Then I finally got my dress that I'll wear on today's dinner as today is my first dinner party in this industry. I have to look good but these all things are secondary for me cause the primary thing for me is that this is my first official dinner party with Yuan and he'll be there with me all the time. What could be else more exciting than this for me having him standing besides me.
Then I opened my weibo account just to see some of the looks and makeup that I can do on myself, some trendy ones on my weibo feed but here I got stuck by him again. The moment I opened my weibo I saw one of his old video, not too old just few months ago. In this video him brushing his teeth but how could someone look soo adorable while brushing their teeth. I think no one could, only my Yuan has this talent, only he can do this.
Then I smiled a little while watching it and then I saved that video. Now I can easily watch it later and learn to brush my teeth from him I said it to myself while foolishly smiling after seeing that video of him.
Then suddenly I saw few more videos of him posted by his fan pages where he is in the variety show. Seeing him laughing like a mad is literally a treat to my eyes. Here they are playing some game and as always my Yuan steals the variety show with his personality and humour and everyone laughing out loud over there.
And then I saw another video of him from another variety show where he is playing some kind of role of a mathematics teacher wearing those glasses on his eyes making me feel that if he was my professor in my course then I'll definitely didn't miss any of his classes. Wait but why he is wearing that plaster in his hand did he hurt his hand I asked this myself. Noo this is not possible I have just met him if something was like that happened to him then I have definitely able to see it and the shooting of this variety show is few days old. Yes it's may be his character in that or a part of his character that he is playing there not some real one I said it to myself.
Then I scroll down my weibo account and saw another video of him where every fan of his making the videos of his almost all the departures and arrivals from Shanghai to any other city and soo on.
And I am really feel very glad after seeing how his all the fans truly respect him and loves him infinity. It's their love only that makes him do more and more hardwork because he always wants to deliver his best performance to his fans and my Yuan never disappoints any of his fans and I am saying it who is one among of his fans.
He always cares about his fans no matter how much he was tired he always waves his hands and greet his fans very politely and always have concern for their safety that sometimes he is asking them to not to come and see him in the late night in winters as they might get caught a cold.
And his this behaviour and many more things that if I write a book or a novel on it then definitely my this life won't be enough to describe how good he is how my Xu Yuan is. I must need more lives many more to write him and if one day if I ever try to write something on it then definitely that whole book or anything will be just a glimpse of my feelings that I have felt for him cause my whole heartedly true feelings for him and how I see him in a way that book definitely runs out of pages if I start writing him.
I think all these thoughts in my heart and smiling like an idiot while seeing all those videos on weibo then while watching them again and again as watching my Yuan will never be enough for me no matter how much longer I watch him.
My eyes went slightly upward on my phone screen where notification bar and notifications displays and I saw the time and it's become seven pm and I got shocked. My eyes went wide like my eye balls comes out of my eyes.
Wait it 7 pm in the evening ooo god how could you Zhao Shiza how could you. Only I can do this masterpiece work with myself only I won't expect anyone else doing such a stupidity. How could I get late on the first dinner party of my life how could I.
Then I started getting panic but whenever panicking hits me I closed my eyes and places my right hand on right side just on my heart and slowly calmly an image appears infront of my eyes the image of him him saying me that relax Shiza I am with you you don't need to worry about anything just calm down I am here only nothing wrong gonna happen to you I'll protect you from anything and everything you just need to breath in and then breath out slowly and calmly.
And then my panicking got stopped immediately after this my heart founded it's ease already and I slowly opens my eyes my breathing is even now and yes again he saves me.
It's always happens with me whenever I feel restless he came into my imaginary image and conquer my all the restlessness and fills the darkness of my life with his bright light and his smile the most appealing one for me works as a medicine for me.
No matter how bigger my fear is he always holds that power on me to control me to make me feel secure when even he is far away from me.
I really don't know that this imagination of mine about him is a right thing or not may be it's just my imagination power that makes me think like that but whatever it is my heart feels good while having that imagination illusion that I have created.
Then a knock appears on the door breaking my all the self thoughts and I opened the door immediately and the moment I opened the door Wang Ruoxi enters the room very fastly just seems like she is having flight to catch.
Why are you entered the room so fastly did I going to lock it after few minutes I asked her while standing there and folding my arms cross.
Then she turned towards me while taking out her make up pouch from her wardrobe and said cause I have to ready a girl who rushed up everything in last minute.
You don't need to Wang Ruoxi you just go and enjoy the farewell you were soo much excited for that why did you came here I said it to her.
For you she replied.
You don't need to do this for me Wang Ruoxi why you spoiling your farewell just to do a makeup for me I'll do it by myself you don't need to worry about that I have watched some of new trendy makeup looks on weibo just now I'll do that I said it to her.
Then she came near me and holds my both the shoulders with her both the hands and then takes me to sit on the bed then after that she has started applying the makeup products on me and I asked her what are you doing Wang Ruoxi.
She exhales sharply and said can't you see it and she continues to applying products on my face.
Ofcourse I am that's why I am asking you I said it.
Then she pause and said while looking at me that first thing you don't know the farewell party has already ended it didn't last this much longer and the second thing first stop treating yourself that you are someone least to be important why you always thinks that no one needs to take care of you and why do you always thinks that everything you can do it on your own I know you will but sometimes taking help and being someone's important really feels you good.
Wang Ruoxi I about to say something but she continues to say her as she said first you need to think that you are also important for someone then only that other person thinks about you otherwise your forgiving nature and this carefreeness about everything that you can manage on your own will really lead you somewhere where can't even has the option to whether to face it or just turned a back on it.
Why are you giving me this lecture now I asked her.
She started continuing the makeup on me said just I feel it today.
Then I didn't ask her further more as today Wang Ruoxi really seems something different she is not the one who teases me today she is the one who has fear in her but what fear and why that fear just came in I don't know anything about it but I didn't push her further.
I just silently sat over there and waiting for my makeup to be done then after a thirty minutes she has done my makeup and hair both and then I went to change myself into the golden gown that I'll gonna wear today's dinner party.
And the moment I came out of the restroom after changing into that gown I asked Wang Ruoxi while looking at myself in the mirror that why didn't you make a bun on my hair do why did you open it I have seen it on videos many actresses are doing bun only on these kind of dresses.
Then she smiled a little and said because that bun hair do suits them and you look best in open hair so I just did few soft curls and open it fully as it shows the true side of you the simplicity that you always carrying in yourself.
And you don't need to follow something that actresses do it suits them that doesn't mean that it will suits you as well they do whatever suits them you'll do whatever suits you.
Look Zhao Shiza I don't know you really knows it or not but you are an extraordinary girl you don't need to be some ordinary one by following the trend.
But I am going to say something but she stopped me and said but you didn't need to copy anyone the trained eyes will definitely catch the true beauty of you in their eyes.
And who has that type of trained eyes I asked her.
She smiles and adjust the fitting of my gown and while handing over me the purse she said what you wanna hear your Yuan's eyes is this what you wanna hear.
Ofcourse who else could have that much of trained eyes which catches my beauty.
She laughs a little and said stupid girl in his love now go otherwise you'll get late on your first dinner party.
Yes you are right it's about going to be 8 pm I am too late I said it to her while watching the time on my phone's screen.
Relax I have already booked a cab for you and it's waiting for you outside the gate of the our dormitory Wang Ruoxi said.
You are really an angel from cindrella story Wang Ruoxi who literally helped this cindrella to be able to meet his prince I said it in a dramatic tone of mine.
She smiles and said ofcourse now go otherwise your prince will send his guard to takes you from here.
Ooo yes ofcourse bye bye I said to her and went out from there.
And then the moment I went off from there Wang Ruoxi said to herself that I said you these things today because I don't know how much time we have left to spend it with each other as my parents are coming to take me with them to yihe city as they shifted there and they wants me to find job or do anything there only but I can't tell you this today as today is your big day and I really don't wanna spoil it and make you upset.
From now onwards I might be not able to be with you like I always do since our childhood.
A tear fall from Wang Ruoxi's eyes while saying this.
But thank god that they sent Yuan for you I'll pray that you both will stay always forever together like you said.
This farewell has really changed our lives look the farewell party has just ended and I got this news of us getting far from each other after soo many years but when you'll come back after the dinner party of yours I'll tell you about it and I'll spend all the leftover time of mine here with you like we always do enjoying together at night while watching some of the new C drama series.
Then where Wang Ruoxi is dealing with the new phase of her life that has just entered in her life and she is still processing everything meanwhile me who didn't have any idea about it.
And the only thing that going around in my mind is that where is Yuan he didn't even call me or messaged me he never do that whenever we have to go somewhere he always calls me and fills my whole we chat with the messages and even pick me he always came to pick me up but today he didn't do anything.
The picking up portion I understand that everyone will know about our relationship but why didn't he called or messaged me I asked myself.
And at that exact moment my cab stops infront of the venue of the dinner party.
Miss here your destination that driver said.
Then I immediately paid him through scanning through the we chat and stepped out of the cab.
The cab went from here and I am standing alone here as what I see is really worth seeing it.
I am standing just right infront of the most luxurious hotel of Shanghai which architecture and interiors are very famous throughout the world.
This is soo beautiful I said it then...