Oh! What was that? I looked to my right and there was a big truck. I was so lost in my past that I forgot about the present. I looked around and found myself on a deserted road.
The uncle with the truck said loudly, daughter, where to go?
"Oh,I said, oh yes! I was going to the city." I said nervously.
"Should I leave?"
"Yes, please," I said happily. I got into the truck and we left for the city.
It was night. The moon had started to shine. There was darkness everywhere. Uncle's eyes were closing due to sleep. After some time, we entered the city. It was not visible here. It was half past midnight. There was excitement everywhere. The city was shining with lights. The moonlight had dimmed in front of these lamps.I thanked uncle and ran into a hotel. There, a girl of my age was picking up dishes from the tables. She smiled at me and said: "Do you want work?"
"How do you know?" I asked in surprise.
She finished her work calmly and then asked me to follow her. She turned off the hotel lights and started walking up the stairs. I followed her.
A small room was built on the roof. We climbed to the roof of this room. The whole city was clearly visible from here.
"My name is Udaina and yours?" She asked, extending her hand.
I am Larin.I also extended my hand towards her.
She smiled and took a deep breath.
"How did you know that I was looking for work?" I asked again.
" I had entered the hotel in the same way: in confusion with puffy breath and a red nose."she said.
"What ?With a red nose? But my nose was not red." I said utterly.
"It was.I had seen."
"No,it wasn't.You are telling lie?"
She burst out laughing and so did I.Our laughter started echoing.After a while I asked her: "Why were you looking for work? Did you run away from home?"
"Yes, consider something like that. Will you listen to my story?"She said.
"Yes,yes.Why not ?"I said happily.
But then you have to tell your story too.She demanded." Okay," I said helplessly.
She began to say : You know I have a great desire to become like these stars. So that everyone loves me. This desire of mine is not from now. It was long ago.I was from a rich family.I had no siblings. Mom and Dad both were busy with work all day.In the pursuit of earning money, they forgot that they have a daughter too.And you know, when I used to say this to them, they would always give the same answer that they do all this for me.They earn this money for me so that I can be happy.What a pity.My parents didn't understand me.
They didn't even understand that I needed their time and attention. If I had some of their time, I could earn money for myself.And you know I didn't even have any friends. People say for no reason that rich people have so many friends. Everyone in school called me arrogant child of rich parents.I was always trying to attract my parents' attention. I also did many wrong things but failed every time. Finally, this failure made me hate them.I was fed up with this life. So I decided __"
Saying that, she stayed for a while
I asked, "What kind of decision?
She said:"The decision to walk away from this life. The decision to walk away from those bad parents and all those who didn't give me a single chance to prove myself, so here I am today. Far away from all of them. I don't know whether I took the right decision or not but now I am very happy with my life.What would you do if you were in my place? Don't you get rid of them?
"Yes, I would have done the same," I replied
She again started saying:"When I entered this hotel, I didn't even have a single penny. My nose turned red because of the worry of whether I would get a job or not, and the same happened to you today. Come on, I have told my story, now it's your turn.
Tears welled up in her eyes. Maybe she wanted to burst into tears but the tears kept coming out of her eyes
"Ah! Do you really want to hear my nonsense story?
"Yes, yes, you have heard mine too.
So listen, I am also from a rich family. I am the second among my four siblings. This world is so strange.
Here love is done by looking at age and status. Love with the eldest and with the youngest. Well, sometimes age and rank don't matter. Sometimes beauty matters, sometimes talent.In short, there are thousands of things in the world to love. And if there is no reason to love, it is left alone. Like I was left.
This is definitely a reason to leave home, but actually I wanted to travel the world. So I left home without thinking too much. Like you, I am happy today. This life is thousand times better than that nonsense life.Maybe you are right Udaina. Entering the hotel my nose turned red with worry whether I will get a job or not.As soon as I said this, she started laughing.
"After all, you admitted that your nose was red."
"Yes,yes, I agree." I said laughing.
"Let's go to sleep now. I will talk to the master about the work for you in the morning. He is looking for someone to help me with the work anyway.I also have to go to school tomorrow to get my homework.
"School? Do you also go to school?"
"Yes, the master admitted me. There is a government school nearby."
"Oh!" I said as if I wanted to go to school too. But I shocked myself again.After hearing each other's moans, we laid down on the bed. Udaina soon fell into a deep sleep. I took out my diary from the bag and wrote Udaina's name on it and put it back in my bag.
Pitter-patter ___ What it was? It was raining. After midnight a few drops of rain fell on my face and my eyes opened. I quickly woke up Udaina and we rolled up the bed and came downstairs.aUda soon fell asleep again as if she had never woken up, but I could not sleep. I left the room and crawled under the roof.
The whole city looked like a picture made by an artist in the rain. My heart wanted to go and stand in the rain, but if my clothes got wet, I would not be able to sleep. So I just watched the rain from a distance. The rain was gradually becoming lighter. I came back to the room. It was quite warm. I soon fell asleep.
The next day he woke me up at twelve o'clock in the afternoon.
"Did you go to school today?"
"Yes, I have come. Let's go down now.I have spoken to the Master for you.I am going. Come wash your hands and face quickly."
"Okay, I just came." I said.
I quickly washed my hands, folded the bed and went downstairs.There were a lot of people downstairs. I gave breakfast to everyone with Udaina. I would bring the plates from the kitchen and give them to her and she would put them on the tables. As soon as people left, I would pick up the dishes and put them in the kitchen and quickly wash all the dishes. She dried the dishes and in that time I cleaned the tables and swept the hotel. Together we soon finished the whole thing. We sat down at a table to relax for a while.Suddenly the Master appeared from nowhere and spoke:"Hey crazy girls! There are chairs to sit on." We smiled and sat on the nearby chairs.
I started: "Master I will work only for one month. So you keep looking for someone else."
"No problem, you can work as long as you want. I like your work." Master replied.
Udaina stood up and said, "Larina, let's walk for a while in the front park. As we came out, we heard the noise of cars, machines, motorcycles and other things."
So much excitement! What can I tell you? Maybe it seemed more to me because I came to a city after a long time. We went and sat on a chair in the park. Children were eating ice cream. Tempted but didn't show. Because I didn't want to eat with Udaina's money. And I didn't have any money.
"Let's eat ice cream."
"Oh no! Was I looking at these children as if I were hungry?"
As she asked me, this idea came to my mind. But I was not even looking at them much.
"Come on," Udaina said, pulling my hand.Now come . Today we will buy with my money, tomorrow with your money.
"Ok." I said with a smile.
We bought ice cream and came back to the hotel after eating. It was two in the afternoon. People were coming for lunch. We served them food according to their requests.When everyone left, we washed the dishes and came upstairs. Udaina had brought her holiday work. We did a little work together. I was lying down to rest for a while when Udaina came to me with a phone in her hand and said "Do you want to watch a movie ?"
The film ! After how many days I heard this word. I wish I had a phone and I used to watch a movie every day. But there was no money to buy ice cream. Where does the money to buy the phone come from? I was thinking about this when she asked again, "Larina, don't you want to see it?
"Why not? The cartoon ones are my favorite too."I replied.
We sat there reclining and started watching the movie.We completed the film and then went downstairs and helped the cook to prepare the dinner. Night came. People came, take dinner and left. A whole month passed like that.I used to help Udaina's work everyday. Then we would watch a movie and do my work on time. Often we would cry while watching the movie and often laugh out loud. Today was the last day of the month.
The master gave me my salary and gave me some money separately and said, "This is your reward. You have done a great job. I want to stop you. Will you stop?"He asked softly.
"I'm sorry. I wish I could stop."
"Where is Udaina?" I asked.
"She is on the roof of the upper room, perhaps." Master replied.
I went to see Udaina on the roof." Udaina what happened to you? Why did you climb up?"
Do you concern? She said sternly.
"Oh, so you are sad because of my departure."
"No, why should I?" She replied.
"Then come down". I heard her answer and said.
She started coming down the stairs. "Why aren't you going now?" She said in a restrained manner.
"I just came to say goodbye to you, sorry, I can't stop."
I said this and turned around, but what it was?
Udaina was crying.
"Oh, don't cry like this. If you cry, I won't be able to go." I said comforting her.
This is what I want." She said while crying.
"But I said earlier that I can stay only for one month." I tried to console her. "Do you want to be alone forever? You will not be happy like this. Don't go. We both will go to school together. We will watch many movies. Don't go."
I turned around. Tears were flowing from my eyes. I ran and sat in a cab. Tears were continuously coming out of my eyes. I could not stop them even if I wanted to do so.Wasn't Udaina one of those I tested? No, she was my real friend. But her name was also written in my diary. I wanted to curse myself. How could I be so heartless? I amused myself by others.They are just toys to me.
"Where do you want to go?" asked the driver.
I was suddenly afraid. "Oh yes, no, but not."
I was shocked. I collected myself and wiped my tears. "Yes, just drop me here." I said after walking some distance from the hotel."How much sir?" I asked.
"Only fifty rupees."
"What?" I was shocked.
"Do you say just to them?" After all, how far have we traveled that I should give you fifty rupees. I forgot all the things and started insisting on giving only twenty rupees. I will give only twenty rupees, so take it. I said in a straightforward manner.
"But not so little. Let's give forty." He said.
"No,only twenty." I was adamant about the amount I told. He looked at me strangely and said," let's give twenty. You are of my daughter's age. Why to argue."
He is saying as if he is giving me today's charity. Well, whatever it is, money is saved.
I said in my heart, Now where will I go? Where do I want to go? Do I have a destination or not? Do I have a purpose or not? As soon as I said this to myself, I remembered my father's words.
He had once said to me that I have no purpose and no destination. Today I myself say that I have no goal and no destination.But am I responsible for this? Aren't they who didn't help me to choose my destination. Everyone's family helps him but why not my family do so? Was I so bad that they didn't even pay attention to me? But now there is someone who cares about me. A friend like a sister, and a master like a father. As soon as I thought this, I ran to the hotel from where I came out crying. It was strange for me because I did not cry even while leaving my own house.So it must mean that this hotel is better than my house. The people living in this hotel are better than my family. I soon reached the door of the hotel. When I opened the door, Udaina was sitting on the chair and was crying and the master and the cook were trying to keep her quiet.On seeing me, Master came near me and said, "Shut it up or she will tear our ears off."
I smiled and went to Udaina and said," shut up. Look I'm back. Master I always wanted to work here. Will you hire me?"
"Yes,of course! I will gladly hire you?"Master replied.
"Really?" Udaina shouted.
"Yes indeed. How can I leave my ugly little sister." Everyone started laughing. Tonight was the funnest night ever. We ate burgers and then watched a magical movie.My eyes got open at two o'clock in the night. Udaina was sleeping. I came out with my bag. I took out the diary from it and looked at it. There were many people's names in it. The last one was Udaina.These were all the names of my toys so far.But no actually they were people whom I didn't know but even then I smiled because of them.
Who gave me happiness, though it was for one or two moments. I ended this series today without thinking.Maybe, but I will definitely regret it later because traveling the world is my greatest desire. But maybe I didn't get anyone's attention until then. Maybe I shouldn't keep this diary anymore. Thinking that I threw it aside and started coming inside.Oh my greediness! Finally I put it back in my bag saying that it is too expensive.
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