorrow. I didn't think I was in love with her or anything, so I did wonder why I felt this way.
I didn't dislike Lady Ellyn, I actually liked her. I think she was very kind and everything...but I didn't feel romantic love for her.
So why?
Why did I feel so sad when she died.
I know why. I don't know why I am asking myself that.
I failed her. I said I would keep her safe.
The thought of her being scared in the last seconds of her life.....hoping that I would protect her in those moments...every time I think about it, it kills me inside. I never meant for her to suffer that way, I didn't want her to die at all.
It was all of my fault. I should have stopped it before it even happened. If only I had been more fierce.....if only I had-
"Get your ass out of the bed!!!!" I heard Alyssa's voice as her hands clutched my shirt from behind
"What?!" I said as I felt her dragging me off, "Sister!!"
She tossed me onto the floor hard, causing me to roll as I groaned in pain.
"Alyssa, what in the hells do you think you're doing?" Aemon said
I looked up to see Alyssa glaring at me with her arms crossed, "What the hell?!" I said as I scowled, "Why did you do that?!"
"I have had it with you!!" She shouted
"How did you get in here so fast?" I muttered as I sat up
"I can be sneaky." She said as she kicked my leg, "Get up!"
"Don't hit me!" I shouted, "You may be Baelon's wife, but you were my sister first! I can hit back!"
She kicked me again, "Try me, you little shit." She said before reaching down and pulled on my hair, "I'll strangle you."
"Dammit." Aemon sighed, "Where is Baelon? He needs to control his woman...."
"You want some of this????" Alyssa glared at him, "This little shit needs compose himself!! He's a Prince! He's not some lame vagrant who can mope around all day!"
"Leave me be, dammit!" I shouted, "I don't want to be bothered!"
Alyssa slapped my cheek, "Dammit, Vaelor!" She shouted, "None of this will help you!"
She was clutching my shirt as she crouched down to my level, her eyes were beginning to be filled with tears as she scowled.
"What..." I said
"Sulking won't help you get over your guilt...." She said, "It's not your fault.....dammit, Vaelor, you're just a boy...why must you let the death of her kill you slowly like this? I don't want to see my bright little brother be a prick who sulks all day.....that's.....that's Vaegon's job...."
"She's right, Vaelor." Aemon said, "You need to mov-...hm.....It may be insensitive to say this....but you have to move past what happened. I know she was your betrothed and her unjust death was already avenged....by you. For your sake.....you have to get past it, brother."
I looked to the side, "You don't understand...." I said, "I made a promise...."
Alyssa hugged me, "oh, my sweet little brother...." She said softly, "I know....I understand....."
"What happened to the violent mood of yours...?" I muttered
"Shut up." She said as she hugged me tighter, "I'll beat you."
"Let's go, Vaelor." Aemon told me as he walked out to the room, "I'll fly with you, to take your mind off things. You need this, brother."
As he left, Alyssa pulled back and wiped some tears away.
"Sister...." I said, "Why must you cry like this? You're making this worse."
"Shut up." She smiled and patted my cheek, "Vaelor.....I need you to go on your dragon and fly....Shrykos has become restless..."
I sighed, "I suppose I could do that." I said as I looked down, "He doesn't deserve to be neglected."
"And...." She started, "Can you do me a favor?"
I raised an eyebrow, "What is it?"
"Take Daella." She said with smile
"Oh." I said, "Daella?"
"Poor girl." She said with a sigh, "She missed flying on Shrykos..."
"Well, she can always try claiming-" I started
"She wants to ride with you." She cut me off, "Do your big sister this favor. Please....?"
"I don't see why this would be a favor for you..." I frowned, "But I suppose if you want me to do that....I'll do it. Only if you don't pull me off my bed again. Mood swings are quite something."
She kissed my cheek and then pulled my ear, "Watch it, brat." She said with a chuckle, "I'll hurt you. Are you going to do it or not?"
"Ow, ow...." I said, "Fine, fine! I just said I would!"
"I'll take Daella flying...."