When I turned around, I saw him. It's him who was asking me this question. Then I came near him and asked him, from how long are you standing here? I asked him.
He looked down for a second and then smiled and said, since you were scolding Wang Ruoxi, since then, he said it.
I was not scolding her, I said it while folding my arms.
Then what was that, he asked.
Anything except scolding, I said it straight without even thinking for a second.
He laughed a little while hearing my answer.
Why are you laughing, did I crack any kind of joke just now, I asked him.
He laughed more now and said while trying to control his laugh that nooo actually it was my fault who is thinking like he said.
Definitely yours, I said it.
But what did you mean by what's next and why you have asked me this question so suddenly and unexpectedly, I said to him.
I didn't know that besides being your boyfriend I am also your maths teacher as well, he said it.
Who told you it wasn't like that, I said it.
You only, he said.
How, I mean by how, I asked.
By saying it just now that you got shocked hearing me here, I just wanted to give you a surprise by coming over here but then I saw you waving at the car like that car is going somewhere where it will never return back, he said.
No, whatever you are saying, it wasn't like that, but I gave a dramatic look to him while saying that.
Then I suddenly remembered what I saw on Weibo and then I started making faces.
He frowned his eyebrows and then he said while looking at me that what did you see, he asked me.
I saw when you attended that Hello Saturday show recently and your co-actress from previous series was also there and I saw in the comment section how all the people started shipping you with her and the way you were looking at her, first tell me why were you looking at her like that, hm, I asked him.
He laughed a little and said first stop pouting.
I am not pouting, I am just asking, I asked him.
Then he looked at me and said isn't all our things regarding this been solved yesterday.
Yes of course I said that I'll stop being insecure but I have never ever said that I'll stop being jealous, I said.
Oooo quite a thing, he said.
Yes it's quite a thing, I'll not get insecure from anyone but it doesn't mean that I'll stop myself from being jealous because whoever comes closer to my Yuan I'll get jealous of it and jealousy is a form of love, I said it.
Ooo really, so you are saying that jealousy is a form of love, he asked me.
Yes of course, being jealous means that you never want that person to be with someone else and this shows how much purely or deeply a person can love someone, I said it.
Wooow my silly girl what a philosophy that you have just said, I think you should leave this your course and should start being a philosopher, trust me you'll really have a very good future in it, he said that while smiling at me.
Stop being sarcastic Yuan, I said it while rolling my eyes three sixty degrees that I always do whenever I want to avoid the conversation.
Then I said to him that I read how people in the comment section are shipping you both, I mean in exact words if I say all the people are shipping their so-called CP and some also wrote in the comment section that they like your bond with her and they really like how you both reacted naturally in that variety show and you know what Yuan, trust at that time what my Mr. Heart told me to do, I asked him.
What, he asked.
That I should throw away my phone, I said.
Then why didn't you, he asked.
Of course I cannot because that phone used to be the only source for me to see you every day and night, how can I damage that source due to my anger on someone else, I said it.
He laughed again and now he was looking at me while laughing, really looking at me, which I noticed and asked him what are you looking at so closely.
He smiled and said nothing, just seeing how much you are into me, he said.
Is this the thing that you are thinking right now, I asked him.
Yes of course, for me it is, he said.
I know what you are thinking exactly, I said.
What, he asked.
That I am such a psycho fan of yours, I said.
No, I am not thinking like that about you, he said it.
So what are you thinking exactly right now, I asked him.
I am thinking how really childish and silly you are, you so easily get jealous by seeing me with my previous co-actress and get jealous so easily.
Hmm of course, and you didn't even do anything to stop making me feel jealous, I said it.
He laughed a little and then suddenly he came closer to me and without giving me a second to think about anything he came more closer to me and kissed my right cheek and said is my apology being accepted, he asked me.
My whole face went red and I was just trying to control my shyness but I couldn't, I really couldn't, then without giving me time to process this one he kissed the left cheek of mine and said I think now you should stop feeling jealous and I hope your jealousy will be gone so tell me my silly girl did my repayment for making you feel jealous because of that unknowingly has been accepted or not, he asked me.
I went blank for a second because I didn't know what to say, I really didn't, I wanted to say something but it was just like words were not coming out of my mouth.
Then he smiled and said you don't need to give burden to yourself, I know my apology has been accepted by you, you don't need to say it loud, he said.
Thank God he himself understood it otherwise for a few seconds or minutes my voice had been gone from my throat.
Then he said you know what I came here to tell you something but you literally made me forget that, see how your silliness made me forget important things, he said.
Now finally after a few minutes and after processing my mind my voice came back and I asked him what.
He exhaled sharply and said as the shooting is completed now for our drama so now from tomorrow onwards we need to start promoting the drama series, he said.
Promoting, I repeated that word again.
Yes promoting, he said.
But how am I, I asked him.
We need to attend some variety shows, maybe two or three variety shows and some promotional events at venue and we have to make some videos for Douyin and Weibo that we'll post there, he said.
This much we have to do, I asked a bit shockingly.
Yes but I don't think this is much, I mean it's normal but yes of course for you it's very much as everything is your first time, he said it.
Yes, I mean I don't know how to act or behave there, I said it while thinking about it that how I'll be able to do it.
Then he held my shoulders with both of his hands and said that you don't need to worry about anything, you just need to come there, then I'll handle everything there, you don't need to stress yourself out for that and trust me everything is very easy there, you don't need to worry about it much, in fact you don't need to worry about it, I'll handle it, he said to me while giving me assurance from his words and most importantly the comfort that I really needed right now.
But I didn't say anything after whatever he said to me just now, so he asked me that silly girl whatever will happen whenever you look at your side you'll find me standing beside you, you are not alone here, I am here and everywhere and especially beating inside your Mr. Heart like a heartbeat, you don't need to worry about anything, I am here with you, do you hear me, he asked me while cupping my face with both of his hands.
I know, I said it.
Then stop worrying about anything, when your Yuan is here then you don't need to worry about anything, he said it.
Yuan, I said in my little tiny voice and said that I don't have anyone now with me, no one, Wang Ruoxi who used to be my partner in every turn in my life has also left me today, I know it doesn't mean that our friendship has ended but I know the reality that it is true that Wang Ruoxi and Zhao Shiza will always remain the same and their friendship too but from now onwards our paths will get changed and it will never ever gonna collide with each other, I said while getting a bit emotional.
He held my shoulders a little tighter with both of his hands and said but Zhao Shiza's path will always collide with Xu Yuan's path, always and always forever and ever, he said that.
And these words really worked on me as I found him in the darkest place of my life and him being the light in my darkest place, he came as a saviour and somehow he saved Zhao Shiza, he really saved her.
Yes I do feel jealous and sometimes I also feel hurt and very low because of him but that is also the true side of another coin that he is the one who makes me feel every emotion in my life and made me realise what true love really is and yes if he made me jealous then yes he is the one who made me feel comfort and safe too, it's just like he is the disease and cure both for my illness, the illness of Xu Yuan that I have in me.
I think about it to myself without saying it and then a smile appears on my face which he noticed immediately and said you know what my silly girl looks even more prettier while smiling but may I know the reason of your smiling, he asked me.
You, I said it, it just slipped out of my tongue.
Me, how, he asked me.
Then to change the conversation I said that I know how you behave in the variety shows, you are so scared of everything, I saw when you were asked to put your hand inside that mystery box you were so scared and flinched a lot and everyone was laughing at you and you were too, you are really such a person and such a mood to watch in variety shows, I said it.
It wasn't like that, he said it.
Oooo I know I know, stop lying Yuan, I know you get scared very easily, I saw it, even your older videos when you get scared from your birthday candle and jump backward, I said it.
Yes I do get scared very easily but you know what, what thing makes me feel so much scared, he asked me.
What, I asked him.
You, he replied, then he continued and said you make me scared more than anything in my life.
Why, do you think that someone will come and snatch me from you, I asked him.
He laughed sarcastically and said do you really think that someone dares to do it, someone or anyone really has that dare to touch Xu Yuan's silly girl, I don't let anyone touch you and you are talking about snatching, sorry Miss Zhao Shiza for disappointing you but in this lifetime you are wholly just for Xu Yuan and forget about that snatching part, no one dares to do it because they know if they try to take what's mine then the consequences they need to bear will just be on them only, he said it.
Ooo quite a warning, then I'll accept your apology for today, I said.
He smiled and I really knew his mischievous smile and he said that if you want then I can apologise more, do you?
No that's enough, no more apologising now, you should go, you are not even wearing a face mask and standing here in front of the dormitory gate, everyone will notice you that the superstar Xu Yuan is here, I said it.
Let it be, he said it.
No I won't, now you should go back, we'll meet tomorrow, I said while pushing him inside the car.
I'll come and pick you tomorrow for the variety show, he said.
Ok I'll tell you whether you can come or not, I said.
Why, he asked me while sitting inside the car.
I'll tell you when you reach your home, I said it.
You really know how to make me do what you want me to do, he said.
Of course I am your girlfriend, I know how to handle my Yuan Yuan, I said it while smiling stupidly.
He chuckled and said ok I'll wait for your call, bye bye.
Bye bye, I said while waving my hand to him and then his car left from here and now I am here standing alone but really not alone as I always am, but now I have Yuan's back for me but goi
ng back to that empty room will really make me feel upset but I need to as life moves on we should all focus on our lives first as Wang Ruoxi did and then I went inside my dormitory....