KEIFER's PoV
I had the biggest realisation that I love her and cannot lose her, I cried thinking about it,
How did I not know it sooner,how can I be such an idiot, the love of my life was right in front of me all along, It only made me cry more,
Then I became aware of my surroundings, I was in the hospitals, all my worst nightmare coming together, I remembered how they took my mom,
Now Jay, no no I cannot lose her, my head was starting to spin, my breathing became heavy, and I realised I was having a panic attack,
I quickly rush to the restroom and tears start pouring in my eyes and I am unable to breathe and I splash some water in my face and try to calm myself down . I wasn't able to breathe, So I tried focusing on my breathing,
then I remembered her face when she was trying to calm down from nightmare that day, I heard her voice in my head,
Jay: "I am here Kiefer, It's okay."
It repeated in my head multiple times, which made me finally calm down, I realised how she helped me without even being there,
I realised how much she meant to me, I started remembering the hug, it was my home, I didn't know it then but it felt like the
the safest place for me, now I know why.
I was finally calmed down and but the fear was lingering, I went to the operation theatre, but the operation was still going, I was still ss cared to be there but I couldn't leave my Jay alone in a condition like, I mean how can I?
What kind of love is mine, if I can't be with her when she needed me the most.
My heart was still thumping with fear, but I know that my Jay will come back to me, I mean she has to right, I cannot lose her
I couldn't control my tears, at that moment all that I hoped and prayed for is for her to be safe, that's all I ever want now, I want my Jay to be safe.
In order to calm myself down, I tried to replay my memories with her and her face came to my mind bringing a sense of calmness in my body,
I started remembering our moments together, in order to prevent myself for losing and spiralling,
I remembered the first time she hugged me, I remembered how she took me to the arcade to play games when I was vulnerable in order to change my mood, Like how she got me that painting that reminded me of my mother, Like how we woke next to eachother on that work trip
I remembered how close we were while hiding in narrow way after the club, I remember looking into her eyes,
I remembered how when everytime when someone called us a couple I quietly accepted it, maybe it is what I wanted all along, I wanted her to be in love with me, because I was.
A smile formed in my face, as I thought of that, she brought all this light and happiness to me,
But now I am scared for her,
please God, please give her to me that's all I want.
I was joining my hands and begging for God, while wiping my tears, while I heard the opening of the door,
I quickly turned around to see the doctors exiting the room, I rose from my place went to them immediately,
Keifer: "How is she doctor? Is everything alright?"
Doctor: "The operation was successful, she is out of danger, she lost a lot of blood, but now we have transfused it, So don't worry, she needs a lot of rest and stress free environment."
Keifer: "Can I see her?" I asked trembling
Doctor: "You can after we shift her from OT and there is some procedures are pending, we will go through it afterwards."
I nodded and I was getting impatient and anxious to meet her and my heart was beating fast again, but I was happy that she was alright, because that is what I wanted.
Then I heard she got shifted, I went to her room, I opened the door and I entered to the sound of the monitor beeping and, the first thing I saw was her face,
I don't know why it felt different, it felt like a first time, is it because of the accident or my love had changed my vision, I couldn't tell.
But tears welled up in my eyes to see her in this condition, full banded with injuries, maybe I shouldn't have left her, I should have waited for her, then this wouldn't have happened, tears poured from my eyes, seeing her unconscious.
I went and sat beside her, my hands were shivering as I was about to touch her, I slowly caressed her head carefully not to hurt her,
Keifer: "Sorry" I whispered while crying,
I held her hand that wasn't injured and started speaking slowly
Keifer: "Come back soon and fight with me and annoy me, I want to make new memories with you, I want you to fall in love with me, Most of I want to love you."
My heart was beating fast because of the beeping sound, It still made me think I could lose everything in a moment, I took her hand and placed in my heart, hoping it would help me calm down and it did,
I don't know if this is magic or love, whatever this is I am not letting it go.
A smile formed in my face along with my tears, as I held her hand closer to me,
And said the words,
"I Love you Jasper Jean Mariano."
I said this and couldn't control myself, I leaned down and placed a soft kiss on her head.
Just as then, I heard the opening of the door,
A nurse was coming in,
N: "The doctor wants to see you."
I nodded and left her hand and placed it and got to leave before looking at her face one more time,
Authors Note
Keifer in love🥹❤️
First kiss of JAYFER and a silent confession 🥰❤️
The best part about this is he buried and overcame his trauma and fear only for her🥹🥹❤️, that's his love ❤️
What's going to happen next?🫣
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