My Mr heart feels a bit lighter now the anxiety and the fear it was holding back for soo long has now finally gone but it doesn't mean that I won't get jealous to any other co actresses of him yes I'll do jealous but today my insecurity has been gone finally that I was holding in my Mr heart for soo long and now it really feels much lighter and better I am really at ease now and now I don't have any kind of fear because I know he is only mine Xu Yuan is only Zhao Shiza's only and one and only I said it to my self while keep thinking all this in my mind and then Yuan said to me why are you still standing here.
I got little startled by him as he completely breaks my self deep thoughts all of a sudden then I said to him that I was waiting for we'll go downstairs together he smiles after hearing that and then both started walking towards downstairs while moving on it he said do you know Mr Li really thinks about you even he brought the studio member from one of the very reputed studios for you in this party he truly believes in your talent and appreciates your skills even you have no other previous experience in work in this industry he still brings the studio member here and talked to them about you.
I know even I have already met that person just an hour before I said it.
Really Yuan asked me.
I nodded my head.
Then what they said to you did everything went well he asked.
I smiled and said I refused it.
What what did you say you refused it he asked me again and he stopped moving now and stands still there like he is left soo clueless here looking at me very seriously.
Yes I refused it you heard that right Yuan I said.
But why what thing make you refuse such a big opportunity of your life that I know still many struggling actors just craves for it he said.
I smiled Yuan just answer me one thing then I'll give you my explanation on my decision which is very understandable to you.
Ok ask he said.
Yuan if someone gives you apples when you want to eat strawberry and that apple is really very good in taste like it tastes like it directly came from heaven meanwhile there is a bunch of strawberries which are rotten there and you are also very hungry and you have only these two options then tell me what you will do what you will choose and before answering this question I let you know that strawberry is the favourite fruit of yours just in example that I am using to explain to you I said it.
Ofcourse I'll definitely eat that apple what else could I have been left for I am hungry I need food and that apple totally serves as a good food for me and what else option I have left in fact this question is wrong in itself he said it.
How I asked him.
Because in this you have just given me the single option no choice he said.
I have given you that choice of choosing strawberry in spite of apple isn't it I asked him.
Yes you did but that option is invalid how can I choose from it it's only given to me to choose apple at any cost he said that.
I smiled and said while smiling at him that now you have picked up the right point this is what I want to tell you that it really doesn't matter what you love but your life gives you choices where you have to choose the option between them but it's just life's bait to us it's just making us feel like we are having choices but it wasn't like that life only provides the single choice to us that it wants us to choose and the other options that it provided us were just a bait which it never wants us to choose so no matter what we love how much we try we have to choose what our life and fate already decided for us and it never gonna change we are just fools who think that it provided us with the options but it's not like that what we think.
This is what you want to make me understand he asked me.
Yes there is one more thing I wanna explain from it to you as you said that you'll choose that apple despite strawberry being your favourite fruit I said.
Yes I did because I was left with no other options what should I do I have to leave my favourite fruit for my survival he said it.
And this is where you lacks I said.
I lacks how he asked me while raising one eyebrow.
I smiled and said don't get there I didn't mean that I said it because I know where he is taking what I said.
Then explain it clearly he said.
I exhaled sharply and said if I were in your place then I still choose my strawberry and eat those rotten strawberries in place of that fully ripened apple because if that rotten strawberry will be worst for me or my health then also I'll eat that only now ask me why.
Why he immediately asked me.
Because whatever I love and if someone or something makes place in my Mr heart then it really doesn't matter to me that what's wrong or what's right in it even if that is worst for me then also I want that only because now it made the place in my Mr heart and after making it you are really not allowed to leave my Mr heart ever not even without my permission I said it.
Oooo soo you really meant this now I got it and now I get that also that you proved me soo right that why I called you silly girl he said it in his dramatic sarcastic tone.
Yuan I said it.
He smiles and said ok I got your point but now if we didn't get downstairs then definitely no one else is getting our point of missing from the party he said it.
Then I smiled and we get downstairs where the lavish party that Director Li held is still going on but now this party seems party to me ofcourse now I have him standing beside me before that I was a lost kitten in this party but he found me and made me his.
Then suddenly one waiter come near us holding the tray of many kinds of mocktail drinks on it many that I didn't even ever seen in my whole life but there is one drink on that tray that the waiter was holding in his hand and it gathered my whole attention I saw a glass where there is a pink drink inside it which is decorated with the strawberry pieces on it it must be some kind of strawberry mocktail or something then I take it from that tray and that waiter went from there.
The moment I was about to sip it Yuan takes that glass from my hand and place the orange juice glass in my hand and said into my ear in his whispering voice which nearly gives me the goosebumps he said you don't need to drink that your strawberry is standing just beside you you don't need it he said it and I know that he knows that he is the strawberry my strawberry which I always meant wherever I said that.
Aren't you the one who just said upstairs that you'll always choose which is your favourite one then I know this is your favourite one he said it while pointing towards the glass of orange juice that he has handed over me just now.
I know I am the strawberry your strawberry and you meant it whenever you mention strawberry you didn't mean that fruit you meant me I know it all but just because of it you don't need to eat or drink whatever thing has strawberry in it eat and drink whatever you like to eat or drink because you are the one who said to always choose whatever you want to choose then why are you forcing yourself just to choose strawberry despite you were having your favourite orange juice near you hm he asked me.
You got that point soo fast I said it to him while smiling mischievously.
You have again started teasing me isn't it you just need some point for that and right now I didn't even know what point you got but now you have started then it definitely means you got something.
I chuckled and he too.
This is how our dinner party that Director Li held went with some cry some jealousy some confrontation and some fears but above all the only thing that shines today in this rainy night of Shanghai is our love which is getting stronger blooming like a newly planted plant which gets the daily dosage of photosynthesis and our love today finally found that photosynthesis leaving all the fears and insecurities behind.
I know our love is not perfect but the only thing I know is that it's pure just pure as the water of an ocean our love is just like that and together we will make it better it's a promise from both of us to our love that we had made without even saying it loud without even thinking about what tomorrow holds for us but it's only us that matters only us....