Then I saw everyone passing by me and entering that grand hotel. Everyone there are looking soo glamorous. I am just feeling soo much less infront of them. Should I go back and get ready myself again? Nooo noo Zhao Shiza what are you thinking about. You are just feeling it because it's my first dinner party but that's why I am feeling this much anxious it's nothing like that. I am not less than any of them here. I just feeling it because it's my first time attending this type of party.
Zhao Shiza just breathe in and breathe out just follow the theory of your Yuan.
I closed my eyes and placed my hand on my heart and said this to myself and kept on saying it for one minute then within a minute an air of relief run through my heart and my heart's anxiety has gone now and I opened my eyes.
No matter Yuan is around me or not but his only single thought of him in my mind just has the power to make me conquer any of my problems just like now but where he is why didn't I able to see him here I asked myself.
Zhao Shiza Yuan is right you are soo silly you didn't even enter the hotel and you have started searching for him he must inside with director Li.
Then I started walking towards the big grand entrance door of that hotel. I lost my balance a little as the heels I am wearing is slightly bigger than my usual sandal heels but thank god I didn't fall and able to manage my balance otherwise this gonna be huge embarrassment for me.
Then slowly by taking small steps I entered inside the hotel. The hotel has soo many bright lights inside in it all together my eyes went wide while watching it.
Then I looked at the right side of mine and I saw here many people many men and women talking to each other and laughing with each other. I really didn't know any of them but one question stuck into my mind while watching them are they really know on what thing they are laughing or they just acting here.
Then I looked at the left side of my view and saw some of the known people whom I know and there our set's crew members and other cast members gathered there they are also talking with each other holding a glass in their hands and again a question stuck into my mind and that is what's inside their glass.
It must be some alcoholic drink what else could be inside in it other than that I know in parties everyone have that only.
Then I looked straight infront where everyone is talking with each other laughing with each other. All men are dressed up in a formal suit where women are dressed up in some long shiny glitter gowns and a lot of lights is pouring on everyone's faces making the environment very flashy.
Then I looked down at myself at my dress is this also looking like one of them I asked it myself but no it's not as my gown is a bit simple and easy to wear and very comfortable just like my night pajama dress as I like to wear the comfortable clothes only.
Then I saw everyone here are soo much concerned about their future as I have overheard some of them talking with each other about on which show series they have to give their next auditions and where their studio are approaching them.
Studio I asked myself by repeating this word.
Oooo got it everyone is having their own studio and team where that particular studio send their artists to the auditions for the dramas that are going to be shooted but on what basis they decide that which character's audition will be given by whom I asked myself.
But why I am getting curious about it I didn't even have a studio infact no studios has let me in. I just came into this series from a university audition and today I am here because of that only and after this I'll get back to my normal life so no studios will be interested in me to make me their one of the artist member.
I have no future here my path is different from them I just dragged up myself here because of him just for meeting him.
And I smiled at my own self while thinking all this.
Then I suddenly remembered that soo much time has gone I didn't seen him yet then a voice came by calling my name Zhao Shiza.
And it's director Li's voice as he is calling me.
I looked here and there searching for him that from where he is calling my name as the hotel is soo big which makes it quite difficult for me to look around and search for anyone.
Then his voice came again saying here am here.
Then I saw on my right side and I found him director Li is waving his hands towards me then I went to him.
Director Li looks quite happy today usually his mood on set was always focused on the scene and the script but today he is looking relaxed very relaxed like he doesn't have any other thing to worry about.
On set he was always busy and stressed himself about the scenes and the shooting but today my eyes are literally witnessing a rare view him in a relaxed mood is thing to be seen today by everyone whoever worked with him.
Then director Li asked me by breaking my self thinking thoughts he said Zhao Shiza do you like the party.
I smiled and said yes ofcourse Mr Li it's really a nice one.
Then he said ooo am really glad that you have liked it look meet him he is the one of the member of a studio who wants to make you as theirs permanent artist see I think you should talk to him about it.
Permanent artist I repeated it myself.
Yes miss Zhao you have heard it right that person who is standing besides director Li who is the one of the member of the studio said that to me.
And then he continues and said we have seen your few scenes and glimpse of your screen presence which quite a nice one that Director Li has showed us.
But the series is not released yet even we didn't release any poster of it yet then how could you know that I have a capability and am worthy for becoming the permanent artist of your studio how could you believe such a new comer in this industry I asked him.
That person laughs a little and said miss Zhao we have experience years of experience in this field you are new here not us.
And yes you are right your series hasn't been released yet but director Li showed us some of the drama scenes of yours to us which is quite appealing to us so director Li has invited us here to talk to you about it.
Then director Li said to me that look Zhao Shiza you are such a great actress you have portrayed every scene with soo much sincerity and purity we all can feel the pain that you have portrayed in the drama.
I smiled and said thank you director Li for your kind words it's really a big thing for me hearing this from you but.
But what director Li asked me.
But I really don't wanna continue myself in this carrier I mean I'll wanna do what course I have studied and I'll follow that only my whole life I said it.
But just you have studied something that doesn't mean that you need to follow that thing your whole life.
Then he exhales slowly and said Zhao Shiza I have seen you you have a such great talent of it don't waste it.
I smiled and said am really glad hearing these compliments from you Mr Li I didn't even know that you appreciate my work like this but Mr Li it's a really great thing to working with you and I have learnt a lot from you the each and every word of you has really means a lot to me Mr Li but I really wanna follow my course only till now if in the future I'll change my mind I'll let you know definitely.
He smiles back at me and said sure Zhao Shiza it's your life you have the right to make choices I was just trying to help this new comer girl in the industry to get inside in it but I think this girl has already made up her mind and have different plans for her future isn't it.
I also smiles back and said ofcourse Mr Li but what if in future I wanna do any drama series.
He smiles and said then you already have my phone number just let me know it.
And then we all laugh together.
Today I have made a really great bond with Mr Li that I haven't even thought about that today we become friends it's quite a strange thing to digest that after completing the shooting of the drama we have become friends atleast this happened.
Then my mind got a question pop up again that where is he.
I thought he might be with the director Li but he hasn't here also where are you it's been almost one hour of me being here in the party I haven't seen him yet are you really coming here or not I asked myself.
Then I take out my phone from my bag and check if there is any call or any we chat from him but my notification bar is empty there is nothing.
Now it's too much I am not feeling good anymore please come soon and if you stuck in traffic atleast let me know but now it's enough I'll call him by myself.
But the moment I am about to dial his number on my dial pad I heard some of the crew members who are passing by me talking to each other and saying that yes Mr Xu is on first floor he went there to get touch up and get ready.
Then I got a sigh of relief and then without thinking even for a second I just went upward to the first floor from the stair.
Thank god he is not in much higher floor otherwise I have to take the lift for it.
Then I almost run on that stair with my heels.
Then finally I reached the first floor which is strangely very quiet.
Is he here I asked myself while standing in the quite lobby of it.
There are rooms many rooms every room is locked here except one.
He must be inside in it only after all he went for some touch up only.
Then I move forward to that room that room door is slightly half opened.
I am going to knock on it but before that what my eyes saw I couldn't even believe on it.
My heart stops beating it's just like someone is shattering my whole world into pieces.
What is that noo I can't able to believe on what I saw.
Is this noo it can't.
My voice wasn't able to come out of my throat.
I started breathing unevenly because my eyes saw something that it itself couldn't ready to believe and...