"And you thought no one was going to miss you?" Not now Fel.
WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK!!!
I don't think I've moved since I saw them. Am I in shock? Did he said he calls my name?? Like... WHAT???
"Ey" Fel put my face in his hands, "should I be worried?"
"What? Why? NO! No way babe" I give him a squeeze "I just... Did that just happened?"
Fel looks at CC "so what's his deal? You must have known right? I mean it's pretty obvious!"
And she looks kind of guilty "I did tell you his husband looked kinda like you... I didn't think they would show up though! They hardly ever come to town!" Like that explains anything.
I see in the back the kids and Matt looking at me like the freak show that I am. "There's always drama here" I tell him.
"At least it's never boring"
And I just start laughing like a maniac. "I need something stronger" there whiskey in the freezer "who's up for some shots?"
The kids are somewhere doing something while the grown ups are sitting with some tumblers, we are all looking at CC "spill" Fel urges her.
"There's not really much to say. I told you after you left he stopped hanging out with those assholes, we didn't see him much around. Then he went to college and a few years later he came back with a boyfriend, the Jay look-a-like. I'm not even sure if anyone even asked him about it... But it was the talk of the town. I did hear that someone tried calling the husband "Jay", cause his name is Jeremy or something, but he didn't like that at all, although that could be just a rumor, you know how it goes"
This is so fucked up.
"So... We know nothing... Do you have his number??"
"Are you going to call him?!"
I hug my man "relax okay? You know it's not like that, I love you and only you" I let go of him and look at his pretty eyes "but he was my friend, and I hated him when I left, but he was obviously going through a lot that I have no idea about…. So... I don't know...?" I look at Jee"should I talk to him??"
"Yep, you owe him that"
"Well I don't have to like it" Fel crosses his arms, "did you see the way he was looking at me? That bitch is crazy"
Matt's chuckle scapes him "sorry, it's just... Did you see his face when you hugged Jay! I tough his eyes were about to pop out!"
"That's nice, at least someone is on my side"
"Oh I'm not taking sides"
"To late sugar, you're already on team ghosting"
Matt is looking at the table and shakes his head "no, sorry Fel, but I think they should talk." He looks at me "I know it's not my place to say..." Go on, I signalled with my hands, like hurry the fuck up my dude! "I've been there, like him I mean, it was only two years but it was a nightmare, I can't imagine how he managed twenty years..."
"He obviously didn't do it well" Fel jumps in and we all just look at him like really dude? He shrugs and signals to Matt to continue.
"I think he needs to know, you know? Like... You have to make it very very clear that you two are not an option, not gonna happen, you have to reject him and make sure he understands that, just not in a cruel way, I guess?"
CC mmhmms and Jee nods like a wise old man. "Ok so... Do you have his number?"
"I can get it in the station tomorrow" Jee takes a swig "he is a criminal attorney, you know ?"
Fel huffes "of course he is, that copycat asshole"
"But you should probably give him a few days... His marriage seems to be imploding."
And that sobers us up good.
Fuck
.
We spent the rest of the day having fun, awkwardness forgotten, well, no, more like ignored.
The sun is starting to go down, so we all go to the town square to get ice cream.
I'm very happy with my double mango cone, when I notice Curls sitting in the bus stop. Fuck, I do not need to get involved in that mess. Just pretend you didn't see nothing and walk on.
Fuck. Our eyes met.
I am not ready to have that conversation. I haven't even drafted a speech. But he looks one breeze away from offing himself. Fuck. I am an asshole, but not that big of a one, or am I?
I grab Fel hands. "Do you mind?" I nod towards Curls.
He sighs "does it matter? You're just gonna do whatever you want"
"Of course it matters to me" I give him a hug "you just say the word and I'll ghost him so hard that I'll be crowned as the fucking Ghost king, I swear it, just say the word"
He looks at curls, "fuck, I don't want to be the bad guy... Just don't leave me for him ok?"
"Never leaving you babe, not even if you want me to" I kiss him "that didn't sound so red-flagy in m head... Let's just pretend I didn't say nothing ok?"
"Fine... Just go"
I give him my ice cream "don't eat it, I'll be back before it melts". I kiss his forehead and walk away.
Curls sees me going his way and looks like he is shitting bricks. I think I might look the same.
And fuck! What should I say now? I'm so not ready for this...
And why is he in the bus stop... Did the husband ditched him? I guess I kind of get it ... If it was me... I would... I would never leave Fel, that dude is nothing like me.
Fuck i'm already mid way and still got nothing... It's not like we're going to talk about something now, right? Just get his number, try not to be to loveable, ha! Impossible!
Ok, I can do this.
Fuck, this is the longest walk of my life