The rainy morning again hits the windows of my dormitory room. I really don't know what has happened to Shanghai, why so much early rainfall when monsoon is really far away. The moment I think that, the clouds thunder and the sky gets more darker. Still, it's only been looking like an early or late evening, not night. Then I inhale the fresh air of this rain, seems like nature hugs me and it's giving me the peace of mind and most importantly peace of soul for some time. It makes me feel like that I am living in another world where I don't know anything about anything.
But today, the moment I woke up, I have a habit of seeing Wang Ruoxi lying over there on her bed, sleeping like an idiot and as always getting late for the classes. But those days have been gone. Zhao Shiza, you need to understand it, she has moved one step forward in her life that she needs to, even I will also move forward in my life. I have to whether I want it or not, I have to, because this is the reality and this is called life. When we move on forward in it while leaving the previous one, thinking that it hasn't been happened ever, and start thinking of the things that we need to face in the upcoming life of ours, even this is the real pattern of life and may be the right one that we all need to follow, even I also, yes I also need to move forward in life while stop thinking of the previous chapters and things in my life.
Then I suddenly remembered, when I said these things to me as a morning motivation, that yes, I need to attend the variety show today. Then I look at the time on my phone screen and saw that it's already ten am in the morning, and I got in shock for a minute as I have never woke up that late ever. But today seems like I am also not like the previous one, may be Wang Ruoxi's leaving made me do that, I think of it in my mind.
Then suddenly the message flashes on my phone screen. I opened it immediately in my we chat, as I know that Yuan has messaged me. But look how stupid I am, really I am, when I read that message it was written on it that come downstairs, I am outside your dormitory gate and if you didn't come within twenty minutes then I'll come inside your dormitory without wearing a face mask and you know that pretty well that if I'll do that thennnnn—he was about to say something, but I know what he gonna say and I really knows it that he can do that what he is saying right now. So I didn't waste even a single second of mine and immediately grabbed the dress whatever my hand got from my cupboard and immediately went to change myself and said to myself that Zhao Shiza you need to hurry up and buck up yourself, otherwise you know him that he'll really gonna do that. Oooo my crazy boyfriend you are Yuan, I said it to myself.
And then within ten minutes I get out from my room and go downstairs and reach the dormitory gate within those left five minutes, and finally I reached there and saw him sitting inside his car wearing those black sunglasses, which I really don't know that sunglasses suits him or he suits the sunglasses, looking like a prince charming straight coming out from a Disney novel.
Then I bend a little just to knock on his door's window, and he immediately sees me and opens the other side of the car door. Then I get inside the car and we went straight to the main spot where we need to go, the variety show, it sounds so big to me.
Minutes have been passed, but I didn't even utter a word from my mouth the moment I entered in the car. Yuan noticed the way he always notices every small and tiny detail of me. While driving the car, he asked me that silly girl, why so silent.
I am not silent, I said it.
He smiles a little and said then why are you scratching your bag with your nails from past few minutes.
Then I immediately look down at my laps and really realised that I was literally doing that.
Then he said that I know you are a bit nervous right now, it's just a normal feeling, you don't need to think this much about it.
I know, but what should I do, I am not a big star of c drama industry like you, it's my first time here, you won't be able to understand it, I said it.
He smiles a little and said I am now a big star here, but someday I am also new one here, and trust me I get nervous more than you at that time.
Really, I asked him in little shockingly, as I have never imagined that Xu Yuan also gets nervous.
Yes, of course, he replied.
Then finally the car stopped outside the variety show set.
We have reached here so fast, I asked him.
He smiles and said no, we didn't reach here this much fast that you are thinking, we reached here after one hour, he said it while looking at his watch.
One hour, I asked him.
He nodded his head and smiled.
But then why it seems to me like I have just sit inside the car and he came and picked me up, but it's just journey with him feels shorter, no matter how much longer path there is, but it's always feels lighter to me when he is besides me, my Yuan is besides me.
And my self thinking thoughts again occupied me completely in it, but it has been broken when I saw Yuan is getting down from the car. But before that I hold his sleeves a little more tighter than expected and stopped him from getting outside the car.
He looks at me and asked me quite worriedly that what happened.
I said in my tiny small voice which came out of my throat at that time that what if someone sees us here, they'll definitely think anything about us whatever they wanted to, and it's really not good for your career when it's so high on peak, I said it to him.
He smiles and while holding my hand in his hands said you don't need to worry about it, no one is here outside set, no one will notice us that we are together, and if anyone really did then I'll teach them a lesson.
You'll teach lesson to anyone who ever sees us together, I asked him.
He smiles and said yes I will.
But I don't really want you to do that, I don't want my Yuan Yuan to get into trouble because of me, I said it.
I'll not, after all you are my little trouble maker, he said.
Then your little trouble maker doesn't want you to get in more trouble because of me, so you should avoid the troubles as much as you can, I said it.
He smiles while looking straight forward outside the car through the glass and then he said you don't need to worry about it, I am here.
What if I fall, what if I mess up there, what if I am going— I was about to say something more, but he stopped me in the mid way of my sentence and said if there is "if" in your life then there is always Yuan Yuan for it.
And I'll never let you fall, if you fall ever then I'll make sure that it will be my hands only where you'll fall always, and if you mess up everything then I'll clear up that for you.
His soothing consoling words has really worked on me and give me courage to go inside the set, and then I smiled while hearing all these things from him.
Now shall we get inside the set, he asked me.
I smiled and nodded my head, as now I got enough confidence to deal with it, to deal with anything that comes to me.
Then we both get outside the car, there is no one to see us together here, which is really a relief to me. Then we entered the set, and the moment we entered in it, then few staff members there came towards us and said you both have finally come, come and first get ready for the shoot and change yourself.
Then that person went and came within a minute to us and handed us the clothes that we need to wear to shoot the variety show.
Then I exhaled sharply and said to myself Zhao Shiza you can, when you were able to shoot the drama series and completed its shooting successfully then this also you can do it.
When I went there to shoot for the first time in my life then it was also a very first thing in my life, but at that time I didn't get this much nervous, maybe that's because there I didn't need to show my real side to everyone on camera, as there I was playing a character that they have written, but here I need to show my real side which made me a bit nervous about it.
Then he bends a little and whisper in my ears that I am here, don't worry, you can, I know that pretty well that my Zhao Shiza is a mood to watch.
Then after hearing what he said, a little bit of confidence has been boosted inside me, and then we both went to change ourselves.
Then after changing the clothes, after few minutes, when I came out of that room I saw Yuan sitting on the couch and talking to the other show members of the show.
I feel a bit nervous but still I move a step forward to them and stands there.
The moment I stand there, Yuan said come sit, we are discussing about the games that we need to play.
I forced a smile on my face and sat on the couch besides Yuan, feeling a bit uncomfortable as this is all new to me.
I started looking here and there, my eyes goes around everywhere on the set while searching something, when Yuan gets busy back while talking to them.
Then when I was looking here and there, he said it to my ears that the filming of the variety show hasn't started yet.
The moment he whispered it into my ears, I looked at him, really looked at him, as how did he know me this well, how can he able to know that I am searching for the camera that whether it's ON or not.
Don't get shocked, I know you, I know what you tell me and what you don't, I know everything about my silly girl, he said it in low voice close to my ears so that only I can be able to listen it.
I smiled, no not at all, how can I only smile when I heard my Yuan saying these things to me, I blushed, but I controlled it as everyone is here.
But they all went busy in discussing what to do in the games and what games we need to play and everything.
The shoot of the variety show will be starting within few minutes.
Yes, I won't say that I am not nervous now, but I can say that whatever it is, I know my Yuan Yuan will handle me.
I think it in my mind while looking at him when he is discussing about the show with them.
Then he looks at me and asked what happened.
I smiled and said nothing.
And then everyone there said now we are going to start the shoot of our variety show.
And here, when these words hit inside my ears, my Mr heart beats a little faster.
And then the shooting of the "variety show" has been started...