The weather in Shanghai changes suddenly. The sudden rain started here heavily. No one expected the rain at this time in this season here but still the weather of Shanghai today surprised everyone here witnessing it. The rain starts pouring its droplets to the whole Shanghai and it's definitely gonna ready to drench the whole Shanghai in it next morning.
Rain is my favourite therapy for me the peace for me. Whenever it rains I start feeling very happily. I feel very disappointed and have less faith in life but the rain always makes me believe that beautiful things can happen and yours may be one of it. Just don't lose hope. Even if it didn't then it just makes me feel happy like taking me somewhere where I love to live.
But today this rain feels nothing to me. The favourite weather of mine has become a blank for me. The therapy is not working on me anymore. For me at this time it really doesn't matter that the rain has started because I am not in my senses.
My eyes witnessed something that it couldn't even imagine to witness in this lifetime of mine but it did and it's not ready to accept it.
My legs went numb and I wasn't able to move them. As I tried to take my step back I couldn't because my legs are not working right now. It started shaking, shaking more and more. I tried to stop it but I really can't really can't.
But I just forced myself and put all the strength I have left inside me to move my legs and it finally worked and I ran away from here.
I ran ran as fast as I could in that lobby of that floor then I stopped and sat down on the floor and putting my head against the wall over there.
My legs didn't support me and I ended up sitting here only in the lobby of that same floor which changed my whole damn life.
I closed my eyes soo tightly just to erase that memory of the scene that I have just witnessed with my own eyes but the more I tried to forget it and erase it from my memory and tried to feel like nothing like this didn't even happen then the more the flashes of that scene coming infront of my eyes.
The tears have finally started rolling down from my eyes that I was holding back for long.
I tightly pressed my hands on my face soo that no one is able to hear my whooping and I tightly pressed the palm of my hand on my face.
The scene I saw is nothing else than taking out the soul from me. Maybe that one would be more better for me. Atleast I could live in my delusion. I won't get that much hurt.
But did what my eyes just saw is really true my heart asking this question to me again and again the moment I saw that scene.
Why my heart is asking me this question again and again I asked myself but no matter how much I try that scene never fades away from my memory never ever.
I am saying all this not to me just to my stupid heart just to make it understand that stop questioning me you are broken now your trust has been broken please accept it heart please.
The moments we lived with him the memories we have created with him I'll definitely cherish them all yes I still cherish them cause it's really not his fault it's mine it's only my fault.
I was the stupid one who was forcing myself on him then in that case what else he was able to do.
He just treated me well and I misunderstood it.
I really did.
How could I be that much stupid where did my brain go while it was happening.
I am the one who created all these mess and look at me now behaving like he betrayed me when I was the one who didn't even ready to accept my feelings for him at first.
How could I even think that he can love an ordinary girl like me how could I I asked this question to myself again and again continuously.
He was he was just being nice to me and nothing more than that.
My voice shakes as I say these sentences.
I misunderstood his niceness into love and he was literally soo nice that he didn't even break my heart but as I always say everything is secondary the primary thing is my Yuan's happiness.
No matter if his happiness are not with me his happiness only matters to me whether it's with me or with someone else his happiness comes first as my top most priority I said it to myself and laughed a little through my tears.
I am just laughing at myself as how such fool I am.
How could I not able to see it that he didn't he didn't want me.
He is just a nice human being that's why he didn't say anything to me and just let me do those stupid things.
But how could I not able to sense it that someone else is in his heart and after watching it with my own eyes it gets confirmed just confirmed.
Then a worker over there just passed by that lobby and saw me crying over there and stopped for a while and stared at me and then asked me that Miss are you alright do you need something water or something to eat he asked me very politely in a very quiet tone.
And I immediately shook my head from behind as he is standing behind me and wasn't able to see my face properly even he didn't try to then he went away from here.
I curled myself hugging my knees with both the hands but my tears are really not supporting me today no matter how much I tried myself not to cry but I did I really did.
Meanwhile when Yuan came out of his room he was about to go downstairs to the party hall on the ground floor then he heard from the same worker over there who saw me crying from behind as that person was murmuring to himself while passing through that lobby near Yuan was standing and waiting for the lift to arrive.
That person murmured that that girl was looking soo weak but why she was crying that badly alone she must be in big problem that's why she was sitting there in the middle of the lobby and crying continually.
Then Yuan felt something something after hearing that worker's words something in him is signalling that something is not right really not right.
And that single thought in him was enough to make him step back and went to the lobby walking deep inside here.
I heard that someone's footsteps approaching here.
I tried to wipe my tears with both my hands and I was about to stand and turn around back there.
But then I heard that voice the same voice which is my favourite sound the same voice I loved to hear before going to sleep and after waking up.
But today it's not the matter of the voice it's the person whose voice it is.
I know it's him that's why I didn't turn around.
I just sat there numb without even moving from there.
But the moment he recognised me he said silly girl.
I still didn't turn around at him but he came closer towards me and held my both hands in his and made me turn around.
The moment I turned around at him my tears started coming out of my eyes uncontrollably.
I didn't see his face even I was just looking down at myself but I am still not seeing his face because I know the moment I see his face I'll get weak again and this time I didn't let myself forcefully on him I really didn't.
His voice changed slightly as he saw me in that condition.
He asked me immediately in quite a worrying tone saying why are you like this what happened to you you are soo miserable right now what happened tell me silly girl tell me.
He kept asking me the question continuously but I didn't even look at him.
His patience has gone now he couldn't wait for me to answer.
He lifted me up in his arms his one hand on my back firmly and another under my knees and he took me inside the room.
The same room where I saw that scene where I saw my world shattering infront of me with my own eyes and now I am right here again.
He entered inside the room while holding me still in his arms and then he sat on the couch over there while still holding me in his arms.
He gently placed one hand of his on my cheek and asked me what happened to you you are making me worried silly girl stop doing it.
I know you never behave like this and today if you are behaving like this then there is definitely something something that you can't handle please share it with me my silly girl share it with me he repeated it again.
And I finally let all my tears come out and started crying badly.
He didn't even see me crying like this but unknowingly he became the reason behind my crying I said those things inside my heart.
Then he asked me again why are you crying silly girl tell me if you behave like this it really gonna take my soul out from me please tell me he said to me.
Then my voice came out very tiny and small from my throat as I said I saw you and the clouds thundered soo badly that I flinched a little but continued to speak as I said that word again that I saw you.
Then he asked in the middle of it me and whom.
Then I closed my eyes for a while like I am gathering some strength to speak it then finally I tried to say it again that I saw you with the with the...